posted March 30, 2007 06:37 PM            

24 year old female
Aquarius Sun
Gemini Moon
Aries Ascending

Planetary positionsplanet sign degree motion
Sun Aquarius 5°03'35 in house 11 direct
Moon Gemini 18°28'20 in house 3 direct
Mercury Capricorn 16°44'21 in house 10 retrograde
Venus Aquarius 24°51'37 in house 12 direct
Mars Pisces 6°19'39 in house 12 direct
Jupiter Sagittarius 5°34'45 in house 8 direct
Saturn Scorpio 4°09'25 in house 7 direct
Uranus Sagittarius 8°06'27 end of house 8 direct
Neptune Sagittarius 28°06'15 end of house 9 direct
Pluto Libra 29°30'58 in house 7 direct
True Node Cancer 3°58'10 in house 4 direct
Planets at the end of a house are interpreted in the next house.

House positions (Placidus)Ascendant Aries 1°06'35
2nd House Taurus 12°20'29
3rd House Gemini 9°04'24
Imum Coeli Cancer 0°35'04
5th House Cancer 22°11'31
6th House Leo 19°16'20
Descendant Libra 1°06'35
8th House Scorpio 12°20'29
9th House Sagittarius 9°04'24
Medium Coeli Capricorn 0°35'04
11th House Capricorn 22°11'31
12th House Aquarius 19°16'20

Major aspectsSun Sextile Jupiter 0°31
Sun Square Saturn 0°54
Sun Sextile Uranus 3°03
Sun Square Pluto 5°33
Sun Sextile Ascendant 3°57
Moon Quincunx Mercury 1°44
Moon Trine Venus 6°23
Venus Sextile Neptune 3°15
Venus Trine Pluto 4°39
Mars Square Jupiter 0°45
Mars Trine Saturn 2°10
Mars Square Uranus 1°47
Jupiter Conjunction Uranus 2°32
Jupiter Trine Ascendant 4°28
Saturn Conjunction Pluto 4°38
Neptune Sextile Pluto 1°25
Neptune Square Ascendant 3°00
Pluto Quincunx Ascendant 1°36
Numbers indicate orb (deviation from the exact aspect angle).

I've been fascinated by the supernatural and astrology, psychics, tarot cards, etc. for my whole life it seems like, but I haven't really explored it seriously (yet). That's what brings me here. I'm wondering how I get started. Any books that would help a beginner? I would like to figure out my "natal chart", is that what it's called? (The chart of the circle and intersecting lines....?)

I've sorta been "lurking" these forums for a few days and reading posts about Aquarius. I am your 100% stereotypical Aquarius, it's eerie to read some posts because of how dead on and identical it is to me, my thoughts, my habits, etc.

I'm currently experiencing "quarter life crisis" of sorts. Perhaps its a nervous breakdown. I don't have any idea what I want to do with my life. Literally: NO IDEA. For years, I've been trying to figure it out... but I just don't have any " real passion". I'm currently a legal secretary in Manhattan, and I like it (mostly because I have so much down time that I can just sit on the computer for hours and research, read, look up any subject that crosses my mind)... but I'm intelligent (not to brag, its just true), and eager to learn new things... I wish I could just focus it, because I feel like I'm disappointing my parents. They say "you'll figure it out, it takes time, you're still young". But I want to 'prove' I'm not just another pretty face with a college education. I spent the year after college in a complete & utter depression because of this... I drank myself silly on the weekends, and slept away the weekdays... one day I'll wanna be a writer, the next I wanna work at a non profit, the next day I'm contemplating taking the GMATs and going to business school...

