posted June 11, 2008 05:14 AM
Your chart has expired. Any chance you can put it up in a post? If you want my gut instinct response (and I did look briefly at your chart before it expired) I think you should explore the potential of your calling, at least explore its practicalities. But it isn't for me to say whether or not you should do something. However, I think it reasonable to point out that working with other people in a healing aspect is a great responsibility and should be approached with care.
It is no doubt unhelpful of me to suggest that your very doubts are an expression of your Grand Cross.
"The individual who has the this block of planets in their natal chart has the potential of feeling blocked, directionless and pulled in many directions. The Cross has a tendacy to bring the energy of indecisiveness."
http://www.indigoray.net/grandcross.html
The above page explores the Cardinal Grand Cross further down the page.
If my memory serves me well, your Sun is in Libra Square the Moon in Cancer, the Sun and Moon being two of the points of the cross.
"What people who were born with Sun square Moon in their natal charts want and what they need are in conflict." CafeAstrology.
http://www.cafeastrology.com/natal/sunsquaremoon.html
On your chart the Libran Sun forms an opposition with Mars, powerful in its own sign of Aries. The Sun Opposite Mars is a dynamic aspect, suggesting much energy but also temper. It can also be impulsive. So again I'd say explore your options carefully.
This opposition is crossed by the Moon powerful in its own sign of Cancer, opposing Neptune, a little uncomfortable in the sign of Capricorn. This aspect is one of someone able to tap into the emotions of others. But there is the potential trap of delusion:
"The Neptune opp Moon people reflect deeply on their feelings and intuitions, feeling that they are getting a great handle on them. Unfortunately, the handle that Neptune provides is slippery and the result is often delusional in nature, which sends these folks back into further contemplation and so forth."
http://astrosage.blogspot.com/2006/10/moon-opposite-neptune.html
Neptune is Square Mars, an aspect you will see discussed every now and then on Lindaland. It gets associated with deception and lack of reality. But there is more to it than that, so you might want to read up on it and feel how it fits in with your inner being. Also, like any aspect, you can learn to use it in a positive way.
"The square aspect can pose a variety of inner tensions and compulsions that are difficult to acknowledge and integrate properly". AstrologyWeekly
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/astrological-aspects/mars-square-neptune.php
All these testing aspects are forcing you to work with them into making positive achievement. It is possible. The Grand Cross is a dynamic configuration. As you suggest it is not a walk in the park, but it does not deny you success. Nobel Prize winner Albert Schweitzer is just one example of a famous and successful person with a Grand Cross on his chart:
http://www.astrotheme.fr/en/portraits/eNm95qrd29r6.htm
If I recall your M.C is Libra, but I don't remember if your Venus is in the 8th or 9th house. If you could put up your details again that would be helpful.
I haven't mentioned Chiron, either. I couldn't remember where he was ~ I think you say he was Conjunct the Moon.