posted May 13, 2007 05:48 PM              

Greetings! It's been awhile since I have stopped to empty my brain here and I feel that the pressure just may explode if I don't stop for a moment and do so. Please feel free to add any comments astrological or intuitive as I am in need of some support please!

As Saturn is making it's slow but sure exit from the constellation Leo it sure does feel like he's leaving with a Bang! I had my exact degree conjunction last year but as of right now that retrograde has brought tSaturn back to being 4 degrees away from my nSaturn. Ok I feel him now. LOL! This whole time I have been like, noooo problem, but I am pretty much eating those words now.

I also have tUranus in my 10th house and it has exactly conjuncted my MC twice already (3rd time's a charm right?) You'll get an idea of how this is affecting me in a minute...

Thank the Gods tNeptune finally moved far away enough from my Moon. But I do have tChiron on my Moon now (1 degree away I believe) It hurts, a lot.

So anyways, I know that i'm going through a huge ascention to the next best thing for me on my Path. I am being re-wired, being activated, or whatever you wanna call it. But it Hurts so much. I feel like a zombie and just going through my day to day motions. I'm neither here nor there yet. I feel like i'm somewhere else and that linear earth time just hasn't caught up yet.

To make a long story short, I have made the decision to quit my well paying routine job effective June 29th. I'm not going to give notice, i'm just going to go. I'll probably just send my boss an email when i'm walkin out the door. This is not something I'd ever do, but i'm no longer the me I used to be. I feel like i'm dieing, but i'm still alive. I'm not giving my boss notice because he's one that will not pay me for the last 2 weeks I would work so this is the only way. The information that this guy has jipped every single employee when they've left has come to me at the perfect time and I was planning on leaving anyway, it's just now sooner rather than later.

I am going to jump and hope the net appears.

This totally scares the hell out of me because I don't know what i'm going to do. I have some ideas but nothing concrete. I just cannot be there any more. It is already over.

Does anyone have any ideas for me? Or has anyone gone through anything similar? Logically I know I will be ok, but that is doing nothing to soothe my soul right now.

Here's my chart (unfortunatly I don't have my chart w/ transits saved and I can't do it on this computer) Is there anyone out there who's good with the timing? Like when are things going to lighten up for me?

Thanks!

posted May 13, 2007 10:08 PM            

tChiron will be with your Moon into 2008 (**sigh**). I think there's only a few harder transits than that one -- Chiron/NN, Chiron/Venus and Chiron/Saturn..... you could check the ephemeris and see just when it will depart the vicinity of 14 Aqua..... I find it mind-boggling that the tNN will cross your MC about the same time that tPluto crosses your DSC The path of your outer persona/career will intersect with a transformation in your relationships with others..... I don't think tUranus will be back again (will it??).....

I feel the same sense of impending **something** right around the corner and I’m wondering if we feel tMars about to depart Pisces and move into Aries the sign of Action!! Have you done your Mars Return chart to see what energies were activated back when it was in Libra??

I think you’re going to be fine as frog’s hair, regardless of the fact that you’re jumping without a net :-D Just get that feeling that the Universe will provide for you….. I’ve watched you gain a lot in self-confidence in the almost-two years you’ve been here

Love & {{{ hugs }}}
Zala

Here's a blurb on tJupiter sq MC from astro.com:

posted May 13, 2007 11:22 PM              

Thanks for sharing because it helps so much to know one is not alone! Are you going through your Saturn return as well?
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Zala ~ Luv the lil huggy guy! How've You been?

Thanks for the kind words and for giving a look-see at my transits even though it's not your forte.

Yeah so not only the stuff I listed above, but, I forgot that tPluto was on my DSC too! That must be why i've meet my 'soul group' this last year. They're really helping me through this time of change (change is bloody hard for me). I am learning to open up and talk to people and actually ask for help. It's something i've never done, or been able, to do before.

Wow, tChiron is hangin around that long huh?! That means He'll be opposite my nSaturn too (nMoon opp nSaturn 0 degree orb <sigh> )

That's good info for me to look up too : tNN crossing my MC & tPluto crosses my DSC at the same time. Wonder what that means! tNN is in my 10th house already right now though. tUranus will go retro again in June but will only go back to 15 degrees. My MC is 11 degrees so no more exact conjunctions.

I have never done a Mars return chart before. I looked on Astro and didn't see one listed, or did I miss it?
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I also just checked out the end date of my job that i've chosen (June 29th). Mercury goes retro on June 15th at 12ish degrees Cancer. What are the pros and cons of this Merc Retro on my quittin day?! I'm hoping it will be ok because I have made the decision ahead of time. Both tMercury(r) & the tSun in Cancer will be in my 1st house.

posted May 13, 2007 11:40 PM            

And check this out for the Merc rx skinny
http://www.alphalifetrends.com/sys-tmpl/june2007/
I wouldn't worry too much about the timing of your job-departure..... I don't like the thought of planning each and every action by what's going on with those rocks and gas-blobs orbiting our Sun Please take a look at this article on Jupiter rx..... http://www.bizhostnet.com/us734827/astrology/JupRetro_040507.html

Z

posted May 14, 2007 12:32 AM              

Ok, more reading to do...

posted May 14, 2007 02:32 PM              

I had not noticed that it was 6* past my nNeptune and moving back to join it and then square my MC (which is ruled by Neptune) again. All of this in my 6th house too. Aaarrggghh!

