posted December 18, 2006 12:59 AM              

It all started Saturday morning at the gym when this woman was talking across the floor to one of the trainers about her date on Friday night. She got on the ellipitical machine next to me, and started this loud personal conversation. And I tried to hold out as long as I could, but when she got to the cuddling part, I told them that the conversation was private one and I don't want to hear it.

2. Later that day, we planned to take my 21 year old cousin out to her first 21 and over club. At the last minute she back out. We moved the partying to Los Angeles from Palm Springs because the kid said she didn't want to go to Palm Springs. I bought tickets. And she just up and decide she's not going when the whole night was about her. So, I called her and basically, coolly said, that I love her, however, her decision not to go is rude and mannerless.... And of course like any brat, she hated to hear that. She went on, "well as far as me being rude." And I say, Oh yes, you were rude, and mannerless. And she was like, "excuse me," and i was like, "no, you excuse me."

3. At the club this guy kept backing into me. The room was tight. I kept saying, excuse me. And his girlfriend turns to me and gives me these evil eyes, and ask her, does she have something to say to me. However, finally, ,after the last time, I tell the guy, look, we all want to enjoy the music, we all want to dance but there's just not that much space, so could he please give me a little space too. And, he says, oh, I apologize, yes. I was like, shocked at his reaction. I later learned from cousins and sisters that they most likely thought that I was coming on to him!!! But, you know, up until I gave him the speech, I was still pretty aggressive.

4. My sister in law lied on my nephews. The lie was so hideous I will not repeat it. So, this morning my sister in law calls my sister and comes up with a fourth version of a lie, however this is the first time she's ever told it herself. In the last 2 months she's left it up to my brother to tell every version, all starkly different from the previous. Anyway, my little sister, believes the 4th one. And accepts it. And I get ****** because this chick lies on her children, to such a degree, and she gets recompense. She lied to further her own interest. But, I can't get any recompense from my little sister. We used to argue a lot when I we were teenagers. Only because of my frustration. I have this whole problem with justice. People operating in the appropriate manner and resetting the world right. However, the older I get the wiser. But this girl, my sister, I can get no recompense. There's nothing I can do! So, that ****** me off! I just said forget it.

4. Then when I tell my other sister about it. She tells me that our baby sister somehow values my opinion. I say, okay, basically, so what! It still doesn't answer why I can't no recompense. So, I decided to tell my baby sister once, about 6 months ago, that it's not okay for her to mess around with a married man. And the relationship is not okay. I'm the bad guy. Why everyone else, sits around and lets her talk about it as if it's valid! Bring her children around the man, as he plays house with her. She has no bills with him! The woman that has the bills with him has the REAL relationship with him. She's just Disneyland. Of course I didn't say all that. But that was the last time I even had an opinion regarding her life. Most of the time I'm talking about how proud I am of her. Praising. And I'm sure I do it so much because I'm trying to ge some recompense. But tonight I realized, I'll never get it. Then I realized, I'll never get it from any of them. And so I'm through trying.

But for me to make these decisions and have these feelings, and take these actions this weekend, and I feel so strongly about them, is strange.

Could someone take a look below and see if the stars are causing me to react. Those transits on Cafeastrology told me I'm supposed to have this luck, and love and all this good stuff. Not so. It's all just coming down on me so hard in a pile. Plus, every little thing is getting to me. Things I can normally overlook.

Okay, here are the specs.

born on 2 Sep 1969 local time 4:28 pm
in Riverside, CA (US) U.T. 23:28
117w24, 33n57 sid. time 14:26:07

Planetary positionsplanet sign degree motion
Sun Virgo 10°17'36 in house 8 direct
Moon Gemini 2°05'38 end of house 4 direct
Mercury Libra 7°20'43 end of house 8 direct
Venus Leo 5°45'34 in house 7 direct
Mars Sagittarius 19°26'10 in house 11 direct
Jupiter Libra 8°35'35 in house 9 direct
Saturn Taurus 8°48'22 end of house 3 retrograde

House positions (Placidus)Ascendant Capricorn 19°05'58
2nd House Aquarius 28°59'35
3rd House Aries 7°52'34
Imum Coeli Taurus 8°55'10
5th House Gemini 3°35'20
6th House Gemini 25°38'37
Descendant Cancer 19°05'58
8th House Leo 28°59'35
9th House Libra 7°52'34
Medium Coeli Scorpio 8°55'10
11th House Sagittarius 3°35'20
12th House Sagittarius 25°38'37