posted June 19, 2008 05:01 AM         

Firstly, when Pluto was approaching my ascendant all I felt was pressure. When the Jupiter-Pluto conjunction happened, the pressure was off and I felt really good. Now there is still no pressure, but it's something else... it's like I'm making changes all of a sudden and they're coming more easily than before. Like it's a natural thing... an easier 'letting go' of things that are not serving me. Admittedly a lot of this is psychological rather than something that's translating into action at this point.

Examples:
* What I've subconsciously known all along, but what is now for some reason a clear realisation... is that I NEED a different job. This one really isn't satisfying to me on any level whatsoever. I am beginning to look for a new job but the problem is that it *must*, ABSOLUTELY, provide me with at least the same amount of income. I've been told recently that I should just quit and not care about the money - but that's easier said than done while I have a pretty big debt to pay off. But I'm feeling more like there is a job out there for me that will provide more money AND be more satisfying, so that's a start. In all honesty I would love to quit and just go back to studying for a while, but like I said that's an impossibility while my financial needs are so BIG.
* I've realised that the way I am in relationships does not really serve my best interests either. And it's not that there's anything inherently wrong with what I do or don't do in these relationships - most people actually say that I'm pretty much the perfect girlfriend - but it just doesn't necessarily fit with my particular karmic challenges, those posed by Saturn in the 7th house. So I need to make changes to myself that are going to serve me better when it comes to these particular challenges. Like I said, there's nothing inherently "wrong" with me, it's just something that I need to adapt to and work with - within *any* relationship, so it seems. (I've checked out previous relationship charts as well as "potential" hypothetical ones, and Saturn just... always seems to be there whether I like it or not).
* My health. Suddenly it's all coming to me much more easily, right down to it not being an effort to make better lifestyle and food choices. I've done it before and have always known how to, I just don't really feel as though I've been in top form regarding these things for the past year or so.