posted October 08, 2007 12:57 AM              

She used to tell me that she misses me a lot and its too bad that i am not there with her(when she used be away).we spent as much time as we can togther and it was a lot of fun. We both were really busy during that time since I am a graduate student and she is a music teacher, but we did enjoy our time being together. We didnt make love even once, but twice we almost did everything but couldnt make love due to my roommates and another really unfortunate reason ( i am a little poor and i live in a room which is almost a dorm). But it was passionate when we were together. we kissed once for almost an hour (i tried to pull out but she didnt allow me to).

At times she used to tell me that we dont have anything in common and it may be a trouble.

After that she left to her parents house for a week. She spoke to me only once during that time and i just let her have her time. When she came back i was able to notice a lot of difference in her. I am still not sure if that was because of her imminent move to the far off city. she stayed with me that day but i was clearly able to see that she was totally confused with some thing and she didnt want to tell me anything about it. Two days later when i asked her out, she didnt respond to my calls and after a few hours of texting sms she texted me that she badly wanted to love me the way i want her to but she doesnt have the feelings for me.

I have a strange feeling that she might have been hurt badly in her previous relationships. She is defintely not promiscous. But i did a few arien mistakes. I was so intense in the way i loved her, though i didnt tell her that, she probably knew what was in my heart.

I know that it was way too early to fall in love without being with them for a long time, but sometimes it does happen that way isnt't. I was never selfish with my needs when it came to her and even now i am ready to let her go if that is what she wants me to. It does make me sad and hurt but i really dont know what to do now since she is gonna be 800 miles away and trying to slowly disappear from me. Now she has left, she didnt even come to say goodbye, but i emailed her after a month and I have been in touch via email till now.

Once i asked her what her intution told when she saw me the first time, she told me that she called her best friend that day and told her about that but she would not tell me about that now. she would never come up and tell whats wrong and totally deny any opportunity to fix it.

posted October 08, 2007 02:13 AM              

strtnash, let me start by saying Hello and to Linda Land!

Now I'll continue with letting you know, my heart really goes out to you...

According to you, yourself:
"She won't tell you what's wrong", "She's not interested in fixing it".
I'd say there's nothing more to decide!

She's already moved on 800+ miles, now you do the same.
Take this as a lesson not a challenge.

If you insist on mulling it over and over in your mind here is everything you need to know about a pisces girl in Linda Goodmans own words:Just Click Here

-Based on sun signs alone it's impossible to accurately assess the way you two interact. The meaning behind your words and actions towards one another, etc. Based on my own experience of a 12 year relationship with a pisces, I'd definately take what you've said as the message to let her go.
I would not consider moving to be near her, she may consider this as stalking.

Again,Take this as a lesson not a challenge.

I'm sure that there are many other girls out there right near where you live that would be thrilled to have your time and energy spent on them. A girl perhaps that will also feel the intensity the way you do. That will fall madly, deeply head over heels in love with you. You must however be emotionally available to receive this.

Glad you found Linda Land!
I look forward to getting to know you as I'm certain others here do too.

posted October 08, 2007 07:58 PM              

I really appreciate yourfriendinspirit, for your reply. I feel a lot better now after sharing what was raging in my heart for sometime now.

I can understand what you said has a lot of practical wisdom in it. But some where deep inside, my wasted heart still feels of her.

I have personally had troubled times for the past few years in my family and I had to wade through a lot of trouble for almost four years to get into the graduate program I so badly wanted to. (On a lighter note: My professor still calls me the Murphy’s Law).

I was persistent and I never gave up. What was my strength has turned to be my own weakness now. I know that she has gone already but I am always trying to find a way to fix it. Though I didn’t take any effort to talk to her (except for the emails) I know what my mind is trying. And as far as I know me I will accept the reality some day but it will certainly take its time and toll on me.

posted October 08, 2007 10:29 PM            

Do not ever try to understand her, exactly.

She is the mystic, the witch, the healer, the lover...

She is the ultra-femme!!! The every-woman, maiden, mother, crone as in the triplicity of the very trident that her ruling god bears....

Love her for who she is....and let her go to be who she will be.

For, in letting her go, a man can achieve the greatest love of the Pisces woman.

