posted January 18, 2008 06:44 AM
Cappyscorp,yes, I think we have some things in common, astrologywise.
If I see it right, you may have a late Scorpio-ascendant, while my ASC is in 7° Sagittarius.
"luto is about to transit my Sun/Mercury conjunction in early Capricorn before it moves retrograde again."
Be prepared! LOL Well, actually there is no way to ever be prepared for PLuto-aspects. But having said that, I must say that I`m almost sorry that Pluto has left my Sun and MErcury by now (26° Sagittarius). That`s not to say it was an easy period in my life; certainly not, but it was all worth it. And I feel like I have been showered with gifts.
The greatest gift of all having regained my faith again.
For so many years, after I had lost my faith in the sense of life, in the truth of my own perception, in spirituality, I have felt like dead.
And then suddenly, in february 2006 I became painfully aware, that I was not where I was supposed to be emotionally, that I had become just an empty shell, living the lives of other people to avoid living my own life.
I felt the worst kind of homesickness, I had ever experienced. IN an emotional / spiritual sense. And I realized suddenly that I had cut off a part of my life, that I was not supposed to be cut off. An area, a hobby, you could say, connected to two very special men.
I had cut it off, had cut them out of my life, because it seemed to be the only reasonable thing to do, it was necessary for my emotional survival back then.
But there must have been some unfinished business with them in my soul. It`s all just happening on the inside.
And as unreasonable and silly that must have seemed to everyone who knew me, including myself, I took my first steps back into this part of my life.
And I hardly had turned back to this, that things just started to happen, which had seemed to be impossible. Nothing big on the outside, but even the little things had a deep impact on my soul.
And I let myself just getting pulled along, even though I didn`t understand what was happening, why it was happening, what it all meant. I still don`t really know, but now I have faith. It`s alright. Whatever happens, whatever I feel, I`m supposed to experience this - now. And one day I will understand the meaning of it all. And if not, then I was not supposed to understand.
Of course, on this way there has been a lot of emotional pain, too; or let`s say, emotional intensity that is sometimes hard to bear. For example: Why do I feel that intense attraction to this man, who is so unavailable to me?
I don`t know why I do feel the way I do; I just know I do.
And what I learned is some kind of "acceptance".
I accepted that he is unavailable and always will be, but I also accepted that I indeed have feelings for him.
It`s actually a very new experience for me. Admitting to myself that I`m actually an emotional being, too (not too easy for this unaspected Aquarius-Moon .
And I have the feeling that I opened up a little bit to people, really letting them into my soul and heart, without feeling guilty or defensive or ashamed of what I feel.
I wonder what is gonna happen when Pluto will be conjunct my Venus on 6° Capricorn, which accidentally rules my 5th house.
"Also, my natal and progressed vertex fall in Cancer and the natal/progressed 8th house."
My natal Vertex is in Cancer in 8th, too.
"Not to mention that the progressed ruler of the 8th is the Moon in Libra."
My natal Moon rules my 8th house. It`s a very interesting constellation, actually.
"transiting Jupiter will be at my natal Sun/Moon midpoint!"
WEll, in my case transiting Jupiter will be at my natal Sun / Moon-midpoint in the middle of April (21,5 Capricorn); funny enough my natal Sun / Moon-midpoint is also exactly conjunct my Antivertex and exactly opposite my Eros.
But speaking of you; I think you might be in for some emotional transformation yourself.
DD