posted June 02, 2007 11:54 PM            

The first thing I note is your Fixed Grand Cross with Venus opp Uranus and Neptune opp Mars.
The past couple years have probably not been easy ones, as you’ve just gone thru your Chiron Return.
Transiting Uranus is just about to cross your IC – there may be changes coming up in your exterior “home” and your interior “foundation”.
I wonder if you’re feeling foggy, adrift without an anchor, like you just can’t grasp anything solid?? That would be transiting Neptune conjoining your Sun.

The Venus opp Uranus could be part of your difficulties. There are strings here discussing that and I’ll try to find the links for you. Venus/Uranus doesn’t mean you CAN’T find love, not by a long shot!! Just that there are difficulties. I suspect the older one gets, and the better one knows oneself, the less this aspect will matter. Our charts are *Potentials*-- things to struggle against and be challenged by – not FATE.

posted June 03, 2007 10:29 AM            

First of all dittos to what Zala wrote.

posted June 03, 2007 02:26 PM            

I liked how you called her "firepower" instead of "flowerpower"

flower ~

Your situation is very much like my own – involved with an unstable partner years ago, then raising your child alone (I’m raising a son). I’m sad that you’re feeling ashamed about yourself If you feel you are unloveable (for whatever reason) others will pick up that vibe and not be drawn to you. The type of partner you seek will be attracted to an independent, confident woman – and I think you are. Look what you’ve done in the last several decades, all by your onesies!!

I was studying your progressed chart today and there are some items that lead me to believe that the next 5 years things may change in the relationships department. I'm neither a professional astrologer nor psychologist, but after re-reading the following link, I thought perhaps some things might resonate with you, in terms of things to work on in the direction of finding what you seek, so I’m putting it here.....

North Node in Scorpio

Ran across an interesting quote cleaning off my desk:
"If I'm being made to wait, it's because I'm being prepared for something great!"
Wondering, or telling yourself “Maybe I'm one of those women just meant to be alone till death.” isn’t very productive. It may indeed be what the future holds, but is there any point on dwelling on it?? I believe we’re here at SchoolRoom Earth to learn about and grow our Selves. Growing is something that can only happen inside you – no one else can do the work but you. Relationships happen best when you don’t NEED to be in a relationship, when the two people involved each bring a whole person to the relationship, instead of seeking their “other half” or someone to “complete them.”

You have a wonderful daughter, a satisfying career, but what do you do just for YOU?? Hobbies?? Is there an activity you are passionate about?? Somewhere you can meet people (not just men) with the same interest?? If your daughter is leaving the nest this will free up time for you to concentrate on just you, after years of 24/7 parenting. A whole new phase of life is opening up for you!!! What will you do with it??

posted June 03, 2007 05:24 PM            

I very much understand where you are coming from...I have difficult configurations in my chart as well and have had to accept the fact that I may be alone (besides my 2 daughters)forever. I used to attract loosers with a capital L! I have learned to love myself and be happy being alone, and really, I quite like it!

I just have to mention what Zala said about Uranus crossing your IC. I am experiencing that now as well...so far I have purchased a new refrigerator, lawn mower, microwave had my dishwasher fixed twice and am having to vaccine my oak trees against oak wilt as I have lost 2 so far....DUCK!!!

BTW I live in San Antonio and am a RN.

ZALA---??? for you...does the grand cross incorporate the angels as well, or does my Jup, Mars, Merc in the 3rd in Aqua oppo Uranus, squared to my Moon in Taurus oppo my Scorp asc count for a T square. Whichever being in fixed signs is as you say difficult!

Terri

posted June 03, 2007 05:28 PM            

I don't think I have your IC degrees right, the chart I have says 00Pis20..... 11:30pm??
Will answer if I can when I have your stats right

posted June 03, 2007 05:56 PM            

Yes, 11:30pm,South Bend, In. I have my chart using two different programs and both have my IC at 13, just looked at astro.com and that, too is IC 13.21, asc 28.14..Pisces sun 20.10

Thanks

T~~~

btw just dug out an old chart that I hand cast years ago and it too, has 13 IC

posted June 03, 2007 06:42 PM            

Problem solved: I had birthplace wrong
I see your 3 t-squares..... personal preference I guess but I do not use points like your Asc (angles, nodes, vertex, etc) as part of a major aspect configuration. There are those who do: Tim was thrilled with my Grand Sextile, but I don't count it since he used my NN and MC to get there.....
Know any late-Scorpios to help release the energy into the empty leg??

flower (and hippi) ~

Here's an interp for a Fixed Grand Cross:

FIXED: Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius.

Fixed signs follow the Cardinal signs, and their purpose is to sustain and maintain what the Cardinal signs created and initiated. This is expressed in their focus of self-worth. Fixed signs have a tendancy to resist all outside efforts to initiate change. Cardinal signs have the impulsive trait to deal with and Fixed signs have the stubborn trait.

When the Fixed Cross is triggered by transits or progressions, this Grand Cross of four planets react by digging their heels well into the dirt to resist any of the external energy that may change the status quo. When the Fixed Cross decides to take action, its action is much like a steamroller and anything in its path can be flattened. It’s hard to stop the action taken by this quad once organized and initiated.

In examining a Fixed Grand Cross, look at the planets and house that are expressed by the Cross. This is where the self worth issue comes to focus and can be where the Fixed Grand Cross individual will take matters personally and look at people, places, and things actions as an attack on their own self worth. So to suggest a personal change to a Fixed Grand Cross individual would be met with resistance. You just would not find a Fixed Grand Cross individual easily participating in one of the way too many reality shows dealing with makeovers unless other factors such as trines play into it.