posted April 06, 2008 11:54 AM         

One more question; How do I determine things like Grand Trines and such? these are very confusing to me.

Alright, well, that's a lot so far, and thank you so much for your consideration in helping me understand myself and therefore Astrology a bit more!!! Hooray to you!

'Intimate and Figurative Prattle'

"No one could ever displace the grasp you have on my being. If I had a tangible choice in the matter, I would be yours, and yours alone, and you are the only one I have, and will ever orate that to. The strength of my adoration could endure holding you to an elevation that would ensure your efficacious fingers reach the stars, take the world, and secure your magnificent signature on this nebulous and derelict existence. I pledge to never shroud the potential within you, or initiate any demands, other than becoming the glory you are certain to become; even if that means never satisfying a normal life with you. I have learned that I can do anything with the enchanted luminescence you have undoubtedly composed within my soul. It is infinite and virtuous, and it is yours, no matter where we are or who we're with; I give you the breath within my word. You can delight in anyone you wish, and it'll never alter my warmth for you. I have always communicated to you, that you never have to feel the same, and you can rest in that fact, for it's return is not needed. The magnitude of my emotion will forever be enough for me. You unlocked my imprisoned dream, the moment I met you, and have therefore infused within the nucleus, and are thus an elemental component of my journey. You will eternally be the one I love, life after tormenting life." written to a flame with such illumination, it almost burns me to receive him.

posted April 08, 2008 08:22 AM         

In your Chart Jupiter is the chart ruler and it squares the mercury venus conjunction (suggesting a flair for writing) Jupiter in Libra tenth house possible career out of writing about relationships (your written work publishable). You have a great deal of communication within relationships. Infact I would say you are nearly expert at the give and take of communication within a relationship so you should do well in attracting a partner who can also communicate well(which is a huge factor of a healthy relationship really isn't it)
The mercury Venus conjunction opposing your first house Neptune suggests partners who are extremely artistic like yourself. these types are not always the most reliable though for commitment but you are inspirational to them and you know how to handle this. With Neptune in the first house you are very spiritual. This comes through in your writing but also in your expectations of a relationship which can be hard to live up to for the spiritual qualities take alot of balancing to adjust to the reality of an everyday commited relationship. Again this is all stuff that you would write about. I really do see a writer's vocation (plus your style of writing on this thread is very eloquent). The Uranus conjunct ascendant is hidden... True in the last degrees it can show itself in the first house but the orb is wide so I would say that in your chart it shows itself only at the most spiritual moments when you are alone in your thoughts and your writing.

I think you have a very clear understanding of where your poetry comes from.
Eccentricity in my opinion is an air sign thing but yes more so related to Uranus and Aquarius. Uranus in the 12th house of the subconscious though does show itself to others but in a specific way. It can be a blind spot to you in the sense that you accept in unconditonally and it moves from you, you do not put great effort into being eccentric, it is just at work within you. The subconscious shows alot through automatic behaviour which an individual isn't always aware of but can be seen by others through behaviour.
This will inluence your writing because your style of bahaviour will attract people into your life to whom you will communicate with and SHARE A SPIRITUAL CONNECTION TO... which will inspire your thougts and creativtiy.
Uranus in the 12th house suggests you have scientific potential. Potential to awaken, to be rebellious. This can lend itself to your behaviour but not necessarily be something you put your energy into outwardly. Uranus in the 12th is a spiritual influence.

posted April 08, 2008 12:06 PM         

your quote- "(your written work publishable)"

my reply- oh my! wouldn't that be a dream come true!

i wanted to inform you that a lot of the things you stated, about being alone with my thoughts to actualize them, are so right on point. so much so, that when i feel a creative bug coming on, and i can't escape in order to put them down in whatever fashion comes to me, i kind of feel incomplete; or at loss with myself. it can be rather exasperating in times when isolation can, and will, not be accomplished. ugh.

also, i would love to think i can indeed be an inspiration to those that i feel a connection with. how splendid! but in the past i haven't been one to bond with people who have the ability to communicate well. i'm not sure why this is, but i think i may help those individuals to connect with that part of themselves a little more. i guess that's all that truly matters. i'm not sure if my progressions can dipict why it is only now that i'm finding like minding creative individuals to bond with, but it sure is a favorable outcome in my relationships. i think i appeal to those that wish they could tap into that part of existence a little more deeply, but i do wish i could find more persons with which i can relate my artistic nature to. i'm not sure if that all makes sense, but there it is. i think the computer fuels my need to for isolation, as well as socializing. it's a good place to enjoy words, and pass them with ease to, and from others.

anywhen, i'm very happy at the moment, and i'm going to thank you a third time for this elated feeling. you are super!

'lullabies on moonlight'

"as i sat in a kaleidoscope of the flawless desert moon; his notes, his voice, his every chord beat through me. pedals, keys, swooning music in the night. lullabies to dream me awake, or awaken my dreams? i just sat with tears in my eyes as cries from within dripped down the skin of my dreary cheeks. i pictured his hands dancing through my hair, along my face, his light caresses everywhere; brushing my body with a considerate touch. he manifested a strong sensation, partnered with a deep intention to fill my longing heart with soothing sounds. to ease with love; tenderly, wholy, and without forethought of what was meant to be, the what could be, the should be, or is. just those moments, strewn with, and capitalized with him. i miss those nights the most. i remember those nights when i dream. as i dream awake in the sunlight i feel his presence, and the keys. those lovely keys to my trembling heart; tied and bound to him in his instrumental desire. i acquired resplendent dreams of things unseen. of him; unseen, and untouched, although remembered until my very last breath.
keys in the night, dreams in the sunlight, notes through a motorola phone, and a voice that will never fade. a southern voice that woke my dormant dreams; vivid now with a boy unseen, but felt through words. those gorgeous words of his, accompanied with an efficacious voice like lurid flame; that lit a fire in my soul. a desiderate blaze that will never dissipate, and may forever lure me to my dreams; now wakeful in the arizona sun, with a smouldering desire that radiates there from. in my animate mind, i still live in those nights, with his devine melodies entrancing me in the moonlight."

*this is a poem for the same person the letter was to. i did enjoy the experiences that helped create these words, and i hope to enjoy them further in the future. yay to artisitic souls who help actualize creation, and i hope for even more to come!

love, and laughter is what i wish to you,