posted November 14, 2006 03:32 AM
The past week memories of my 1st true love have been resurfacing on me. We split up 11 years ago. Every though I strongly proclaim that I am freedom loving and find it hard to commit - this man I would have married in a heartbeat. This man made my heart sing and he was a wonderful friend. There will always be a place in my heart for him - it was a relationship that taught me a lot. After the break up, the hardest lesson for myself was learned. In 11 years I have seen dramatic growth within myself. A major transformation within and outside myself. I was a stranger to myself, hanging on other peoples views and opinions on me. I had to work hard and and ignore what other people said about me. Today I know myself quite well and I'm now working on building my own life. The old things in my past such as singing I have taken up again - after 26 years of not singing.
The break up happened during my last Jupiter return in Sept of 1995 - and guess what I'm coming up to another Jupiter return. Maybe my '95 Jupiter cycle is coming to a close and my lessons learned.
But it seems like the theme has been those relationships - be it parent, brother, sister, friend etc. My '83 jupiter return was a nightmare and at the same time transitting Saturn and Pluto was squaring my natal moon in Cancer. The emoitional terroist that married my mom came into my life. Things were hell from the get go. I had no where to run when I was 12, I tried though and my attempted were canned and I was punished.....
Back to the 1st true love. He is only 2 months older than me - Jan 27, 1971 Missisauga, Ontario. He is a nice Aquarian/Saggy mix. Sun/Moon in Aqua, Venus/Mars/Jupiter/Neptune in Sag. His venus is conj my descendant, trine my sun.
There are times I just miss having a friend like him. My cancer side is showing and I'm being sentimental I guess.......
Could it be that my jupiter return is coming up and I'm now reflecting on a cycle that is coming to a close for me? Will this new Jupiter cycle bring in my soul mate who will be there till death? I wonder........
ID