posted January 01, 2008 03:22 AM              

When we had the Pluto-Jupiter conjunction, it was exactly conjunct my ascendant and I felt a lot of stress and pressure. Now I'm wondering, with Jupiter now 5 degrees into my first house, why aren't I feeling much better? I thought this was a real "feel-good" transit.

Pluto is now also in my first house by 1 degree (according to astro.com) and I'm still feeling pressure. I have had stressful arguments with Mr Gemini, and I now notice that Mars has retrograded all the way back to my descendant and it is exactly opposing transiting Pluto. sigh. I'm also finding myself worrying about my health and worrying about my near future. I'm totally stressed out, although I am trying not to be.

posted January 03, 2008 01:51 AM              

Pluto in the first house is pretty dif and has been about transforming how I intially appear to people. It has set off several rounds of analytical thinking of what message I am putting out in brief encounters. NOT intimate or close relationships. Its issues have been fundamentally first house and ascendent issues. Its been there since 2004.

posted January 03, 2008 04:29 PM              

Yeah bucketrider it has been like a "war" in many regards but it's also due to the way our own personalities are interacting with the transits, if you see what I mean. Or at least, the transits are making things more obvious. He's gearing up for excitement and change (Gemini/Aries/Aries), which I'd usually be happy about too (Sag rising), but with a lot of stressful incidents and situations and frustrations happening for me right now (tPluto conj ASC opposite tMars) I just want to take cover and have some stability and security (Taurus/Scorpio). Right on the brink of us going overseas, I feel more Taurus/Scorpio than I ever have before in my *life* and all I want to do is put roots down in a home of our own and find some security. I would feel happier going overseas if I knew we had a home to come back to! But overall I think I have a lot of insecurities and fears about it because there are no definite plans, and I haven't been able to secure things like an internet connection so that I can work (I work remotely and my job requires me to work 30 hours per week while I'm away), a place to housesit after the first four weeks (we wanted to have this all organised before leaving), no plans have been set and it's really undermining my sense of security. If I didn't have to work while I'm away, I would be less worried and I could just 'wing it', but I feel so stressed out by the thought of not meeting my work responsibilities (tSaturn is in my 10th house). On top of that I'm having anxiety and on the verge of panic attacks about it all, now made worse by finding a lump in my neck which is in all likelihood a raised gland that will go away, but all I can do is worry about it because I want it to go away before I go overseas! I was worried about my back and shoulder injury giving me trouble so I got reiki, and everything has improved enough just in time... but it seems like as soon as it got better, there is a new issue to deal with. So I am feeling overwhelmed with worries, and I know that it's stressing Mr Gemini out because he just wants this to be fun. So do I, but it seems like circumstances just keep getting in my way (Mars retrograde!!!). Also there have been arguments and potential arguments with my former flatmates because somebody didn't pay their rent and now there are arrears of over $700 which we are all being held responsible for even though I personally do not owe any of this money, and now it looks as though I won't get my bond payment refunded to me. Moving out was stressful too. I always used to be able to 'roll with the punches' so to speak, but I'm finding it much more difficult these days.