I also don't like to alter things in my life due to just 1 or 2 planetary alignments but I will think, and re-think, before I make this huge leap (I can see my Sagi boyfriend shaking his head at me and telling me to just jump heh) Perhaps I may alter my exit date, or maybe I just won't! I don't know, and I feel like i'm on a 'need to know basis' right now (I won't know until I just know...know what I mean? Hehehe) It will be either June 29th, July 31st, or at the very latest Aug 31st...

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If you try to find a job, you won't… or if you do, you won't stay there long or it will change in some respects from what you expected it to be. So, you’ll end up leaving, anyway. Jobs, in general, are going to dry up during this period so it’s not a good time for anyone to jump ship and try to find another job. Stay put and haul your load for now. There will be better times in the future coming for you to leave a job if you’re dissatisfied with it. I know some of you are very bitter about your career and how it seems to have soured or not gone as you wanted it too. You’re ready to jump ship--but wait! Don’t jump! Just grind out what you’ve got to do in your present job and wait. In August, 2007, you can finally get free of the unhappy career you’ve been dragging around with you and get into something that will make your heart pound with joy.

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It is taking all my strength to be here in this job right now. I feel like such a big whiny baby. The tough love I'm trying to give myself isn't working though. The nice thing to do for myself would be to get the F out ASAP and then regroup and rest. I am exausted emotionally, physically (my adrenals are on over load) and psychically. I'm just about all tapped out of energy. I not only feel like a zombie, I think i'm starting to look like one too hehe. So shall I try and 'suck it up' and stay in this me-made Hell or get out and relax? Is this part of my Saturn Return teaching me to value myself or him trying to teach me to ride the grind and toughen up? I am confused right now as you all can see. I'm going through a certain separation... my higher spiritual self is fine with this, but my more human self is freakin out. I know that only I can make the decision but all the air in my chart loves to talk about things that need workin out and using other people as sound-boards. Thanks for listening to my rantings

posted May 14, 2007 02:56 PM              

The impression I get, is the sooner the better, you seem miserable, I don't mean that in a bad way, but about your job.
I see our charts as something to OverCome, Master, take charge of. ...

Have you thought about the end of this month?
5 Earth Magic!

There's plenty of things you can do to tide things over financially. Registering on ebay is free, you can sell, anything, I do it as a hobby, going to yard sales, church thrift stores, estate sales, etc., I have found many treasures for myself this way, and on ebay, anyway, it's just a thought.

posted May 15, 2007 01:51 PM              

I do not mind you jumping in. Thank you for reaching out across the abyss.

I Am miserable here. I feel like i've been treading water for so long. I am soo Tired. It's time to stop struggling and let go!

I have indeed thought about the end of this month, but I have some excuses for waiting till the 29th of June. I feel a little bit sorry that I have to leave the way I am going to, but there is no other way, i'm sure of it. So, my boss is going to be pretty angry with me (he is quite vindictive) but it is not my intention to hurt him, or anyone else. There are things that I know how to do here that no one else knows how to do. So when the new person starts June 1st I will show them how to do all that I do. Then I will at least feel like i'm in integrity when I make my exit.

I'm trying on for size following my dreams... and it scares me. I'm going to go visit a couple make-up schools in Hollywood this week. I already do make-up freelance as a hobby and for weddings and such. But what if I can do it on a grander scale?! Schooling would allow me to network and it might even teach me a few things hehe.

posted May 15, 2007 01:58 PM              

That is very honorable for you to stay and train the new person, and I believe you are making the right decision!

I'm glad you have such a wonderful hobby, that could bring greater rewards.

hehe, you've got it all figured out!
I'm impressed, and Happy, that you will
be facing your Fate, head on, taking the
reigns, woo-hoo!

posted May 15, 2007 02:39 PM            

Regardless of the Jupiter rx article, I think you should proceed according to your (higher self's?) plan and bow out on the 29th. You *may* find yourself lying in the net in limbo for a couple months, but you've already prepared for that, yes?? Sounds like you have marketable skills to rely on tho

The tNN will have left the 10th house and crossed your MC back into the 9th house on the 29th. You picked the 29th for a reason, Zala sez rely on your intuition!!

posted May 15, 2007 03:31 PM              

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Hi Mustang ~ Scary stuff ain't it?! The job path that i'm currently on does not have any heart. I don't know how I lasted in it for so long. I know why I did, it was to meet some very special people who I know are part of my 'soul-group' or 'tribe'.
Thanks for sharing because it helps so much to know one is not alone! Are you going through your Saturn return as well?

