posted December 15, 2007 07:20 AM              

Im aware that astrology doenst predict the future,and so this isnt a thread related to "whats goin to happen in the future?".
Instead, im asking what its supposed , concerning the transits/progressions, for me to "learn" or to "pass" relating to the limitations im feeling these last weeks?

I know that Saturn hitting my Sun is supposed to be the main focus on why im feeling so restricted and down lately,but is there any other big thing that contributes to what im passing through?

It relates to my inner self and my self--esteem and valour. The thing is im feeling very lost and without knowing how to get out of the prisons that others make me go into.For example everything was goin great at the baby store and i was working good but in the end my Mother didnt gave me credit or valued what i did ( neither materialy or emocionally).
Now i gave up on that instead of wasting my time and beeing unhappy. As its a family business,everyone is against me and says im ungrateful and not a good daughter.

I dont feel free as a human being.
People take importance on little things which i found so tiny compared to others.They Judge and only look to their bellys and views.
I would take a step backwards and try to fit into their shows so that i could know what the other mih~ght be feeling - no one does that and so i came to the conclusion i can only count on me afterall.

Families aprisionates our souls and by the appearances of their tituls , as "Father","Mother" ect wants to makes us slaves of their wills just cuase "They can".

Im up here of being the good one and sick of others dictate my life.

Sorry for this part - i needed to say part of the Story. I feel a little better now ive said this.

Thankx

posted December 15, 2007 07:31 AM              

Transits

Progressions

posted December 15, 2007 09:09 AM            

Sorry to hear that you're going through so much right now. The first thing that popped out at me were the massive Sagg transits (yep...Pluto!) quincunxing your moon (mom and emotions) in your natal 8th (transformation and changes).

This would most likely explain the things going on involving your family...especially your Mom. Major transformations that might not feel great.

The moon rules Cancer...which in your chart rules your 10th house. There is your store and your MC (career) tied into it all. The same transits will quincunx your natal Chiron soon. I also saw transiting Karma between your natal Chiron (4 degrees) and your natal moon (5 degrees), both in your 8th house. It's retrograde, so it may go back and hit your moon once again.

Pluto is also your 2nd house ruler, which might explain why these feelings based on your family/career are effecting your self image.

I'll leave you with some words of wisdom that my Mom always said..."This too shall pass."

posted December 15, 2007 10:44 AM              

sorry to hear about your hard times.

To me it sounds like there are some serious "family-issues" involved here, and it has something to do with the Tr-Saturn conjunct your Sun.
Saturn rules the 4th house of family in your chart and Sun rules your 11th house.
Also, you have a Sun-Uranus-square natally that is now triggered by T-Saturn, and Uranus now rules your 5th house, which means this Saturn-transit activates your 5th-11th-house axis. Even more so, since Transit Saturn and your natal Sun fall into your 11th house.
So 5th house and 11th house-issues are activated. To me this is the axis of "creativity and individuality". you have a strong desire to be your "own" person, to go your individual way and want some encouragement to do so. I guess, this can be a time where you develop a certain sense of "self", not so much in the sense of who you are, but in the sense of what you want to DO (that is 5th house to me; the house where you become active, creative).
But the way through which you develope this sense of being "yourself" is not an easy one. Saturn seems to put brakes on this urge. It is a feeling like you want to break free, but you can`t. And the restraints you feel (Saturn) are probably brought to you by your family or even some childhood-issues, that now come to the surface (Saturn as ruler of your 4th hosue).
Maybe to really find out what you, YOU, not your mother, father, sister, boyfriend or whoever, want to do, is to withdraw a little and take some time to think about what you want to do with your life. What do you want to do, that will make you happy and content, without having outside cheers, thanks and applause? What are your ideals? What is your way?

I know those are not easy questions,b ut I guess this is what you have to ask yourself. And remember, you are not your family, and even though there will be always emotional ties to them, you`re also an individual person.

posted December 15, 2007 12:38 PM              

All that youve said it fits every each word.

Moon,

yes the main person who gives me this brakes its my Mother and yes, for now and i think forever, i left out the store. Im not be given credits for and i receive only criticism and injustice being there.

All this is affecting me at a very deep level - the transformation thing. But its not just her. It all the other people of my family who just dont care if im happy or not - as a daughter i must do what they demand and help - no matter if im fullfield or not.
Thats the thing it *** me off right now. And i dont want anyone´s help of them to make my life fullfield -they are doing a pretty good job on making me feel miserable and unworthy

So thats it - and by what youve said..i see that kiron is goin to he pretty hitted to..not good news also...

DD,

tALK bout serious dramas hein

Totally right - i want to be ME and not what my Family wants me to be or do..my only encouragement is Jonnhy who is the only one who understands and supports me.
Fortunatelly he encourages me to be me and not listening to superficial and one sided minds.He passed through the same many time ago and he knows what im feeling..he´s been my Angel since I met him.

Did you red Izo´s reading about all this? The "Heavens Gate " is closed for me as i must stay calm and be still to let time show me the way. Said period of transformations but afterwards a renewal Faith in Life ( thats really lacking right now)..all this makes perfect sense now

I know what would make me happy and fullfield,just intimate and secretly content : my dream of being a writter. Ive been writing a lot,all that happens i put into paper,so indirectly,im already treating that.

I am what i write and my dream is that others can read their stories when reading mines. To be understood and create Worlds that would bring people joy,peace and a sense of being in another place they always wanted to be

This is my Way