posted April 21, 2006 08:56 PM              

I'm sorry I've been gone for so long, work, and life commitments, relationships, have kept me busy.

posted April 21, 2006 09:49 PM            

aries sun/cancer moon
pisces sun/aries moon
sag sun/aqua moon
scorpio sun/libra moon

all four of them are being super moody.. which makes me moody..

i was told that i'm the happiest person in our group of friends today, next to my Sag Sun/Taurus Moon friend. And I don't think I've been more moody than usual lately.

Hmm... I have observed that a lot of my friends are complaining about something that's missing: college, things to do, interesting people, work, jobs, cars, friends, money, etc. Then again, we're 17/18 year old kids who complain about not having everything, lol...

I have been feeling like everything around me is great, but something is missing.. but I've felt like that for a long time..

It's bothered me for so long that I've compiled a log of common answer according to signs. Aries says I need to get laid. Pisces says I'm lonely. Scorpio tells me to suck it up.

Who knows why I feel unsatisfied. Perhaps I'm unsatisfiable?

I really should check up on my transits..

posted April 21, 2006 10:32 PM              

But that's parshly cause there were some traumatic events that I dealt with in the past couple of years (dont wanna talk about it)...and the feelings have just sort of stuck with me......

posted April 22, 2006 04:05 AM              

Currently I don't feel there's anything missing from my life, even though I have nothing going on in the relationships sector, for example...but I don't miss it. I am busy, and feel complete in myself. I am able to do all the things I want to do, and don't feel obligated to do anything I don't want to.

posted April 23, 2006 01:42 PM              

I've been feeling something similar to what you were saying, but I've been continually attributing it to the thinning veil.

posted April 23, 2006 02:46 PM              

not exactly .. but .. that 'missing something' feeling seems to have been a constant companion .. even at the best of times .. i'm not sure how much that may have to do with my natal moon being in the 12th .. i just have an odd feeling that it might ..

reason for me saying so .. .. and how the 12th house might connect .. is that ..
transiting Jupiter has just (as far as i can tell here) entered your 12th house (placidius).. and .. is aspecting by opposition .. the exact midpoint between your natal Saturn and Sun ..

last couple of days .. the t.Sun has been conjoining your natal Saturn ..

short termers :
t.Merc (t.4th) squares your Moon
t.Venus (t.4th .. just) opposes your Mc / and trines the Vertex
t.Mars(t.8th .. just) squares your natal Chiron about to conjoin natal Lillith then Moon

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added blather/ thoughts .. no idea if they connect to your topic .. or not ..
but it seems to connect to Sag. .. so ..

.. two people .. stephanie and dave .. both Taurean Suns .. both quite different from each other ..
what i remember about stephs' chart is that Sag featured in the personal placements ..
either Mars or the Moon or both ..

they were together in .. at times .. a rather tempestuous relationship .. for about 7 years ..
he's a really 'stodgy' bull .. tunnel vision .. stubborn as a mule .. and is not the most gregarious person one is likely to meet .. in short he is a real 'stay at home ' or 'iv'e got work to do' bull .. .. she on the other hand is quite the opposite .. very sociable and likes simply to go out and have a good time .. .. she was quite true to her sag placements .. firing off arrows here and there .. some of which would hit dave at an inopportune moment causing him to display that bullish frown (tony blair .. our dear pm. .. does it quite well .. when he's getting p***** off) .. and when dave got in a mood .. he stayed in a mood .. she had much more of a 'live and let live' attitude .. and wouldn't get all morose about slight upsets or hurts .. but she did have quite a fiery temper .. short lived though .. .. would simmer for a while after ..

one day she got tired of his narrow vision .. and finaly left for greener pastures .. come to think of it she wanted to marry him and he couldn't make up his mind .. (there were a number of issues including her bizarre daughter from a previous marriage ) .. .. .. dave .. mr stubborn all work no play (well just about) couldn't believe it when she left and proceeded to drown himself in alchohol .. but only for a day or so ..

i guess the point is this .. steph always seemed to be 'aiming' at something or someone .. whether it was a real goal or just an idea thrown loose for scrutinizing .. when she were with dave her aim (one of) was to get married .. .. in any case it seemed like she needed goals to aim for .. or just to be able to shoot off arrows and see where they hit .. that ability seemed somewhat restricted within their relationship .. .. .. but for her .. she often thought that 'something was missing' .. exactly what i don't exactly know .. .. but i had the feeling that if everything in her life were to be hunky dory .. relationship/work/family/play time .. that she would still feel she needed to aim for something .. in that somewhat restless Sag manner ..
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'n Sag's ruler just entering your 12th .. may have a connection .. only a theory though ..
.. may the 'missing something' feeling be of brief duration ..
.. and the wind be always at your back ..

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posted April 23, 2006 03:52 PM              

What I'd really like to do is take a nice long trip all to myself and take some time to reflect and make some constructive moves on the things that are bugging me.

Home life, people, relationships, work can be distracting when it comes to doown time and getting clear on how you are really feeling.

posted April 23, 2006 04:05 PM              

something also to consider would be the current position of transiting Uranus
relative to your Mc-Ic / Mars and Merc .. .. applying albeit slowly .. to conjoin your Ic ..
.. i suspect t.Uranus would add somewhat to any underlying feelings of restlessness ..

.. i've got to recognize urns transits as they approach ..
.. it's as if they be like a slow build up of electrical current ..
and there seems to be a need to satisfy uranian 'wants' ..

posted April 23, 2006 05:09 PM              

ironic story here: a libra buddy of mine has tried to help a second libra buddy with expressing his anger (he is a very chill guy overall, but I agree, he needs to speak up when something bother him because he doesn't at all.)...libra 1, who is trying to help, thinks libra 2 puts on a happy face all the time, but needs to stop being a push over and state when things are wrong, because its unhealthy to always put on a happy facade. the ironic thing is, libra 2 exploded...at libra 1. haha. wow.

posted April 23, 2006 09:42 PM              

Right now I have just been extremely lonely, and able to cry at the simplest things.. like on the bus today listening to music, I almost started crying for no reason.