posted April 30, 2008 06:33 PM         

But anyway, this is more of an 8th question. What do you feel about death? Are you scared, ambivilent or looking forward to it?

My 8th house cusp is on scorpio. My pluto is in the 6th in libra, conj DC. I have nep, vertex and NN in my 8th. My NN is unaspected except it is conj with my vertex. My nep is conj my jup/asc. I am not ready to die and quite frankly wouldn't like it to happen *now* but I look forward to dying one day. Do you ever meet those people that say "I want to live forever"? I take it that when they say this, they mean that they would like to live forever on this planet. I wouldn't. I feel that when I die I will go to a better place, that I will be going home and that I will finally be laid to rest and have some peace. I want that peace and the thought of living forever in this mundane dimension torments me. I found "Interview With A Vampire" terribly disturbing because of this element. I feel that I will live forever though but in another plane in peace with maybe a great soul (God).

posted April 30, 2008 08:11 PM         

ive def had my phases of thinking about death all the time. not in a bad way or a gory way, just in a ego-has-to-die-eventually way. i think people shouldnt ignore death as if itll never happen but i understand not obsessing about it and depressing yourself. i think there can be things learned from keeping it in mind and not believing you will overcome nature.

posted May 01, 2008 02:16 AM         

Unfortunately, I have seen it up close and personal. I had time to prepare (and I insisted I nursed this person at home so they didn't have to die in hospital) but it still wasn't the greatest moment of my life. Any fascination I have had has gone now.

So I think I shall put myself in the ambivalent section. It is going to happen to one day to all the people I love and to me as well. I'd prefer it came at a time when I didn't have any dependents to care for, but I have little choice in the matter.

posted May 01, 2008 03:57 AM         

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posted May 01, 2008 05:44 AM         

even though it might sound quite tragic, i'm actually looking forward to die. i'm not asking to die tomorrow obviously. but providing it doesn't come in a scary event, i think i'm gonna look at it as a liberation.

in my experience, the reason why i'm not scared and why i'm even looking forward to it is because death seems a natural part of life to me (8th house sun?), and because of that, i try to live according to this understanding in my day-to-day life. so to do that for 70 or 80 years will be enough and death will come as a relief.

posted May 01, 2008 06:00 AM         

I am terribly afraid of dying. Probably because it is so much of a change and I have to let go completely. And letting go was never easy for me.

But unlike some here I actually witnessed some people dying.
Both of my granddad`s were in our house, so our family could take care of them, and they died at home.
The granddad of my mother died in a hospital, which we visited every second day. It was the first death I witnessed consciously, as I was 3.
But seeing your grandparents die, as sad as this is, it`s a part of life.

But what was really traumatic to me, was when the boyfriend of my eldest friend, and thus a good friend of mine, died in a motorcycle accident in 2002. He hadn`t even turned 25.
It`s hard to deal with death, when it strikes so suddenly and "unfairly".

Regarding myself I have learned (emotionally) from all of this, that nothing is secure and that your safety can be crushed in one single moment. Maybe that is the reason that made me hold on to things and emotions too tightly, like to "force" some illusion of security, because deep inside I am convinced of the fragility of life and security.
I also experience panic attacks thinking I am going to die any moment now and then, because if others are ripped from life so surprisingly, it could happen to me, also, couldn`t it?

I KNOw that these thoughts are silly and ridiculous, but that is an emotional thing for me. And emotionally I am very afraid of dying, going away, leaving it all behind.

Well, Cancer is on the cusp of my 8th house; the ruler Moon is in Aquarius in my 2nd house with an exact quinkunx to Saturn, which is in t urn in Cancer in my 8th house.

posted May 01, 2008 06:17 AM         

Cancer on the 8th, with the Moon in the 8th. I'm more afraid of what comes after... Saturn in the 12th.

posted May 01, 2008 06:26 AM         

When something like this hits you in the face you get to see the harsh reality of life. It's randomness is quite frightening, so no wonder we try to protect ourselves from this in whatever way we can.

It also explains why the perennial 'bird flu' scare story has such a powerful effect.

