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Topic: i think i'm too selfish...
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kaira
Knowflake Posts: 218
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Registered: Sep 2006
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posted November 18, 2008 12:18 PM
 
and i don't know why?i've noticed that i don't really want to talk to people unless there's something in it for me, or i wouldn't talk to anyone in general first, unless they speak to me, in which i'd talk freely. but it's weird, 'cause i really crave forming relationships, and being more friendly and sociable, but i can't get myself to be in any situation. i'm very reserved, and the people that i find amusing or likeable, i don't go up to talk to them either, i just basically view them from a distance and admire them, lol...
but i don't know what to do... i don't want to be selfish that way, i want to be sociable and interested in people, but it's hard for me to be interested in people unless there's just something about them i really want or like about them. and even then i still don't talk to them.
like right now i'm thinking, what if i'm just posting this here for my own benefit, and i'm talking this openly because i'm selfish. =( i really hate being like this....
i think it's my Aries ascendent that is the cause, but i don't know, maybe it's my venus in Scorpio, or all my squares from my inner planets to my outer? i'm so sick of being so worried and concerened about how i am... will it ever stop? IP: Logged |
marsconjunctmercury
Knowflake Posts: 956
From: Isle of Wight U.K
Registered: Dec 2005
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posted November 18, 2008 12:21 PM
You're a human. Get used to it.
At least you're honest about how lame you are which i personally find refreshing.------------------
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amowls
Knowflake Posts: 866
From: Richmond, VA USA
Registered: Dec 2007
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posted November 18, 2008 12:42 PM
It's okay. I have a hard time talking to people I don't know, unless they talk to me first. Or unless I'm drunk.If I'm sober, I find I start spacing out when they're talking, as if I don't really care about what they have to say. =/ I have Saturn conjunct my DSC, Venus square Saturn. IP: Logged |
kaira
Knowflake Posts: 218
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Registered: Sep 2006
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posted November 18, 2008 02:09 PM
haha, i'm lame  my Leo moon was like WHAT DID YOU SAY? but i'm over it now  and amowls, that's exactly like me... although i don't drink alot, but i do tend to space out. only people who don't judge me for what i say and do can i really begin to be interested in them. mainly Pisceans, since i fall in love with them all the time because of this, lol. IP: Logged |
kaira
Knowflake Posts: 218
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Registered: Sep 2006
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posted November 20, 2008 05:42 PM
what could i do to improve myself? IP: Logged |
AcousticGod
Knowflake Posts: 13873
From: CA, USA
Registered: May 2005
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posted November 20, 2008 06:03 PM
Get a clear vision in your head of what you'd like to be, and think on it long enough that it takes hold and starts to shape your choices.IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 9145
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted November 20, 2008 06:08 PM
Good answer, AG.  IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross
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From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted November 20, 2008 06:13 PM
kaira,I think its good that you think about these things. Most people are this way, but they dont examine their motivations. Please, stay honest with yourself, even if it stings sometimes. It may be time to take a chance and try to talk to the ones who interest you? You dont have to dazzle them; you can win them over just by taking an interest. Hey, it works for Pisces. 
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