posted April 12, 2008 09:00 AM         

I can't manage that at this stage. I'm fine as long as I think I've probably imagined his interest or that I've lost him, but as soon as he starts to act like he likes me and is interested I do this stupid deer in the headlights thing.

Example:yesterday when he came to the point more than he ever has and it was actually clear that he liked me. During the whole time with him I was like a quivering exposed nerve, but I was still in the game,asking him questions and flirting, but then right as he was leaving is when it happened and I choked BIG TIME. I couldn't get rid of him fast enough. I felt like I had nowhere to hide.
I think he felt confused, rejected. He even got so flustered he forgot his keys, cigarettes, etc. And I was rushing him out like I had something to do when I just wanted to get by myself and come to terms with it.
I have NO IDEA why I do these things but it's like I'm powerless to fight it because it's irrational in the first place and it really sucks. This is my progressed chart.

This is the chart of the guy where this is triggering now w/birthtime estimated at noon, although it happens with almost everyone, not just him.

posted April 12, 2008 09:56 AM         

I have no cancer planets in my chart, but have been told that the combination I do have (Aqua Sun, 11th, Leo moon, 5th) manifest themselves in a very cancerian way.

I behave very similarly. I have never said "i love you" first. I can't put that out there... it's like, an extreme fear of being rejected. When I am around someone I have a very strong attraction/connection to, I am in complete denial and put up a wall so they can't get in.

I personally could not meditate or do relaxation exercises to try and alleviate these issues, (my merc and mars are also in Aqua... way too hard to give my brain a rest) but maybe you could try to do that? It seems like such a cookie cutter response, but it may help you to be with yourself and concentrate on confidence.

posted April 12, 2008 08:53 PM         

here's the link where heart cakes and many more made me see this Cancer NN thing about fear of letting go, and repressed emotions.
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum1/HTML/017051.html

posted April 13, 2008 11:13 AM         

i feel with you.

my insecurity comes from my virgo sun but i know how it is to completely run away whenever someones approaches you,just because of the fear of being rejected or wanting to say "i love you" and then waiting for a simlilar saying...but you know what? by the time i started to accept that a rejection wasnt the worst thing i could feel ( the not knowing how it could have been with that person WAS THE THING)..then i finally went to it!

FEELING - let yourself feel and embrace the liberty that is allowing you to do that and dont fear waht may come

For the first time in my life that i made the 1st move,the 1st kiss,the 1st holding hands...i never stopped to feel fear or the little devil inside my head.I dont regret nothing cause indeed i let myself free and showed the WHO I AM INSIDE - Like you want to show but feel fear.

I think that the fact that you have 12th cancer house makes me wonder..might very well be a past life karma/lessons you have to learn.Like the others said,it´s a path you must follow and break with the barriers.

My bf has his NN Cancer and rising as weel - indeed he showed his insecurity on making the 1st moves,on compromise and surrender to his heart - but he had to do that. Now he´s much more happier on having showed his Love and not having run away from me

posted April 14, 2008 10:30 AM         

Let us stand together and change the tune.
Can you not see whats up? Lol
We live in a society that takes pride in those who are fastest, strongest, loudest, the most popular, but have you ever heard of a society that exalted the most loving, the most patient, the ones who will help you to carry your pain?
Nope because that isnt cool!
Being emotional and sensitive is not cool, and as a Cancerian you are a walking mirror.
People do not like to deal with their insides, they would much rather escape!
To be fair there really isnt much youcan do to change society, be if you want to be a part of it then BE a part of it.
and if it isnt you, then just do YOU.
Everything in society comes in fads.
The emotional and sensitive fall line is just around the corner.

Now I do not believe in wallowing, which is why I never moan or complain or any of these things that are see are atypical for most Cancerian on this board.

The 2 Cancerians I am lucky to have in my live are another Cancer sun, Cappie mooner and a Cancer sun, Aqua mooner and they are too fly.
They are strong, confident, fun as hell, wild and know how to love you without losing themselves.

Maybe its my Capricorn moon that speaks the loudest in me, because I find it exceedingly stupid and I just do not see the point in moaning.
So you hate your job, just find another one.
You do not get along with your friends, then move on, or take a break, or change the nature of the relationship!!
Your boyfriend and you havent had sex in 6 months. HELLOOO!!!! He is either gay or you both are not sexually attracted to each other. In either case, go get it somewhere else.
Life is far too shorty to whine.
Really!!