posted August 14, 2006 03:33 AM              

I have been browsing this site for quite some time, and it has taught me allot about astrology, as well as, the great Linda Goodman. I bought three of her books, Sun Signs, Love Signs, and Star Signs. I ordered Gooberz from amazon, and it will arrive soon.

However, For the past 4 years I have been severely depressed. I was doing a course in Business management, but dropped out without telling anyone about it. Went through a spiral of depression and since childhood, I've survived about 6 suicide attempts. I feel I am physically unattractive and I have no friends what so ever. Even though I've gone back to college to finish my course, I really don't know what to do with myself. I feel i could be an astrologer or a tarot card reader, for whenever I get asked about such things, my predictions and other readings come out very true. Unfortunately whenever I try reading my chart, or doing a Tarot reading for myself, nothing makes sense what so ever.

Is there kind of career i can take up in which i would be successful in? Because I feel so useless at times that I can't do anything right. As well as, what I can do to get out of these depressive fits. Any kind of help would be greatly appreciated.

posted August 14, 2006 05:26 AM              

I don't see your chart? (Not that I'm yet able to make any qualified comments) hmmm...maybe it's my browser. I hope you are well.

posted August 14, 2006 06:14 AM              

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If that doesn't work.. here is the basic info:-

Sun Capricorn 03°13'57 03 direct
Moon Aquarius 02°34'18 04 direct
Mercury Sagittarius 14°30'28 02 stationary (D)
Venus Aquarius 18°15'13 04 direct
Mars Aquarius 29°40'39 05 direct
Jupiter Capricorn 19°48'35 03 direct
Saturn Scorpio 24°01'36 02 direct
Uranus Sagittarius 14°57'03 02 direct
Neptune Capricorn 01°12'56 03 direct
Pluto Scorpio 04°11'49 01 direct
True Node Taurus 26°55'53 08 retrograde

House positions (Placidus)

Ascendant Libra 24°46'48
2nd House Scorpio 23°33'21
3rd House Sagittarius 24°13'46
Imum Coeli Capricorn 26°14'13
5th House Aquarius 28°18'47
6th House Pisces 28°20'51
Descendant Aries 24°46'48
8th House Taurus 23°33'21
9th House Gemini 24°13'46
Medium Coeli Cancer 26°14'13
11th House Leo 28°18'47
12th House Virgo 28°20'51

ASPECTS:-

Sun Sextile Mars 3°33
Sun Conjunction Neptune 2°01
Sun Sextile Pluto 0°58
Moon Square Pluto 1°38
Moon Square Ascendant 7°47
Mercury Sextile Venus 3°45
Mercury Conjunction Uranus 0°27
Venus Square Saturn 5°46
Venus Sextile Uranus 3°18
Mars Square Saturn 5°39
Mars Sextile Neptune 1°32
Mars Trine Pluto 4°31
Mars Trine Ascendant 4°54
Jupiter Sextile Saturn 4°13
Jupiter Square Ascendant 4°58
Neptune Sextile Pluto 2°59

posted August 14, 2006 03:47 PM              

You have most of your planets focused in the bottom left of your chart, so you use what you know about yourself to focus on your inner world. Some challenges you face are Saturn (duty, also restriction, structure) square (energy needs to be combined with) Mars (being, also action), so you are restricted in your actions. The challenge is to find a way to structure your actions somehow. It may take longer, but it leads to a more solid result.

In addition you have Pluto (transformation, also power, death) square (energy needs to be combined with) your Moon (home, also emotions), which can indicate a feeling of being emotionally overpowered, and maybe an emotional connection to death feelings. The challenge is to use this power to develop a deep, emotional power in yourself. Pluto is focused in your 1rst house (being), so you are a powerful being...you just have to develop the ability to use your power. Power issues are very important to your life goals, since you have North node (future goals) focused in the 8th house (transformation, also power) near the 7th house (relationships).

This suggests that you may be good at transforming and empowering those around you with your relationship to them. This suggests work as a psychologist, therapist, or perhaps occultist/astrologer (also connected to the 8th house) of some type. The challenge is to heal yourself...and then to go out and heal others.

Wishing you great power,

Tim

posted August 14, 2006 04:59 PM              

I would really appreciate if you could perhaps give me a little more detailed of an analysis of my chart. I would really like to know the cause of such depressions I face, as well as, what drives me through such pits of melancholy that have led to failed suicidal attempts? I really feel so low about myself and my abilities at times that I have to cry myself to sleep.

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This suggests that you may be good at transforming and empowering those around you with your relationship to them. This suggests work as a psychologist, therapist, or perhaps occultist/astrologer (also connected to the 8th house) of some type. The challenge is to heal yourself...and then to go out and heal others.

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How do I heal myself first Tim? And do you really feel I could be successful if i pursue such fields?

I'm sorry to be a bother, but if you do have time. Please help me out in these areas.

posted August 15, 2006 02:50 AM              

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My goodness you have so much potential in your chart, alot of wonderful qualities you can use to help other people. I don't know why you feel that way, because you shouldn't. You have a gift and you should know that you are special...

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I don't mean to be rude or disrespectful, for it is indeed very kind and sweet of you to say such wonderful things, but could you tell me what in my chart made you say that?

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Tim, thank you once again for your reading, I hope you could illuminate further on the areas i asked.

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I appreciate all your kindness and support.

posted August 16, 2006 01:25 AM              

I think, since you are a very sensitive person, you may be picking up on the "world's pain." As Buddhism says, all is suffering. So some people who are sensitive and caring about the world have the ability to feel this suffering directly. You may need to have some "alone time" when you can be by yourself, doing things you enjoy. This should lessen your awareness of the suffering of the world enough so that you are able to feel good about yourself and what you do.

Always remember that, as Buddhism says, all we can do in life is to "make effort"...there are no guarantees we will succeed, but all we can do is try. YES, that DOES mean I disagree STRONGLY with Yoda from Star Wars who most famously said, "Do or do not...there is no try!" In fact, the exact OPPOSITE is true...all we DO is to try. And, once we can do is our absolute best...and then, whatever happens, happens.

As has been mentioned, with Pluto in the first house, you have the power to make things happen for yourself. All that it takes...is to try.

Wishing you the best,

posted August 17, 2006 01:28 AM              

*Slap... Slap*.. Snap Out of it!

Either you're a total wh@re for attention, or you're the most self depreciative dumbfuck thw world has ever seen. So who gives a crap if your Saturn afflicts Venus and Mars, it sextiles Jupiter, and when such a rare thing happens, that means that your life is going to turn in for the better.

It's obvious from your second house stellium and ceres and NN in taurus that you're a fatty. SO what? Loosing weight isn't that hard, just start seeing a nutritionist and start a basic work out. Even going out for a brisk hour long walk can work wonders. All your self loathing and depression is only because of how you look. How do i know that? Your ascendant is libra, afflicting your moon. Hence you have this whole fuckedup attitude about your personal self. We are what we think we are, so start visualizing yourself as how you wanna be, fit, handsome, and sexy, and work your way to achieve it. Pluto in your first house gives you that strength and energy to "re-invent" youself.

The venus and uranus aspect (and other things in the chart) can also mean that you're a closet fag or bi, and are bound to a strict saturn ruled household that frowns upon it. (Saturn afflicts your venus in 4th).. So who cares, don't treat your self as a freak...you're FABULOUS.

With Neptune, Sun and Jupiter in the 3rd, its obvious you have talents in writing. Perhaps you cant complete anything, but dont give up on it. Move your fat ass and do something with your life, rather than just throw a pitty party in your honor.

In other words... Get over yourself bi@tch!