posted November 16, 2008 05:08 PM         

I've been undergoing a tumultuous time in my personal life for some time now. There has been much turmoil in my relationship with a certain Pisces - the term 'soul shock' comes to mind because I'm certain this guy is a Soulmate and is the One for me, but we've had tough times in our relationship owing to him going through a fair bit of confusion - I'd inadverdently hurt him in the past, and while I've tried so hard to make up for it & while he still seems to love me very much, he's not sure if a potential mess is better left alone. I'm afraid that his Saturn Return has shifted him from his Piscean qualities (Sun & Mars), to a stronger focus on the Virgo Moon, a need to be practical, which would be fine if he weren't ignoring his heart altogether. I can recognize the signs because I've been there before. Neither of us is able to move on either - he has never been able to (never once in years), and I know I cannot be with another man, feeling the way I do about him. I'm sure there is some karmic payback involved too - our roles are almost exactly reversed now to what they were a few years ago (when I was reluctant to get involved with him despite his strong convictions), so this and the fact that I am somehow finding I have miraculous amounts of patience & forbearance with him, have been keeping me going for a long time.

I run out of steam sometimes though, and I'm at a critical juncture in my life where I'm about to finish grad school, and the company I'm currently employed at is in a precarious financial situation, so I'm looking for jobs, which could necessitate a move away from my beloved - this is the last thing I want to do, because I feel my life would have little meaning or joy if he weren't in it. Things are thus poised to change dramatically in the next few months. I'm so very worried.. the past 4-5 years have been rough for me, and I don't know if I have the strength to carry on bearing these burdens alone. I can't talk to very many people about this, as I'm afraid I might start crying and not be able to stop.

I was hoping a fresh pair or pairs of knowflake eyes might be able to look at the charts below, and tell me if the tough times are likely to come to an end soon.. More than anything, I would like to be able to know if anything in my chart alludes to a serious relationship coming up for me soon.. (I'm hoping it will be with this Pisces, of course) My gut feeling for a long time has been that he & I are meant to be together, to be married someday & have a family of our own together, but there are times when I'm clouded with doubt and worry. I'm getting older, with my biological clock ticking louder, and delays have me worried.. Horary charts seem to predict we will be together, but I have no way of figuring out the timing.

Your help is so appreciated, dear ones,
Sunshine

posted November 17, 2008 03:08 AM         

How did you feel last week with the Full Moon? Because that landed itself right across that point making the whole thing into T-Square. I've also got a planet at 21* Taurus so if I say I have an idea how your feel, I really do know. It wasn't a great week.

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clouded with doubt and worry

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O.K I read that back, that fits with Neptune, don't you think?

Good news, the Full Moon influence is waning now. By the time we are into the New Year, Neptune's influence will also be slipping away. So things will feel better.

Another thing we share on the chart is a Virgo M.C. Right now Saturn is working its way through the 10th house. That really doesn't help matters, does it? Do you feel like your career is in slow-motion? What can we do, there is a recession, budgets are tight. I just plan on getting on with the work I have to do, and angling myself for that promotion my wallet and I are after.

Uranus is the planet that holds the key to your relationship question. Right now it is retrograde at 18* Pisces. Out of orb with your Venus at 14*. I don't have my ephemeris handy, if I find it I'll post back later. But in essence I am thinking that Uranus riding over your natal Venus is significant here, you might not like the reputation Venus/Uranus aspects have but that is one of powerful attractions that somehow aren't long-lasting. Natally you have Venus Square Neptune, so Uranus triggering that off probably brought out some of the less realistic side of your Venusian nature. It might be worth going on Astro and checking out the movements of Uranus over this point, looking back and forwards to see how it fits in with the way things have panned out. Just as some guidance, I'm not saying it is the answer.

Bee has a Natal T-Square with the Moon/Sun/Neptune. Uranus and Saturn are triggering this off right now. I'd say he is at the start of a painful soul-searching period of his life. The Moon rules his DESC so maybe relationships will come into it. But I doubt that is going to be everything to do with it.