Blessings

Terri

posted October 09, 2007 09:04 AM            

a metaphor---

fish~~~

ever gone fishing??? ever held a shiny, wet, fish in your hands as you took the hook from her mouth??? ever looked deep into her eyes as she squirmed, helplessly to get back to her blessed sea??? her eyes are always shallow when be-ing held tight, for she can not breathe, we are, afterall, gill breathers and we breathe be-neath the water...she be-gins to die quickly, the light in the once shiny eyes dies, the glimmer of the shiny scales fades, the tighter you hold, the quicker she will die....all of a sudden she is not so pretty anymore, not so fascinating, not so real...

however, when you put her back to sea, she will cast you with a flicker of her tail, a drop of the water in which she lives as a gift of thanks...for letting her be free, once again to swim deep in the realm of emotion, the deep sea.

you may see her again, one day, but that solely depends on the degree of the grip that you had on her, if you nearly killed her with gross suffocation, she may come back and flirt with you from her realm, then quickly swim away, but you will never be part of her again.... if you saw her pain and struggle once in your grip, they she may forigve the man and love him anyway...if you never, ever grasped her at all, if you never, ever took her out of her watery realm, she will love you the most...she will love you unconditionally and for ever for letting her be free.....

posted October 09, 2007 12:54 PM              

The last day I met her was an eventful. I knew something was wrong and I asked her if there is anything which I did has made her mad. She told me that she would never get angry at me for anything in her life.

She knew that I loved her honestly and she liked me for the same reason. I just don’t know why she wanted to swim away. But the last text message she sent was the one that hurt me the most. Can it be true that she tried to love me but she was not able to?

Anyways, as of now I just want to be a friend.Since I really love her I am fine with it and I don’t want anything more than that.

posted October 09, 2007 01:10 PM            

Your post has touched my Fishy heart so...

I can feel that you truely do care for her....and I am quite sure that she feels it as well...(tho the ability of reciporication at this point in her life is the heart of the matter)

Do not worry how much of a grip you placed upon her, what really counts is to how long...what she FEELS and to what degree.

An example for you, my ex Cancer bf tried and after many years still tries to grasp me with his crab claws, that is just what they do, however, my soul mate, an Aqua lets me be FREE....the Aqua will always have my love, unconditionally and my respect, the Crab has left quite a bitter taste in my fishy mouth....and not just from the hook!!!

You must enter the dreams of the Pisces woman, because, when we are "grounded" ironically, so to speak, that is where we live, in a world of dreams, 3 feet off of the ground. Floating hither and yonder....

Love her for who she is. If it is to be it will be...trite words, I know, but that is just how it is.

But know, kind sir, that in loving and accepting the Pisces woman for who she is, you as a man, are elevating "love."

T~~~

ps if she has such a sense of freedom, which we do anyway, likely she has some Aqua in her, as do I....my darn Aquarian-colored Pisces soul...

posted October 10, 2007 06:16 PM              

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she would never come up and tell whats wrong and totally deny any opportunity to fix it.

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I don't think you should move just to be with her. It's not fair on you and she may feel suffocated. Don't be offended tho. Pisceans are easily suffocated by ANYONE too involved in their lives.

Rules for being her friend is the same with being her mate. The key is to let her be.

Let her make those dumb mistakes, let her make those rash decisions, let her regret and cry over it...then do it all over again.
Be supportive - even if every bone in your body tells you no. Learn to let go, and let her make those mistake. She will eventually learn to trust you, and will let you into her private life. Once you gain her trust, you're allowed to get involved, but still - let her be. Don't take the control from her. These are her karmic lessons to learn, no one should interfere. The greatest thing you can do is give her continuous love.

I'm not saying if she's a drug addict tell her to get high! It's best to not tell her anything, just be there when she needs you.

A good example is my friend from high school. She got drunk for the first time and came home really sick. Her dad advised her mum not say anything, just help her out without shouting at her - no "I told you so/what were you thinking/you're in so much trouble". They just let her be and nursed her back to health.

Since then she has never gotten drunk, and she tells me if her parents acted differently that may not be the case. I think her dad was a Leo.

Pisceans - and probably everyone - search for someone who'll forgive them for who they are. It's natural to want to protect them, and you see it as an act of love...however that translates to "I'm burdening myself to save you because you're too ________".
Ironically, once you let them be, they are free to learn that lesson and move on.

It's very confusing and frustrating. Love but with lots of space. How do you find that balance? How much love and support? How do I know if it's too much? What if she thinks me giving her space is indifference?

Be consistent and subtle.

