posted May 03, 2008 11:04 PM
Hi Uk luv,Sorry to hear you've been suffering.
I assure you that those sunny traits are there, waiting to come out. It is a matter of unblocking this pain you have built up in your heart.
Leo rules the heart, the heart is the shining center of the chakra system. Your problem is there, in your heart.
I pulled a couple tarot cards for you:
1.Queen of pentacles
2.Queen of cups
3.The star
The domination of court cards in this readings indicates to me that you are focused on the outer in your search for happiness. First and foremost, happiness comes from within. The queen of pentacles indicates you must learn to nurture yourself, only with self care will your block begin to fade. Another way to tap into the queens energy is to serve others. One of the easiest paths to become a happy person is to become an altruistic person. Volunteer. Caring for others is caring for yourself.
Men will not bring you happiness.
I will repeat this again
Men will not bring you happiness. You must light your own leonine fire, then the men will be drawn to your unconditional love. we see this unconditional love with the queen of cups. The queen of cups is also connected to the spiritual, have you explored spirituality?
The union of the two queens here is very powerful, together they form a strongly yin, or inward focused energy which encourages and demands connecting deeper. Your search outside has gone long enough. Now you must search inside.
Finally the star, probably the most positive card in the deck, indicates hope and inspiration, so I hope that the stars energy does find you. It is a bit blocked by the watery negative quality of the queen of cups, but I believe the star shines in any reading. I might interpret this as hope, which is always logical to have, being obscured by your strong emotions of frustration and pain.
The star again encourages being generous. So between the three we have you bending over backwards to help others (earth), giving unconditional love to others (water), and being generous to all kinds of people (air). The best way to get your heart chakra moving is volunteer work. Do it.