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You're welcome! It helps me to not feel like I am the only person leaving a "good job." I knew for some time that this wasn't what I wanted to do, but wanted to be 100% sure, so I held on. It's scary leaving this field, but business isn't for me - I felt it didn't mean anything, and that isn't me. I have to do something that means something to me. I know I will now be poor, probably forever, but I don't really care. I don't want to be rich and dead inside. And I have to do something I feel is making a difference. For some people a job is just a means to an end (money), but for me that isn't the case. I wish it were. It would be so much easier. Oh well.

I am not going through my Saturn return, I already had it, so I don't know what's going on with me. I looked at my solar return and it was somewhat indicative of this sort of thing. Also, some of my harder transits point to this type of action, but I don't know for certain. I've changed over the years. That's the reason.

posted May 18, 2007 05:27 PM              

I visited the 2 make-up schools that I liked the best yesterday and got a slightly better vibe from one of them. It was a lot of fun and I think i'm going to go just for the networking and the bit of confidence it will provide. I was thinking that the day after the New Moon (yesterday) in Taurus would still have some nice New Moon effects, yet the Moon would be in Gemini (more favorable for me). But the tMoon was also in my 12th sandwitched between my 0*Jupiter in Gemini and my 29*Asc Gemini (1st and last degrees!), so not sure <shrug>

I'm not at all sure how it'll work out, or If it will work out, but I guess the 'hows' are the Universe's job. I just don't wanna hammer a square peg into a round hole if this isn't meant to be for me. I am scared but i'm open to guidance which keeps me moving.

I'm trying to balance my dreams with my practicality here. I need to figure out how to supplement my income until my network grows and i'm working consistantly.

I got a nice 'message from the Universe' this morning, which is kind of funny. The place I work now has firewalls up the yin-yang yet this one managed to leak through the filters:

By Mike Dooley TUT (Totally Unique Thoughts) (He's in the Secret for those of you who aren't familiar with him)

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Funny, D, how when one links job satisfaction to financial compensation, they're never paid "enough." Yet, when they see work as a way to dance with life, meet new people, and unleash the creative tiger within, they become very rich, indeed.

Every kind of rich, D.
The Universe

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What a great surprise this was for me to see today!

Anyway, my chart is posted if anyone has any job-type insight/advice they can give. I'm especially wondering how the transits on June 29th will lend their energies to my own natal chart? (That's the day i'm basically quitting my job)

posted June 29, 2007 01:50 PM              

So, yes, the train has left the station!
I'm free, free fallin!
No more lurking for me on LL during the days! (at least for awhile)

I can now see the humor that I planned in entering this MMORPG (massively multiplayer online roleplaying game) at the moment I did. With my Saturn return focused in the 2nd house and Uranus transiting my MC and Pluto transiting my 6th (conjunct DSC) all at the same time. Hahah all 'work' related stuff. Very funny I must say.

Today is my last day in the insurance office. I did decide that I didn't want to 'sink to my bosses level' by just walking out today without saying anything. I wanted to do what I felt was right and leave with integrity. So it was a nice chance for me to grow in a positive way (which I have) and also an opportunity for him to grow in a positive way. Well, I did get my final paycheck already and there are no errors or problems with it at all! He even said that if things don't work out for me for whatever reason to just give him a call and he'd re-hire me no questions asked (not that I would want to come back, but it was still a nice gesture). Lovely healing going today everywhere I look (is this tChiron on my Moon perhaps??)

Monday I start school for make-up artistry. I will be immersed in that learning for the month of July. I will be, once again, recalibrating my energy in the sense that I was working in a very small office and dealing with the 'public' almost exclusivly over the phone. Now I will be in a classroom (of sorts) downloading fun info and being around others who share my interests. Other artists at Then after that I will be working with the 'public' at large.

I am definitly still on the 'need to know' way of living right now. I feel like i'm being alloted a certain (small) amount of information then the rest is Unknown. For example, I know i'm going to school and it lasts for a certain amount of time but after that ??? I'm in the Mystery. I do not yet see where I will land. I am just Trusting that I Will land safely and gracefully in a lovely, wonderful, fabulous, garden of new people, places, and things.

Thank you again for checking in with me! I will update my little journal here ASAP LOL. I wish there was a way to move this thread to FFA since it has morphed into a not really Astrology realted (but sort of Astrology related) type blog thing.

posted June 29, 2007 02:12 PM            

Love & {{{ hugs }}} and Best Wishes on your new path
Z

posted June 29, 2007 02:39 PM              

I guess i'll see you in FFA land

posted June 30, 2007 10:03 PM            

"Over-thinking over-analyzing separates the body from the mind......"