posted October 06, 2006 10:53 AM              

Over this last month (due to the eclipses, I'm sure) my whole life has changed and just a few days actually been quite calm. I've been depressed for about a month, and now I feel like I've pulled the clouds all away.

Now I'm almost positive that I'm going to build up a portfolio for an art school. I'm a very artistic person, and a good writer, but I hadn't even considered doing art for a long time, I lost all confidence in it last year, and spent more than a year switching around something that I was comfortable about doing. Suddenly, it's all I can think about or do. I've been working passionately on projects and coming up with some interesting things. All of this in just a couple days, and I actually got up and researched places to live where I'd be moving.. etc.

I couldn't see myself doing anything else for the rest of my life. Although, I've changed my idea for what I want to do for the rest of my life (and been very passionate about it) several times. I'm afraid I'm delusional. This has been a wandering idea in my head for at least five months now. Even part of last year I was considering it, and now it's in full force.

Is this marking a time in my life where I'm gaining a new start? That's what I feel like I'm doing (I even saw signs of butterflies and caterpillars.. signs of transition, and had a dream of a black caterpillar.. along with my reoccuring dreams that come when my life is changing dramatically, and i haven't had them for years).

Can anyone who's more knowledgable in astrology than me help me out with this? Is there something in my natal chart to signify this change? Or is it just the result of the solar eclipse -- a new beginning, that isn't delusional? Or is it transits? I feel anxious, excited, and refreshed. But I guess it's just the pisces in me to second guess..
Thank you!

posted October 06, 2006 12:01 PM              

Now---for the past several years, you have had some "butterfly transits" in effect, so transformation is happening--changing your boundaies and your needs. Currently you are beginning yet another transformation--literally of the kind of changes you have in your life. This one will be significant--not merely for you--but in some way, for the world.

Probably what has been happening is a kind of step-by-step process, designed to put you more in touch with yourself.

This feels intense because it is intense, like bringing a part of yourself out of a coma. It is a very real change and probably the last major change for some time.

Chances are you will go through a period of doubt and/or revision of the current changes in or near 7/29/07, but it is a temporary thing. The current change will be permanently established in form by or near 10/15/07.

Try to relax and go with the flow. Spirit is working through your life. The very Aries-Pisces mix described above is designed to conclude one phase of personal/spiritual/consciousness development and begin a new one. Congratulations! by the time you are 21, you will be at the place older generations achieved at age 30 or even 40.

posted October 06, 2006 12:35 PM              

That really makes me have quite a bit of hope. The butterfly transits? I have definitely felt them for months now. I'm not the same person as I was a month ago, and definitely not the same person as I was six months ago. I'm glad that I got some light on the whole situation. I like what you said about "bringing part of yourself out of a coma". That's what it has felt like, I've been literally picking apart my brain, finding these parts of myself that have been lost for years..

Yeah, I'm definitely an aries that thinks like a pisces. I look like a pisces, think like a pisces (always have) but when it comes to day-to-day life, I tend to rush. I'm trying at the moment to slow myself down, because I can't get anything finished when I'm in a rush. I feel as if the older I get.. the more pisces I feel, at least.