posted May 11, 2006 10:37 PM              

As you all know today is the day that the full moon is in scorpio. Well let me tell you how the full moon in scorpio affected me.

* Today I re-visited a park that my ex and I used to visit. And as I was walking through the park all I could do was start to cry thinking about all the nice things we used to do together. Keep in mind I haven't been to that park in almost 2yrs. And it so happened that I was in the area (of the park ) today and something told me to just stop by.

And what makes it soooo funny is that prior to today he would hardly cross my mind.

posted May 11, 2006 10:52 PM              

I only realized on the way home, looking up at the moon, that it was indeed full today.

posted May 12, 2006 08:19 AM            

the other three i thought i'd have the time to do today, but now i don't...

EFFF...

posted May 12, 2006 09:54 AM              

This is my drawing from a few months ago but it pretty close to how I felt throughout the past two weeks

posted May 12, 2006 05:10 PM            

Since the New Moon, I have felt drained off and on. I will feel very energetic one day and then pretty damn tired the next. The past two days I have been a force to be reckoned with, but today I am drained - my throat even feel sore. (The other cause could be I haven't been taking my allergy meds at night before I go to sleep and my sinuses are killing me).

As far as metaphysical / spiritual? Well, I am about halfway through my dream cycle (usually every couple of months I have dreams that have more of a connection to every day and other events). Last night I dreamt I was in pain, and had to go to the restroom. My kidneys were failing and I had pains in my side. In the dream I knew I had to get on IV fluids as soon as possible.

Mr. Leo called and woke me up to tell me they had taken in father into the hospital for pancreatitis (kidney problems are associated) and he was on fluids waiting for the scope. Turns out he had gallstones that caused the pancreatitis.

I need to refresh the seasalt in my house and burn the Sage because there are too many influences trying to reach in - it may sound weird, but is something dreamers have to ward against.

At the same time, I have Transiting Pluto conjuncting my Sun - which can be quite training. The Current T. Sun has just left the conjunct with my Saturn and the Full Moon in Scorp is conjuncting my Neptune in the 3rd house..

Let's just say - open vessel for communication right now. Not good for party tricks LOL.... (I am supposed to go out with friends tonight, but I want to concentrate my energy on Mr. Leo and waiting for word on his dad. Also, too many influences can wear a person out).

Other than that...I am just kind of spacey.

This could explain it too:

posted May 12, 2006 05:52 PM            

The Sun / Merc are in Taurus
Saturn is in Leo
Neptune is in Aquarius

Pretty heavy hitters - that create a grand square with the Moon / Jupiter in Scorpio.

Now depending on the charts planets, if one has personal planets in these fixed signs, in addition to the strong Scorp Sun / Moon - well, that can make even the strongest person feel the emotions of the world.

I think with Neptune especially creating part of the grand square- the ethers will be particularly unclear today.

As they say....

posted May 12, 2006 07:05 PM            

Heck, this is the perfect time because the catalyst exists- the Grand Square (even if it is a bit loose). It's time to face the pain and purge it.

Someone said something about visiting a park that she and her ex would go to. There is something cathartic about doing that and when the planets are lining up in this way, urging us to FEEL- we should ride that wave.

Think of how powerful this moon is - it's in Scorpio ruled by Pluto. Pluto is about transforming, regeneration, diving into the depths of hell and being reborn.

Think of the beauty of the Judgment Card (I have Robin Wood Cards and Judgment is spectacular http://www.themysticeye.com/pics/robinwood.htm

The woman has a look of rebirth, success after having faced the depths of all that is painful.

She burst from the fire, with the Phoenix (Scorpio) in flames behind her as a shadow. One cannot get there until one faces the pain and embraces the sadness that one feels.

Sometimes it is easier said that done. I like to burn sage, take a hot bath, maybe have a glass of wine. Sometimes I will touch my cards for comfort, think of the past - look at my collection of items that have always brought me happiness- family photo albums, artwork..

And always.. I listen to the Cure

posted May 12, 2006 07:33 PM              

How strange.....I was sad today cos nobody was able to be there for me....

And there was you....

posted May 12, 2006 07:57 PM            

I try to not think about the differences, especially when I see someone needs a hand.

I also know that you be the same and I have seen you offer many words of kindness for other people- that is huge in my book.

posted May 12, 2006 08:24 PM              

On the negative side, I have been thinking a lot about my friend that died about a year and a half ago (she was only 15.....I'm older now than she was back then). I've been reflecting on memories and listening to songs that remind me of her....don't even know why. Maybe it might have to do with full moon in Scorpio.

But on the positive side, the play that I am currently in has been going extremely well. It is tech week for us, and we have made a lot of great progressm and I finally know all my cues (-:

posted May 12, 2006 08:27 PM              

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I think the very best one can do during this time, when feeling so low and sad.. is to embrace it.

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That's very true. Sometimes the tide is too strong to fight and it's pointless to try to swim against it.

Something else you said struck a chord Pidaua - about the woman who went to walk in the park that she and her ex used to go to. Today I found myself deliberately looking at old childhood photos of myself and my dad, knowing that it would make me cry, as though it was the trigger I needed to pull to effect some kind of release from all the emotion floating around at the moment.

He died 10 years ago June 8 and I seem to be feeling it very keenly all of a sudden. As though it were yesterday.

"Many, many undercurrents" indeed.