Hey, I have Moon CNJ Pluto and Scorpio Rising. I sit and think about this stuff. I don't talk about it much though.

posted May 01, 2008 06:59 AM         

My greatest fear is a long terminal illness because at this point in time I haven't come to terms with death. I haven't experienced any death in my life, same as you belgz. Hats off to you blue moon, I would try to care for a terminally ill person but I'm not sure how well I'd do it. I would fear making the experience worse for that person through my fear.

My second greatest fear is being the oldest person in the world, where everybody older than me that I loved has died.

I think we are all immortal though, but I just don't know where. Does that make sense?

I have no planets in the 8th, but the 8th is ruled by Pisces. Pluto's in Libra so I get the same conflict of opinion all the time when I think about death. I really hate the predominance of Libra sometimes.

I'm going to have a look where Ceres is though. I don't know the significance of Ceres - do you have a link to that discussion please blue moon?

posted May 01, 2008 07:02 AM         

Thought I'd mention this book in case anyone is interested in this subject astrologically. It isn't the easiest tome about:

posted May 01, 2008 07:53 AM         

Oh and regarding vampires: I have always dreamed of them; actually the first dream I can remember was about a vampire, when I was 9 or so.
However, a few years ago I had a row of dreams of vampires (I have always been fascinated and afraid of them), but then I finally understood what the "vampire" symbolizes for me, and that is when those dreams stopped.
NOw, I almost miss them sometimes. There was something greatly dramatic (and sometimes even darkly erotic) to them. lol

posted May 01, 2008 10:31 AM         

Well I won't say I can't wait to die, but death to me is like finally knowing the truth.
I remember I grew up having ideas about life and death, I seemed to be born with the idea that life/death are cycles. And when I was young I didn't want to live forever, in fact that was one of my greatest no-no.

I feel that we are born to learn, we die when we've finally done so. I always feel sad that I cannot know everything, see everything but then I get comforted because I think that when I die, I will have the chance to see/know what I couldn't when alive.

Death is scary because it is an unknown, the unfamiliar. And that's why we have to delve into it to seek and search and prod it.

Pluto is in my 8th house in Scorpio.
It trines my sun, opposes my moon. Sextiles my Neptune and trines my ascendant. It also has lesser aspects with my mercury, mars and venus.
I can't help but with a personal connection to the death/regeneration star!

p/s: I love Sailor Moon! Aside from Sailor Moon herself, the Soldier I was most fascinated with when I was young was Sailor Saturn. The Soldier of Death and Destruction...and also resurrection.

posted May 01, 2008 12:19 PM         

The body is heavy, weak and a huge bother. I really do feel a little uncomfortable in it. Although it is designed very well, I think it could have been done better.

posted May 01, 2008 02:44 PM         

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"Death is only the beginning."
Lol couldn't resist that quote from The Mummy.
Well I won't say I can't wait to die, but death to me is like finally knowing the truth.
I remember I grew up having ideas about life and death, I seemed to be born with the idea that life/death are cycles. And when I was young I didn't want to live forever, in fact that was one of my greatest no-no.

I feel that we are born to learn, we die when we've finally done so. I always feel sad that I cannot know everything, see everything but then I get comforted because I think that when I die, I will have the chance to see/know what I couldn't when alive.

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Yes, YOU TOOK THE WORDS RIGHT OF MY MOUTH .

posted May 01, 2008 03:02 PM         

I have Cancer and Saturn in my 8th house.

I was just wondering while pondering my chart if I could find anything to indicate the death of nearly all of my nurturing, kind family members by the time I turned 14.

Would this be it?

Death is something I always think about, sometimes it seems like a preoccupation. When I am happy, not as much, but if I become the least bit unbalanced, its like walking a tightrope...

It does seem the older I get the more soothing it COULD seem, like the rest at the end of a long journey.

I am terrified at the idea of a violent/painful/sudden death. I get very imaginative about these things, I know alot of friends who have died young and unhappily. I dont like that I spend alot of time pondering this and it's a constant struggle not to think too much about it.
It is getting better, though.

I also have alot of body weirdness/ sensitivity. Like i all of a sudden feel freaked out to be in my skin, it feels unfamiliar and awkward. I look at my hands and it seems strange to have them. I remember the first time I had that feeling I was around 5 and in the bathtub.

posted May 01, 2008 03:38 PM         

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posted May 01, 2008 10:15 PM         

I feel this limitation the more I grow but I felt it at an early age, yes.