posted March 29, 2007 02:10 PM              

But what shows at a glance is that you have a Saturn transit ongoing ..

basicly Saturn has been working over your ascendant position .. since late last year ..
and the same transit has been efecting your Venus placement/position ..

transiting Saturn has been 'conjunct' your Ascendant
and .. 'opposite' your Venus .. as that transit has been occuring ..

posted March 29, 2007 02:34 PM              

actually .. i think t.Chiron is sextiling your natal Chiron as well ..
a good time to address health issues ..
actualy when i see this .. " I feel like I'm old " .. i go looking for a chiron to chiron transit ..
more than Saturn ..
thing is .. Saturn likes to build 'structures' .. Uranus likes to tear down outmoded 'structures'
i.e. 'structure' as in one's way of living ..
t.Uranus likes to come around by transit and wake one up .. .. so to speak ..

i gotta go offline ..
so shall leave u these ..

some *temp.* pages here about those planets and their transits ..
~ http://www.happydragon.pwp.blueyonder.co.uk/jkbx/audiofls.html ~

posted March 29, 2007 07:50 PM            

Could you be more specific about your restless feelings in your relationships? Like, are we talking about anxiety and if so, what are the situations/events in the relationships that have brought it out more often?

posted March 30, 2007 07:09 AM              

So far I've had to deal with jealousy and possessiveness in all of my relationships, as I've always wanted to hold onto my independence even if I have been dating/living with someone. That doesn't mean that I haven't been committed, I have, just that I need my own space to feel well, to be able to give I need to have time for myself. My husband never understood this and he was extremely jealous of my hobbies, my friends etc.

But now it seems like everything has turned upside down and I am in a relationship and act just like my ex-husband did. My father was an alcoholic who was a away a lot, both physically and emotionally unavailable, and lately I've been thinking if I have acted the same way in my previous relationships, and now when I feel like I'd love to finally settle down and even maybe have children I found myself a man who says he can never promise he wants one. This is also why I feel like I'm getting old, like my biological clock was ticking or something, if I was 24 I wouldn't be thinking these thoughts, but now I feel like I am obsessively thinking about my future and options if this man is Mr Right or not. It's not that I want everything to happen now, I know that good things come to those who wait, but I can't wait forever for him to decide if it's me who he want's to settle down?!
Also I am a little afraid that my moon/uranus conjunction would not make me a very good mother, but that's another story allright...

posted March 30, 2007 09:33 AM              

"So far I've had to deal with jealousy and possessiveness in all of my relationships, as I've always wanted to hold onto my independence even if I have been dating/living with someone. That doesn't mean that I haven't been committed, I have, just that I need my own space to feel well, to be able to give I need to have time for myself. My husband never understood this and he was extremely jealous of my hobbies, my friends etc."

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Wow, that sounds like venus in aquarius 7th house to me!

posted March 30, 2007 06:17 PM            

I feel bad for your situation, but I believe this is an opportunity for you to gain more insight on your deeper mechanisms and I believe you will be able to work it out eventually...

The situation you described was that you had a love pattern where one of the parts is always emotionally or physically unavailable, and it was always you, until recently.
The first thought that came to my mind was that you might have mixed feelings about emotional intimacy in love. On one side you might desperately need closeness but on the other, it could make you feel claustrophobic at the same time.

This usually results from the child's experience with the mother.
For example, the mother could have always been "on top of the child", not letting him/her grow and confidently explore the world (I'm talking 3-6 years old), and/or feeling close to mom didn't reduce the emotional distance/inadequacy that existed (due to a certain absence of empathy from the mother towards the child; misinterpretation of the child's signals).
As a result, love is only safe when it is not really possible. When one has to run after the other, it is, because you are distant. Closeness would bring out the "hidden" and ever present anxieties. It's like being close would mean to you that you have to sacrifice an important part of yourself again (1st interpretation) or bring out the despair of the sintony that was never attained (2nd interpretation).
There could be many interpretations for your tough love pattern, and I think you need to find it out, so you can break free from it.
I also think you are more worried about ending up alone, than in finding "true love", since you said this would not be so bad if you were still 24.

Anyway, I think this is reflected in the Moon/Uranus conjunction.