posted August 16, 2008 02:20 PM         

I realized just now, that a fullmoon on the Aquarius-Leo-axis makes me feel well, quite amorous, I would call it, along with the feeling that there is some "magical electricity" in the air.
But today I`m feeling it even more strongly than usually; I actually only recall one other time that this "electrical surge" (with no reason at all) felt as strong, and that was 2 years ago.

So I went to astro.com and erected the chart for that date, and the fullmoon back t hen was on 24°20 Aquarius / Leo, only 1 minute away from today`s ecclipse (just then it was Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Leo). I guess this weird feeling must have something to do with that particular placement in Aquarius / Leo.

Interestingly it doesn`t hit all that much in my natal chart. It is "only" exactly conjunct / opposite my Psyche and mean Lilith. (it`s also trine / sextile my Sun and Mercury).

posted August 18, 2008 12:38 PM         

Actually I had the feeling that it was that fullmoon two years ago that led me to where I am now. IT was then that I became painfully aware of HOW homesick I felt and that I yearned to go somewhere, that I wasn`T where I was supposed to be, at least not completely, but that there was somewhere I was meant to go (even if it is just a step of the way), and I yearned so much to go home. And I then realized that this "home" had to do with the musicaltheatre and that I needed to get into touch with it again, especially the German musical-circus.
And on that night I realized that very clearly.
And then a few days after that my friend called me to say we would be going onto an open air concert. I didn`t even really want to go there, something made me a bit nervous about it. And she went and bought the tickets herself and dragged me along. And she doesn`T even LIKE musicals.
And well, it was the concert I saw him for the first time.

And now that ecclipse on saturday, like a bracket to that day 2 years ago (no it was not the fullmoon shortly before the open air concert, but it was the one before my "epiphany"). Strangely enough, this ecclipse is conjunct his Draco Venus. lol

It also fell exactly onto our Psyche-Vertex-opposition in the composite, from 7th to 1st composite-house.
Ì`m not judging, I am only observing and collecting information, true to my Gemini SN.

Also there are quite a few people who have something on those degrees in Leo or Aquarius (Jude Law`s Draco ASC and Venus fall onto 22° and 26° Aquarius for example).

But it was interesting I thought. These tight connections, along with my strange emotions, which were actually there before I looked into the chart.

posted August 18, 2008 02:13 PM         

What I had expected was ... heart-break! What I got was ... an exciting flirt and some butterflies in my stomach!

The intriguing thing with that eclipse was this: It occured right on the birthday (!) of my ex-boyfriend! He has his natal Sun on 24° Leo - so right at the eclipse-degree. Furthermore, as a Leo, the Sun is "his" planet.

Whereas I am a Cancer - and Moon was overshadowed by the Sun at the eclipse - that's why I though that I'd probably experience some re-enforced "heartbreak"-feeling that night ...

THE OPPOSITE WAS TRUE!!!

I had made a date with am man whom I haven't met in person before - I only had E-Mail-contact to him - and I had made a date with him on that eclipse-night ... because I wanted to distract myself a bit, and did NOT want to be in the same town as my ex-BF during the night before his birthday (when he probably had a party, as I assumed.)

And then ... meeting that other guy for the first time ... I surprisingly experienced a most exciting date!!! It overrun all my expectations. I mean: I knew that the man I was about to meet for the first time would be kind of "nice". But ... I felt MUCH MORE then.

The thing is ... now, two days after that date ... I grew a bit unsure about my feelings for this new guy. Maybe the eclipse did enforce my emotions that night?

But what is important now: I really left my ex behind now, completely! Because this was the first time after our nasty break-up 3 months ago, that I felt some attraction for someone else - finally!!! ;-)

posted August 19, 2008 05:40 AM         

I can't access my gmail at all as gmail lost all my emails and contact details so can you re-email that long email you sent me to lara2008@mac.com please?