posted March 20, 2006 11:49 AM            

Man between yesterday and today things have happen to make me want to snap off. But each time I catch myself and handle it lightly or let it go.

Two cases in point and I have to vent here other wise I may just snapp. Typically bc of my Pisces sun and 12house moon and other 12house placement i am pretty coo. But my 1st house sun and Merc challenges this all the time..

Yesterday I am on my in from church and well where I live parking is really tight and after a certain point parking is scarce. I pull up to a parking space and This car pulls right up behind me and I say I know this person is not going to pull this she sqeezes in the spot having a hard time she was trying to get in that spot with me sitting there blocking her. So I pull away just simply mad thinking what type of idiot would do this. I find another on just a few spots away. I say let me get in her face. My son says Ma that is the lady that lives in our buliding. So Just as she enters her door I walk up to her and say yeah that was cool the way you stole my parking space she looks at me and says oh that was you. I just looked I could have rippped her just on that comment I just went into my building. This morning she is the first person I see when I leave out this morning I got a lil ****** again but left it alone and I did say good morning.

Case two: I send out a daily inspiration almost every morning to my friends and co worker and I will tell this morning I was ready to snap but I let it go. I just feel like I am being tested on my response to things which have not been very positive lately. A friend of min replies to my daily inspiration uh you should have catorgorize he meaning the Lord in your daily inspiration. Ok I have been doing this four years now I have never got a inspiration from her on a consistence bases ever. Plus I felt like she was just picking bc she is that type a Aries and hse is a lil upset cause I do not talk to her much I donot have a good feeling about her so I keep things light between us. Its like she is always trying to show me up or something.

So here I am tyring to be nice and not snapp I really feel like I am being tested for sure all weekend really. I have to keep my cool. It took everything not to repond to her.

posted March 20, 2006 02:10 PM              

I live with a "friend" who is OK half the time and not so okay the other half...for example, when their partner is down to stay they will have a mega-b*tch about me in a particular room of the house when they know I can hear every word...I am not really in a position to fight back as such because I rent a room from them, although veiled comments and writing non-specific posters referring to *certain unnamed people* and sticking them on my bedroom wall does help - LOL - I know why they do what they do because they have told me things about their partner, such as the fact that they love them with their mind and not with their heart - that they would not want repeated to them - so they b*tch about me to keep us apart - which they have been doing ever since I moved in - but I have come to realize I can't really expect much more from them because they are vicious and do what they do to everybody. They started moaning on about someone else to me again today and I just shrugged my shoulders and said "oh well, THAT'S LIFE" - which cut them short - and I think they were a bit shocked to hear that coming from me (and so was I - never thought I'd say that - but I thought "F - you and your problems, don't DARE to expect any sympathy from me when you take my problems and turn them against me" - You get the idea? ).

Maybe be more phlegmatic, let life wash over you a bit more, don't try to expect too much & let the little things get to you? That's what I am trying to do.

Love,