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Topic: Out of synch
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Deliverance Knowflake Posts: 440 From: Bolloxville, Nutbush Registered: Mar 2005
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posted May 25, 2008 12:16 PM
Hi,I'm going through as a desire to opt out of life. I dont see the point or purpose in having to participate. I'm not depressed or suicidal or anything like that, just irritated that I’m expected to be sociable or talk to people, it feels like such an imposition. I know people don’t mean any harm & are being nice, but I feel irritated all the same – something that I sence is irrational... I cant relate to anyone. I just feel out of synch. not sure if this makes sence? I feel alive when I'm dreaming or meditating. This has been going on off on for a long time. But the move from extroversion to introversion has been since 1997 & but has spiraled in the last couple of years. When I'm with people, I feel like I’m watching a movie, observing...I feel jarred & irritated when people try to involve me. I dont mind being around people so long as I dont have to engage with them. My concern is that my family are getting worried. I used to have loads of friends, most of them have gone because I haven’t made an effort to maintain contact, to be honest I dont care as it takes the pressure off having to talk, go round for dinner, laugh at unfunny jokes ect, things I find jarring. i'd rather stay at home & read a book. I enjoy talking to people in the educational environment, if there's a project to complete or if we’re discussing something tangible & I love helping people. Most of my jobs have been advisory based. Is there anything in my chart that point to why this is happening? Is this a permanent or temporary way of being? Deli x IP: Logged |
Deliverance Knowflake Posts: 440 From: Bolloxville, Nutbush Registered: Mar 2005
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posted May 26, 2008 11:02 AM
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Lana29865 Knowflake Posts: 441 From: Registered: Mar 2007
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posted May 27, 2008 12:41 AM
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jane Knowflake Posts: 2000 From: Registered: Nov 2006
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posted May 27, 2008 01:31 AM
The first thing I noticed is that you have t.Uranus conj your n.Moon. Natally I have an exact Moon-Uranus square, so I regularly feel that way too. Most of the time I feel social. When those withdrawn moods hit though, socializing is drudgery. It feels like a facade to make other people happy, when there are other solo activities that beckon me like sirens. For you, since it's a transit, it could just be a temporary thing. However, natally you do have a minor hard Moon-Uranus aspect (I think that aspect is called a sesisquare). This transit could be exacerbating your natal hard aspect. With your natal aspect, you'll probably always experience emotionally withdrawn moods, as opposed to the more constant emotionally withdrawn disposition this transit is triggering. What you've been dealing with since 1997 is t.Pluto. It's been hitting significant parts of you chart, starting with your AC, then Neptune (ruler of your IC--lunar energy), Mars (ruler of your 5th--solar energy), and is nearing your Sun. I had some big Pluto transits within the last 7 years. I don't remember being less desirous of connecting emotionally during those times. If anything, I was more. But I did avoid superficial socializing even more so than I normally do, particularly when t.Pluto was conj my Sun. I'd find staying home, squashing some bugs, and contemplating the existence of an eternal soul quite appealing. Why go out? But I didn't neglect the relationships important to me in order to do this. That part of what you're going through sounds more like the work of Uranus than Pluto. What Pluto may have done & still be doing is show you that those relationships didn't really jive with who you are. Pluto uncluttered your social life so that you can make room for people who you will have meaningful relationships with. Once t.Uranus leaves your Moon alone, you'll probably feel the desire to form and maintain those relationships. IP: Logged |
Seeing Stars 7.21 Knowflake Posts: 1301 From: New York Registered: Dec 2006
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posted May 27, 2008 03:22 AM
My dear you are going through some evolution or perhaps revolution, Your Revolution!. Welcome it! Celebrate your liberation from the phonies and the normal everyday typical social behavior! ------------------ Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think every thing you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned.
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PeaceAngel Knowflake Posts: 6677 From: Australia Registered: May 2008
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posted May 27, 2008 04:47 AM
i think you are going through a major transformation and are on a course of finding yourself and your truth.i think that you are seeking your life purpose and are feeling unfilfilled without that. i think that is why you have withdrawn - to discern yourself and your feelings from those of others and to find yourself. when you are ready you can then emerge into the world in the full knowledge of who you are and all that you have to offer. if you are reading - are you reading in order to find yourself and understand your world? use your chart and start with that - find as many astro resources as you can and see what insights they have to offer you about yourself. the rest of it is in your heart and you will know what to do. i don't know if you believe in angels or guides but you can ask for help from your personal resources to guide you. IP: Logged |
jane Knowflake Posts: 2000 From: Registered: Nov 2006
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posted May 27, 2008 08:24 AM
Tyler! Fancy meeting you here. I had no idea you were into astrology.IP: Logged | |