posted July 12, 2007 10:21 PM
Hey everyone, It's ok! I won't bore you with how depressed or jealous i am with my girlfriend! Getting over it slowly. I'm still with her, i've come to the realisation that it's all seriously within ME not her. I took a risk a few weeks ago, before i fell asleep i told her i loved her and although i only got a hand squeeze back, i coulden't take not showing my true feelings for her anymore. A few days later, she began to end her text messages (i know it's very subjective)and emails with Love me xo which although it's not verbal or too my face, a start. Remember she's an aqua with venus cap so am i right to assume she has very shy ways of showing her love? She wrote me a nice letter listing all the points she likes about me on a massive piece of butchers paper (we were doing goals and stuff one weekend) and it was laying on my bed when i got home. It made me feel really good to somewhat get some affirmation of her love towards me. Currently, i'm still somewhat creating some negative assumptions about her with my friend but i refeuse to accept it as fact as i know i've been through all this with her and her boss last year. I'm slowly accepting that it's within ME to accept she is just friendly and i have a strong feeling that she woulden't decieve me, sure she has a wild eccentric side but i feel that if she wanted to leave me she just would. I've asked her straight up about what she thinks about cheating and she said "i don't have time to cheat, i'm either working, with you, or at university." I then said "that's isn't right, i'm asking you say you did have time would you?" And she said "No, you need to trust me or this is going to create dramas."
So i'm trying my very best to think positive, not get stupidly jealous and overreact. I also learned i have this horrible transit going on and my feelings have i can honestly say only been like this since early April. Can someone PLEASE tell me how to deal with this transit and i have a strong sense it can be very destructive if i let it affect me. I day dream ALL the time, sometimes i can't stop my negative thoughts and i'm seeing a psychologist who is a family friend on the weekend to see if i can someone curve my obsessive negative thoughts. My moon is in Taurus in the 8th house.
Tauro
Neptune square Moon: Mirages
Beginning of April 2006 until end of January 2008: Under this influence you may have to contend with rather strange moods and feelings. You may feel that your hunches are extremely accurate, but be careful - the language of your unconscious mind, which is speaking rather strongly to you now, is very different from the language of the conscious mind. Your hunches may mislead you.
At the same time, you are more subject to outside influences now. If you are around an angry person or someone under the influence of any other intense feeling, you will feel their energy strongly. For this reason, you should avoid people who are under the influence of strong negative emotions. Your empathy is so great that you will easily become subject to their feelings. And avoid anyone who tries to control your thinking through subtle suggestions and hints, which is very likely to happen, because the thoughts they instill will seem to come from within you - another good reason for avoiding negative people.
There may be other problems in your home or personal life or with emotional relationships. It is extremely important that you try to communicate with those around you as clearly as possible. Misunderstandings are rife under this influence. You may begin a love relationship that is hopelessly unrealistic and yet very fascinating.
Moods and emotions may appear and disappear with great speed. Do not take them too seriously or get too wrapped up in contemplating them, for you will only make mountains out of molehills. Even when you are disappointed about something, do not dwell on it. Your own negative emotions can be very destructive.
Lindaland
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