posted June 04, 2007 11:38 AM            

I am not a flirt, I'm not a girly girl that likes a lot of boys. In fact, even when I like a guy, I convince myself that I'm not ready to commit to a relationship. I have a lot of issues so I get freaked out really easily.

Anyway, this weekend I just clicked with this guy. I was having the worst night, and I was in the worst mood, and I randomly picked a dive bar to go to with my roommates... I never go there, but for some reason I just felt the urge to go.

For some reason, I was instantly drawn to the bartender... can't explain it, I've never ever felt anything so, um, cosmic (?) in my life. Anyway, I just passed it off as coincidence.

About 1/2 hour later, I was getting ready to leave when 10 of my friends walked in. I'm in Manhattan, in a neighborhood no where near where ANY of us live. At a dive bar, we've never spoken of. Yet, we all end up there on a Saturday night... it would be an understatement to say it was BIZARRE. Even my roommates were like "wow, how did you know they were gonna show up?". It was so wierd.

I ended up staying, hanging out, have loads of fun. And suddenly my friend grabs me, and takes me to the bar, introduces me to the bartender, her GOOD friend. I guess it turns out that he was attracted to me as well, and asked her to introduce us.

Anyway, I got really shy (typical), particularly around guys I'm attracted to, I was polite and coy. And he was very blatantly interested and asking me where I hang out, and where I lived... and telling me he hopes I come in and visit him again.

I don't know what to do with this. I'm not used to this... I never get "feelings" about anyone. And the whole night just seemed, very intuitive... there were signs everywhere. Even after we LEFT the bar, at 3am, we ran into the friend of the guy that my roommate is in love with. Oh, I might also mention that the NAME of the bar, is my last name... which is not a common name at all.

Honestly, I haven't really been able to get him out of my head. I don't know why, it's not like he was drop dead gorgeous, it's not like I talked to him and know his personality, there's no logical explanation. It's throwing me off balance because I'm not one to "obsess" over guys I don't know. I don't obsess over guys I DO know!

What worries me, is, I'm afraid it's more lust than anything real because of what I've heard about aquas and their need for friendship. I've never had luck with guys that I started dating without "being friends with" first. The only guy I really had feelings for, a best friend to me, almost like a brother... and it took me years to get over him even though it was a very short lived romance.

At this point, it would be very easy to see him again. I could go to the bar next weekend, I could have my friend tell him to come to her party on Wednesday, or I could just have her give him my number.

Does anyone have any advice... ?

posted June 04, 2007 01:25 PM            

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posted June 04, 2007 02:47 PM              

Oh, and get his b-day for us, k?

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