posted December 06, 2006 12:50 PM              

and the fact that, when his "cheating" period took place, we were both not really close enough. it was a long distance relationship, and whenever i asked "why would you cheat on me? give me a reason", he would always say "ask any of my friends, how i treated her (the girl he went out with), i treated her like as a joke, and was never in love with her, nor did i like her". of course, this is pleasant to hear, but the lies he told, the secrets he kept from me, they just open up this dwelling upon what he actually said that was true, and what was not. he promises never to cheat again, and he talks about our future kids and marriage and life basically. now this is what makes me fall head over heels for him. he's just so consuming.. consuming my love, that i present to him always.

he wants to look forward to the future, forgetting the past. but i just CANNOT persuade myself to move that way. as hard as i try, those thoughts of their kisses, their hugs, the touch and feel she had from him, all the things i crave upon, come rolling back into my mind, and it's torture beyond anything.

sex is amazing, being with him is just like heaven. but i need to KNOW that he will never ever EVER hurt me again. otherwise i will literally explode. it's the most heart break i've experienced, and i haven't even ended it with him yet! people tell me to forget about him, move on, find someone better. but in my eyes, he is perfect. he is accepting of who i am, loving me for me, cherishing my love and giving it back.

Pisces have a knack of leaving because they get bored. i try not to bore him with my endless doubts and thoughts, but i must say, comparing my relationship to him with others, we seem to be more exciting and daring than everybody else. we have a connection that is just there, and it is strong. i need him, forever. but i need to know if he wants this, needs this, deserves this...

so could anyone please tell me what has me so indulged in this guy. i love him than i've ever loved anything else before. after all the hurt and pain, the love still remains intact. why is this?

i've seen analysis such as for example "your sun is in his 4th house". how does this work, and what does it mean? could anyone possibly do the same for mine and his charts? thank you ever so much. this forum is very well devoted to astrology, and i find it so overwhelming the help that one recieves when in a crisis. it is truly amazing <3

my chart:

PLANETARY POSITIONSplanet sign degree
Sun Libra 3°38'04 in house 6
Moon Leo 28°52'39 in house 6
Mercury Virgo 29°52'42 in house 6
Venus Scorpio 16°28'52 in house 7
Mars Libra 4°38'16 in house 6
Jupiter Cancer 9°13'09 in house 4
Saturn Capricorn 7°29'46 in house 10
Uranus Capricorn 1°27'21 in house 9
Neptune Capricorn 9°37'00 in house 10
Pluto Scorpio 13°31'42 in house 7
True Node Aquarius 25°25'37 in house 12

HOUSE POSITIONS (Placidus)Ascendant Aries 20°56'27
2nd House Gemini 0°19'15
3rd House Gemini 20°44'06
Imum Coeli Cancer 7°23'29
5th House Cancer 25°31'50
6th House Leo 22°22'54
Descendant Libra 20°56'27
8th House Sagittarius 0°19'15
9th House Sagittarius 20°44'06
Medium Coeli Capricorn 7°23'29
11th House Capricorn 25°31'50
12th House Aquarius 22°22'54

his chart:

PLANETARY POSITIONSplanet sign degree
Sun Pisces 25°46'47 in house 3
Moon Libra 12°14'16 in house 9
Mercury Pisces 0°44'04 in house 2
Venus Aquarius 16°00'01 in house 2
Mars Taurus 16°39'00 in house 4
Jupiter Aries 3°22'53 in house 3
Saturn Sagittarius 20°59'32 in house 12
Uranus Sagittarius 26°37'32 in house 12
Neptune Capricorn 7°50'29 in house 1
Pluto Scorpio 9°39'43 in house 10
True Node Aries 11°29'17 in house 3

HOUSE POSITIONS (Placidus)Ascendant Capricorn 7°01'25
2nd House Aquarius 11°14'23
3rd House Pisces 17°37'11
Imum Coeli Aries 20°59'10
5th House Taurus 18°59'16
6th House Gemini 13°17'44
Descendant Cancer 7°01'25
8th House Leo 11°14'23
9th House Virgo 17°37'11
Medium Coeli Libra 20°59'10
11th House Scorpio 18°59'16
12th House Sagittarius 13°17'44

posted December 06, 2006 04:14 PM            

He was being with another girl when your relationship was still not serious yet, and he said that he wasn't really serious and didn't treat the other girl well.. Honestly, I think that the moment we start a relationship, we should fully commit ourselves, no matter what dephs the relationship is, unless both agrees.. We should be sincere to each other.. that's the basic respect, even if we don't love each other much yet.. And how can he treat the other girl like a joke? A person that can be with another person even thought he didn't even like her.. Can you really accept a person like this?
In my opinion, I wouldn't like anyone that doesn't take a relationship seriously, or even worse, not being honest. Open relationships would be fine if both agrees and both doesn't hide about it.. otherwise it's disrespect for other people's feelings, loving each other strongly or not.
And btw.. he said "ask my friends"?.. does his friends know you before he cheated? if so, it's more disrespectful, don't you think? >_<;

And another thing, I don't really think that Pisces would leave his/her love if the relationship gets bored.. Well, a person that loves another person enough wouldn't just leave him/her coz he/she is bored.. ^_^; That would be a lame excuse for "I don't love you anymore". Coz love's not just resumed to that..
And don't try to keep the excitement with doubts.. I think that's not really healthy..

But well, you said that you still love him even after what happened, and that he seemed to have changed and became more devoted.. And that you both are having a great time when being together.. ^_^
People commits mistakes, but if he learned his lesson, and you want to give a try, why not? But remember to keep realistic and also be yourself..

Btw, if you can post the birthdays and birth times it would be easier.. ^_^ (sorry I'm not skilled enough to be able to read anything from the info you'ved posted)

posted December 06, 2006 04:51 PM              

i see venus-mars aspects, one is almost exact opposition, the other is a trine by sign, tho the orb is a bit wide. then his moon is conjunt your sun, with a wide orb. i think the strong venus-mars activity might be a factor.

frankly, i dont see why u have this obsession with him. may be the composite reveals something. i am not an expert anyways....

posted December 09, 2006 04:55 PM              

I agree with C23. He obviosly isnt a very nice person if he talks about treating a relationship with someone as a joke and saying he didn't really like her.

How would you feel if you were the next person he was talking about in that way?

Just a thought.