posted April 18, 2008 05:18 PM         

I've done quite a bit of self reflection regarding my eccentrcity but I just can't figure myself out! That's why I initially became interested in astrology. Since then, it has really helped me realize my potentials and my weaknesses and I believe i've done a lot of growing thanks to the different perspectives and insights that astrology provides.

But, my focus on this thread is that I do have a problem and sometimes I really don't know what's wrong with me. I'm wondering if I have bi-polar tendencies? I would really love to hear some feedback from anyone who either has bipolar disorder, or knows of someone who does.

So basically what happens is sometimes my thoughts race and I can't slow my mind down! This usually results in very high levels of energy and an anxious feeling that prompts me to complete any task that needs to be done around my apartment in a sort of fanatic way. Once my mind is in this mode, and I have a set project in front of me, I absolutely HATE being derailed. It's like i'm on a mission and I can't be interrupted until the hyperactive energy dissipates. After that I usually crash for a couple days and then all the sudden it will hit me again. This little cycle is really messing me up; it prevents me from sleeping because I seriously cannot slow my mind down enough to relax and fall asleep. Even if I complete all of the chores/projects i set my mind too, my thoughts continue to race. Also, I tend to over analyze people and their reactions and I become very self conscious and anxious. I try to conceal this as much as I can and i've gotten far better at hiding the self consciousness as i've gotten older. Some nights, I barely sleep because I stay up until the wee hours of the night and then I have to wake up early the next day. The only thing is, I don't consider myself depressed. I do have a tendency to get depressed when things aren't going my way, but then I was thinking, getting depressed when things don't go as planned is probably an obstacle that everyone encounters. I do get highly anxious sometimes and I have NO idea why. The anxiety will just come out of nowehere and even though I sit back and try to think about what could be causing this stress I can't find any reason! My life is exactly where I think it needs to be at this point in time. I'm on the right track, but repeating that mantra to myself over and over when those periods of high energy and anxiety come about doesn't dissipate the feelings at all.

Does this sound like anything familiar to anyone? Please help!

Here's my chart too, just in case:

posted April 18, 2008 06:19 PM         

Looking at your chart, I see Jupiter in the 12th house squaring your Venus, and same Venus is quincunx Mars. This might indicate a certain rashness in feelings and actions.

In addition, you have Saturn conjunct Uranus in your house of health, the 6th house. This conjunction is like a very uncomfortable marriage. Where Uranus is unpredictable and free-spirited, Saturn is disciplined and conservative and solid. That creates a lot of inner tension.

posted April 18, 2008 06:34 PM         

Finally you have alot of fire influence in your chart which might need tempering to be channeled for your Libra Sun to handle. Try to pace yourself and let out your anger when appropriate. Don't bottle things up. say what you need to say in an argument and then move on. I say this because your Aries Mars in the 10th house is squared to Saturn/Uranus conjunction in the 6th and Neptune in the 7th.