posted October 22, 2008 11:30 AM         

pluto challenged everything we saggies had. even our hope. and its hope that has kept us going. i hoped that things will be better after jupiter enters sag. a few good things did happen but nothing significant. i hoped when pluto conjucts my natal as well as then transiting jupiter in sag something huge will happen. i didnt notice anything significant. things have been pretty much stalemate. i wanted to be seperated from my parents, live on my own, start earning and have a girl friend. and today i am 25 and nothing such has happened. infact i was counting on the last 2 years i have in engineering only to see my self fail!

now my only hope is pluto's exit out of sag on nov 27. i have been banking on pluto a lot. i have associated my misery to pluto in sag. now if things dont change i dont see my self avoiding a nervous breakdown or worse. sometimes i fear that i dont get a stroke. already i am high on blood sugar, LDL cholesterol and blood pressure.

my struggle against my parent's attitude, behaviour and selfishness hasnt changed them a bit. they saw me breaking down many times, leaving studies on and off for like 6 times, getting back behind my generation by 7 years. and they havent changed a wee bit. they are completely reluctant to accept any responsibility or any role in my defeat as a academic student, a youth or as an individual.

pluto cut though 6 of my major natal planets. sun, moon, jupiter, uranus, neptune and south node all in sagittarius. hopefully one can imagine the kind of mental stress that could be.

in the last few years (age 17 to 25) i became 125 kilos from 75 .
i took up to and left college 5 times and have taken it up again only to fail!
i took on to 3 jobs only to leave it.
my outlook towards life completely changed
i started speaking the language of the defeated, and that too in the tone of a loser.
i had countless fights with my parents, some physical, only to see them become more and more difficult towards me.
i even tried have a conversation with them but each they they talked me out of it.
i felt so terribly vulnerable that sometimes i wanted to cry and the stress was such that i couldn't even cry. i would just remain expressionless.

there had been spells of good mood and stability in between. but my parents, specifically my mom would start her ego dramas each time and things would deteriorate again.

now pluto is going to go bang on my mercury in cap. i dont know how long that would last. its at 0deg 28 mins in cap. i already feel mental unrest. i get angry with things that dont pertain me. like how a local politician rants about north indian's in mumbai or america's war on iraq or about my friend's mom consistently insisting on my friend for arranged marriage. stupid things simply carry me off. i am angry even when i am riding my bike to college or classes! some of u must have noticed how i made a thread against bush in global unity forum. i spoke of how iraq was never america's business not realizing that america's business is not my business!!

i dont want to miss any chance these last 4 weeks has to offer me. i know pluto has two sides (good and bad) just like any other planet. and i dont want to give up as yet. else pluto will give up on me and i will be miserable forever. can someone tell me what i should look for? someone who can see my personal chart and give me some insight.

posted October 22, 2008 12:48 PM         

I just realized something interesting though about the Pluto thing. 13 years it's been in Sagittarius? That's interesting to me because 13 years ago was when I left San Francisco / the Bay Area, an area I really loved, and where I am NOW looking to move back to, in order to kind of start anew with the projects I always wanted to start when I was initially there (I was too young and always wished I was older when I was there, so I would be able to choose what I wanted to do with more confidence).
It's been 13 years of hunting and gathering, studying, and getting more life experience.

Interesting. I wonder if it really does tie in to the Pluto transition into Cappy.

posted October 23, 2008 11:33 AM         

Pluto is on my IC right now and i feel good though, and i know good things are going to happen from this moment onwards. It will oppose all my cancer planets soon.. LOL

I want to think positive, its all over people

****HUGSS****

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Sun.. Cancer

Moon.. Gemini

Mars.. Cancer

Mercury.. Cancer

Venus.. Leo

posted October 23, 2008 12:36 PM         

He's in my 2nd.

It's always about the

posted October 23, 2008 08:15 PM         

deux ~
My nVenus is at 2 Libra -- need I say more??

posted October 23, 2008 09:19 PM         

It started off horribly enough. I was 12 or 13 and it was transiting through my 1st house; needless to say, Jr. High and High school were terrible for me. When I was young, I was shy, introverted and underestimated myself greatly.

However, in the years since then I feel like I've developed a strong sense of self and have really become the person that I want to be. In fact, I'm pretty much the exact opposite of how I used to be: I'm extroverted, fun, and appreciative of my own gifts. So, at the end of the day, while it did create a lot of insecurities, it also helped me transform my personality into something great.

Now it's off into the 2nd house. That one I'm not looking forward to so much, however, I'm glad that it will at least be trining my Venus/MC/Sun and sextiling my Pluto/Saturn going in...

posted October 23, 2008 09:35 PM         

Enchantress, you're a Virgo/Aries moon like me, btw, though I'm Taurus rising

posted October 24, 2008 01:26 AM         

Transiting Pluto is now in conjunction with my Vertex (5th house). It'll be interesting to see the effect it will have in Cappy, as it will suit my Virgo Sun much better.

posted October 24, 2008 06:59 AM         

my friend completed his engineering from mumbai university and was not able to get a job. my neighbor had a small IT firm. he joined his firm and my neighbor exploited him a lot. his first pay check was only Rs.2990/- which is like $60. and this is for the entire month. but he told no one about his pain. he kept on working and learning things until 11 months later he got an offer from another company in pune which offered him a cool Rs.30000 ($600) a month. ever since it has been an upward spiral for him. he worked hard over here, developing software, learning every detail that came along his way. he would work later till 1 am. finally now he works with nokia india. he fetches more than Rs.120000 a month! thats $2400 in a month! he has been abroad 4 times on company expense.

posted October 25, 2008 02:00 AM         

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I can't figure where it's going next for me. Is it the same for all Virgos? Transit shows 9th house in my chart though...have no idea.

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The sign it goes through will be the same for everyone. You have to look at your individual chart to see which house it goes through to see how it will apply to you. The 9th has to do with long distance travel, religion, spirituality, and higher education. Make of that what you will.

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Enchantress, you're a Virgo/Aries moon like me, btw, though I'm Taurus rising

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Then you understand the pain of being a Virgo Sun with an Aries Moon... Which am I supposed to be? Sensible or crazy?