posted October 11, 2007 08:07 AM              

My details are:
Libra Sun (7th House)
Libra Moon (7th House)
Ascendent Pisces (in the 3rd Decan)
Mercury in Libra (7th House)
Venus in Virgo (6th House)
Mars in Cancer (5th House)
Jupiter in Cancer (4th House)
Saturn in Leo (6th House)
Uranus in Scorpio (7th House)
Neptune in Sagittarius (9th House)
Pluto in Libra (7th House) Conjunct my Sun
MidHeaven Sagittarius
North Node Libra

I have been told before that due to my chart I should be very attractive and to be honest I am not! I tend to feel that I am quite ugly really although objectively I know that I am average. It just seems that I seem to have no sex appeal at all, I get on very well with men and have many male friends but I can hardly remember a time when someone fancied me! I do have a boyfriend who I do love but between us there is more of a platonic relationship than passion(he is Aries Sun / Virgo Moon / Asc Gemini). I sometimes feel very much that something is blocking me in this area. I have always felt different to other girls and women like they seem to know some mysterious secret I don't. I am not one of the lads I don't drink, smoke or like sports and yet men often tell me they can open up to me more than their other friend male or female. I am not so good at developing this level of open communication with women though although I do have one very close female friend. The rest are all male.
I am artistic and I think I have nice taste which is quite boheimian but I tend in my dress to be quite scruffy and dull, I am 30 today and often taken for a student by my appearance I guess that must be that Ascendent Pisces working! I feel that I don't think I am good enough to be pretty and I think my Venus in Virgo may be causing me some problems, I read that this is the worst place for venus and that people with this placement are most likely not to marry. This bothers me but on the other hand I find I like to be on my own a lot and can't bare the thought of giving up my own personal space by moving in with my boyfriend. I was thinking this may be due to Pluto conjunct my Sun? I have always been secretive and very private by nature although I don't have any need to be I just prefer it that way.
A final question is this, I trained as an artist and I love to make art and yet for several years now I have made no work at all. I feel very blocked in this area, mostly I think due to feeling nothing I do is good enough. In many respects this is the most vital issue for me if I were never able to make art again I think I would rather be dead. Initally I took it as just a fallow period but it I am begining to worry that it will never come back!
Anyway sorry for such a long rant. It is just that I turn 30 today and I am having a long think about my life. Perhaps there might be something intereting in here for your studies and if anyone would like to give me any insight re these issues and my chart that would be great!
Many thanks,
Betty x

posted October 11, 2007 12:20 PM              

You may then have the reading privately or posted here--please specify.

posted October 11, 2007 02:20 PM            

So it's not surprising you would feel blocked just now as an artist, and in relation to true love/romance.

A Saturn Return brings up our deepest insecurities in the area it hits--which are our deepest insecurities in life. How would you live out today if you knew for sure you were going to die in a week? Your challenge is to let yourself feel passion and creativity whether or not you "deserve" it...to let yourself live a brave, thrilling life even if you're totally ugly and repulsive!! Note--I know you're probably actually very beautiful, but let's say you weren't or aren't...the point is, so what? You only get to be this one person, Betty, in this life. Saturn in Leo says that your lesson is to let yourself love what you love. Loving what you love is not about whether you are good enough or pretty enough or special enough--it's about having an open heart. Let yourself admit to your secret wishes creatively, romantically and sexually.

Saturn in Leo also says that you may be surrounded by love and delight already but take it for granted because of your insecurities.

Ask yourself: what do I really most want? What am I scared to want? And let yourself want it.

posted October 11, 2007 02:32 PM              

I think you need to meet a scorpio who can expose all your secret desires, then find a Sagittarius who will give you freedom and friendship until you decide what type of commitment you need in life right now. No matter what self image a person has of themselves, confidence is the primary attraction for potential lovers.

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L.Monroe

posted October 11, 2007 02:50 PM              

Really, just spend time with men who are more comfortable with you as a sensual being, and if they are not, don't spend time with them. Gemini rising people are comfortable with being friends, but are a little scared of intense emotions. I have many of your same placements. gemini risings make me feel that way too.

I'd meet and mingle with water signs for a while and those who are supportive of your art-Saggies are helpful too.

Can you work in a gallery?