My other dilemma is that I am an emotional train wreck when it comes to relationship. I have never had a boyfriend. Ever. I dated a guy for 6 months or so... it was just a "Summer fling", it was monogamous but casual... and we never had an emotional connection, we were more compatible because of looks & interests. The only guy I've ever TRULY LIKED was a friend in college... he reminded me of my brother so we became fast friends. Then I find out from his roommate that he was "in love" (haha) with me - one thing leads to another...and we're spending 3 nights a week togheter. The problem is - I became VERY distant and cold to him as soon as we became "more than friends" (if you catch my drift). So when his ex GF decided to seduce him, and I found out (he admitted it to me) I instantly became the tough girl, brave face, laughed about it and said "its fine, don't worry about it!"... I was hysterical about it inside. I cried every night and it destroyed me. It's almost 2 years later, he still calls/texts/e-mails me randomly when he's drunk at 2am (he lives in a different city) but I never pick up or respond. I haven't *spoke* to him since July, but I still can't shake this wierd feeling - it's "unfinished". Regardless of him (scorpio), I have all these fears about being in a relationship... and men in general. I had an experience with a tarot card reader when I was younger, and he made me very suspicious of men and their intentions.... I still have him read my cards sometimes, and he always warns me to really guard myself from men that just want sex, or a "trophy".

I'm embarassed to admit this but... I want the fairy tale romance. I'm a complete hopeless romantic, and I want to love & be loved. I want to be married, and a "couple" and I want a family more than anything. I love children, dogs, anything that needs nurturing. I don't want my "issues" to get in the way of this... and I'm afraid they already are, because without dating, or a relationship, my dream of the big family isn't likely.

Wow, what a long post. Sorry... I wrote a novel. I have never been that honest. It's refreshing in a very terrifying way. I need some guidance, or some ideas on how I can conquer this stuff. If anyone has any ideas (or fellow Aquas) I'd appreciate it! Thanks. xoxo

posted March 30, 2007 07:25 PM            

Welcome to LL
A good place to start your voluminous reading would be this thread here at LL:
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum1/HTML/006272.html
There are links to practically anything you might want to study astro-wise.

There is a "tarot forum" here at LL called Through The Looking Glass. The Universal Codes forum might interest you with discussions of other esoteric stuff.

To start your astrological journey -- exploring your own Self -- try Tim's website:
http://www.geocities.com/wilsontctc/index.html

Tim is the Moderator at the Free Astro Forum here at LL, but you have to join. To join, bump one of the posts entitled "Randall" -- he's the webmaster and he has to enable your username.

posted March 31, 2007 06:30 PM            

Sun - Taurus
Moon - Sagittarius
ASC - Capricorn

posted March 31, 2007 10:01 PM              

I'm an Aquarius myself who was a late bloomer, so, no worries. The only advice I really have having been there emotionally when it comes to relationship and careerwise when it comes to not quite knowing what to do with myself is this....

The cold/shut-down emotion thing is a hard one to get control of, but it definitely doesn't serve you in life. Especially in intimate relationships. I know its easier said than done because it's one of those protective mechanisms and sometimes being a robot Aquarius is easier in the moment, but in the long term, it hinders you from truly letting yourself "feel." Just know that you, in particular, do need a friend for a partner. (Venus in Aquarius.) I personally think that, even in those cases though, you should start sowing the seed earlier in the relationship as to whether or not you can envision the person romantically. My wife and I actually met at work and were friends were several months before we were romantic. (She even had a boyfriend, but that's another story... )

posted April 01, 2007 12:21 AM              

Aquas are the best, of course only a gemini whould say that.

posted April 01, 2007 10:24 PM            

I find myself easily stressed / nervous / anxious these days... I'm normally such a laid back and mellow person... very hard to ruffle my feathers, but lately I have been overreacting to things and just taking them to the extremes, so sorry if my original post seems kinda "melodramatic."

To scorpio, Yes I am definitely a "roller coaster of emotions" - maybe the gemini moon explains it? I love a good argument. Especially when I can win... all my friends make fun of me because I take the "opposing" view on all issues, just to see if I can argue it and win. It makes for stimulating conversation.

posted April 01, 2007 10:28 PM              

It sounds like you have the financial security and time to devote to figuring out what career you would like to go into since you aren't mentally challenged by your current job. Have you considered working at a publishing house - maybe as an agent? Your Leo 6th House, Aquarius Sun & Gemini Moon make me feel you would be great in an area that combines creativity with intellectual communication, and your Aries asc. inclines you to "active" jobs where you are the initiator. You could also post your chart on the Labors of Love section of this site for career advice.