I hope this all makes sense! I wrote it while feeling sleepy. I think it's wise to remain friends. If something happens in the future, it happens. But don't invest all your time in something that may not blossom.

posted October 11, 2007 11:48 PM              

I think it’s wise to stay friends. I have had enough traumas already and I am not going to push her at any point.

Honestly speaking, I don’t really know what I will do now; I am just hoping to do what I am writing here. Let’s see. I won’t do anything rash but this might linger inside for a long time.

Hippichick, you were exactly right. She has Aqua in her Venus. I am just including our astro here. I don’t know anything about it. Just let me know what you think.

Mine Hers.

Sun- Aries Pisces
Moon- Scorpio Leo
Mercury- Aries Aries
Venus- Taurus Aquarius
Mars- Aries Pisces
Jupiter- Libra Cancer
Saturn- Libra Virgo
Uranus- Scorpio Scorpio
Neptune- Sagittarius Sagittarius
Pluto- Libra Libra
Lilith- Scorpio Leo
Asc- Leo Virgo

posted October 19, 2007 01:04 AM              

Thanks..

I spoke to her the sameday you replied me , we might meet sometime next month.

posted October 19, 2007 10:10 PM            

"For, in letting her go, a man can achieve the greatest love of the Pisces woman."

wow.
this is a simply amazing statement i think.
i had an experience where i had to do just that and as brief and seemingly insignificant as it may have seemed at the time, it actually turned out to be a absolutely huge life lesson for me.
she embodied many things that i simply had not let go of for years and years. when i decided that i just had to let her go, i started the long slow journey of letting many things that no longer served me go too.

posted October 20, 2007 09:47 AM            

What do you think your re-action will be if you meet sometime next month???

Had a look at her/your placements...Anybody with a Venus in Aqua is going to be a bit of an oddball in relation.

Most adults of this day and age are still "old" enough to be raised with golden standards of a gentler age...most folks I know are raising their children now with these standards, in a progressive world. The times are changing, (we are in The Age of Aquarius after all! ), what was once held as must do's for relationships is not necessarilly so anymore.

Was listening to some one on the radio the other day and some legislator, some where like, maybe it was Sweeden was trying to make a marriage clause, where it was contractual and expired in 7 years! The couple could renew or just walk away in 7 years. I think this is quite an excellent idea and quite the sign of the times!!!

Marriage, while it has it's perks, legally etc. is loosing ground, slowly, but was designed for a simpler time, a time when people lived many fewer years than they do now.

Now people grow and change...

Ok, I am stepping off of that soapbox! But I am illustrating a point, the Aquarian personality, the woman with Venus in Aqua will have some strange ideas about relationship and I will bet, if she is honest with herself, she will not embrace traditional relationship.

So, you have the Pisces woman, already a strange one, one who holds dear a spiritual heart, one who society will shun for her witchy ways and you throw in an Aqua Venus, the mix gets even stranger and more intriguing! Her Leo moon absolutely screams for attention, emotional attention, but she wants to be left alone at the same time!

Woman can be not so self-assertive anyway but with her Pisces Mars, she will assert herself, her ego energies very quietly, very subdude. Atleast with your mutual Mercuries in Aries, you two can understand the way each thinks. You are highly Arian and while she may
intellectually "understand" you, her Pisces soul may have difficulty in dealing with your firey energy. Tho, her Leo moon will certainly help.

I am a bit fan of old astrology, I embrace the elements and symbols.

I have an Aries daughter, and sometimes she can just make me boil!!! I feel like am going to burn from the inside out! When she asserts her firey energy upon my peaceful waters....the water boils! I turn it around on her sometimes and put her darn fire out with my water!!!

twentytwenty---I am BIG time into letting go....but I am highly Aquarian too!!! The lesson of letting go is a hard one, one that I was put to learning several years ago...and there is such freedom, such liberation, such LOVE in letting go! Not only of people, but things, ideas, etc!!!

Blessings

posted October 21, 2007 07:10 AM            

Expecting someone to love you the way you love them is not even an issue.

And a world without relation-ship problems....is a world without "relation-ship."

Ships sink, a love and apprecition for another human being with acceptance and unconditionally be-ing able to let one go is not the relationship that we have all grown up with.

posted October 21, 2007 01:35 PM              

I cannot say that I have completely accepted the fact that she has already gone. I am trying hard to do that and slowly I will. Let her go.