posted August 13, 2007 07:26 PM              

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This whole weekend I have spent most of my sleeping hours to gather all my courage and came to the decision that within a week I will tell my "object of love" how much i'm crazy about him. And then, since yesterday I started looking at his and my mark charts, which is probably a stupid thing, because it completely discourages me. I don't find any aspect that this relationship mean anythign to him than an idealistic friendship and co-workers. While any minute i think about him, i want to hold him, kiss him, touch his hands, hear his voice whispering by my ears. It is anything but a platonic love. The more i look into the mark charts, the more i feel totally falling apart, my heart, my soul, my bravery (liturally my guts), they dissolve into this mist of dissapointment and confusion. Please help me and tell me if there is any hope for my love?
My first question is whether my method is correct: I take the mark charts by making a midpoint composite chart of each of us with a chart of the exact mid time, but the location is not totally correct (there is no city at the exact location).
My second question/issue is, I still don't know his birthtime, and thus not accurate AC.
So here they are.
My guy's mark chart: http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif.cgi?l ang=e&gif=astro_621at_02_03_mm_mark_chart.83873.6984.gif&res=100&va=&cid=6lgfileWR8pyv-u1177959766
My mark chart with him: http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif.cgi ?lang=e&gif=astro_621at_01_03_girl_mark_chart.83820.5928.gif&res=100&va=&cid=6lgfileWR8pyv-u1177959766
Our synastry: http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif. cgi?lang=e&gif=astro_61at_01_02_anonymous_anonymous.83961.8136.gif&res=100&va=&cid=6lgfileWR8pyv-u1177959766

Why do I feel like this? Is it Venus retro or I was really walking in a dream and now have to wake up? I feel pretty stupid falling head over heels in love like a 13 y.o. kid.
Any help would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you all.

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posted August 13, 2007 07:28 PM              

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Oh I realize i couldn't post the chart itself.

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posted August 13, 2007 08:02 PM            

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You're a Leo, right? I am too and I've been going through the same thing. I think a lot of us have. Mine said it was sort of platonic too, but I think there is something wrong with the readings because I don't feel it's platonic at all. In fact I've never had a platonic relationship before. I'm worried the same way you are, like maybe I'm making it out to be more than it was, but what I felt was profound. Something I've NEVER felt in my life.

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posted August 14, 2007 07:49 AM              

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Stillatlarge (cute ID), it's Total Confusion! That's why I think of checking out the Mark charts, which they say will show you what the relationship means to each person.
I reuploaded the charts here, hopefully someone with experiences may help correct me if I am wrong: http://onemore.myphotoalbum.com/view_photo.php?set_albumName=album01&id=guy_mark_chart[/ URL] [URL=http://onemore.myphotoalbum.com/view_photo.php?set_albumName=album01&id=girl_Mark_chart_003]http://onemore.myphotoalbum.com/view_photo.php?set_albumName=album01&id=girl_Mark_c hart_003 http://onemore.myphotoalbum.com/view_photo.php?set_albumName=album01&id=synastic http://onemore.myphotoalbum.com/view_photo.php?set_albumName=album01&id=composite
So you see, in my mark chart, Sun conjunct Moon and Mercury, this stellium trine Mars but square Neptune (dreams amd dreams), while Venus conjunct Pluto (my sexual obsession about him?), these two trine Jupiter and sextile Neptune (more dreams, girl) but square Saturn (my agitation?).
In his mark chart, which is my focus, Sun conjunct Uranus and Mercury, all trine Saturn and sextile Moon, but opposite Mars and square Jupiter (no fun to him?), while Venus conjunct Neptune (huhuhu this is platonic friendship to him), sextile Jupiter but square Moon.

What can I do? I can't even be brave and come to him just like that, mess up my and his careers. We still have to work together at least another 2 years and how much aching to see him everyday without being able to come any closer... I can say this relationship shakes me to the core! displaying all my deepest fears and vices that I've been hiding from everyone. But I could say it literally pumps fire through my veins.
Help friends, I want to go to the beach and shout over the waves...

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