posted April 16, 2006 02:06 PM            

My Ex and I had many situations in last year no matter she is in realtionship, her escape and some stupid need for security. But Her emotions are somewhere else....

Pls, I need 2 things I would like to know, that would be helpful for me and that I can get some confirmation of my "feeling" inside, my intuition or illusion.

1. Is there any relationship breakup in her life in this next few months and does she gonna contact me. Chances atleast.

2. What is about my emotional life in next few months? Are there something new or old coming so I can finnaly feel alive?

My INFO: 26th december 1976, 6:15 AM, Zagreb, Croatia

Her INfO: 5th january 1979, 5:25 PM, Zagreb, Croatia

posted April 16, 2006 05:57 PM              

With Libra (relationships) modifying Pluto (transformation, also power) conjunct Midheaven (outer world), you tend to use your relationships to get power in the outer world. For whatever reason it seems you can't over-power this ex of yours and so you obsess over it.

You will soon have a Saturn return to Saturn focused in the 8th house (transformation, also power). When Saturn returns to the place it was at our birth, it is a time to grow up and become an adult about the area where Saturn is. With Saturn focused in your 8th house of power, it indicates you need to have the power and strength to move on in relationships which are over, so you can transform yourself and become more powerful the next time you are in relationship situations. By refusing to move on and comparing all relationships to your old relationship, you become "stuck" in life. The approaching Saturn return indicates that there could be serious consequences of refusing to grow up and move on.

Transformationally,

posted April 17, 2006 06:03 AM            

There is so strange magnetism between us it is hard to comprehend, not only from my side, but like you said not only that I feel "power" beside her, she is like me...
What is with her? Is her lesson in this perios in life to finnaly trust her feelings or our story ends? She has Uranus opposition Saturn soon, something that teaches us to grow up If I got right description of that aspect. What is with her?

I know it is hard to tell is it over or not, as also I know I have to "live" life, but are there any possiblitiy of her return, and this time in our life was here to TEACH us something about ourselfs?
Or our story is different?

posted April 18, 2006 09:56 PM              

I know what you mean when you say you're waiting for that "bolt of lightning" to strike you so you can move on. I feel the same way about my last relationship. Things were so good at one point and now that it's over you want to feel as great as you did in those special moments. Because of this, you shut yourself off from other potential relationships unless you can feel that bolt of lightning right away.

I am trying to tell myself that another person who has that same effect on me will come along, but it is certainly not easy.

I think the best thing to do in this case is to just enjoy the time you have for yourself and your personal growth. Eventually someone will find you or vice versa and hopefully that spark will be felt again. No, it won't be exactly the same.. but that's because everything relationship is unique. This is what makes it hard for me to let go of someone, the fact that what I had with that person I will never have again no matter what.

Just my two cents, I hope you feel better.

posted April 18, 2006 10:36 PM              

I know how much you are hurting. I know the desperation and confusion you feel. How can something so real and beautiful be over? It's like our hearts can't comprehend that love ends (because really, I believe it it lives forever). Forms change, but try to take comfort in knowing that your love was, IS real, just the form your relationship takes is now different. Your bodies are separated on earth, and your karma may not be completed in this life. But what your heart feels is still true and real. Nothing can change that.

As hard as it seems, as unbelievable and difficult and incomprehensible... she may not come back, or contact you again. Another person may not come along like a bolt of lighting to get you out of this despair. You simply can't spend your life waiting for other people to come along and make or break your happiness.

In my life, I have learned there is no quick fix for a broken heart. Sometimes time helps, sometimes it doesn't. I know that the more I hurt, the more I sought answers about how NOT to hurt anymore. I think soul-searching is the best thing you can do... read, write, take walks, cry. Try to imagine a new life that does not have her in it. There IS life on the other side... and while I hope she comes back to you forever, we never have a guarantee.

I think this is a time where you can learn so much about life and about yourself... don't waste a minute of it. This pain can be a gift beyond your wildest dreams.

Much love & light,