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leighby
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From: suffolk, United Kingdom
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posted May 31, 2008 05:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for leighby     Edit/Delete Message
Hello

Im hoping someone can help me with a reading, as my life has just collapsed around me.

Ive been engaged for 4 and half yrs and with my fiance for nearly 5 years. 4 weeks ago today I found some pics of a girl on my laptop that he had downloaded off the internet. This girl has been after him for 2 years, and I hate her a lot. But he has always said he is not interested in her.

He working is a pub and was working the night i found the pics, when he came home from work i said why have you put her pic on my computer, and he wouldnt talk about it. After 2 hours of me freaking out he said when he was drunk a few days before he had kissed her. I was so angry I told him to leave. If he had kissed anyone else, I would have been cross, but this girl is so vile and caused so much trouble between us before.

He left but had nowhere to go so came back, after a few days i realised I still really loved him and wanted to give it another go, at this point he said he needed to think about it as he was confused. So for the last few weeks he has been back and then goes again, sleeping on friends sofas, and I think staying with this girl as well, says he loves me, then says he doesnt want to live with me, its such a mess.

He said that this girl has said she loves him, but i dont believe that.

I need to know what the rest of the year looks like for me, is there any chance of a reconciliation or do i need to get my head together? Also I want to move away, can anyone tell me if this is likely to happen this year, as I feel a fresh start might be the only way forward.

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Liza Mahala Appleton 8th april 1972 colchester essex uk @ 18:30gmt

gary Edwards 7th january 1983 ipswich suffolk uk @ 14:15 gmt

Allison i think her details are 20th january 1988 ipswich as well

If anyone can help me at all I would be terribly grateful, Im struggling to get through each day, its awful when I wanted to get married and now its all gone.

Blessings to you all


Love Liza

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Geocosmic Valentine
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posted June 03, 2008 03:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Geocosmic Valentine     Edit/Delete Message
Hi Leighby (Liza),

I'm going to take a look at your chart and a light comparison to his chart. I'll need a little time. It might be today, it might be a few days, but I just wanted to let you know that I saw this and I'm sorry this is happening to you.

In the meantime, even without looking at the charts it sounds like you are making some common sense decisions. One doesn't always need to look at a chart to understand that you're being deceived, even if he's confused about the deception. Would your decision to move change if things were settled between you both? That's something to think about as well.

Please hang in there and take good care of yourself, keep watching this thread for my response and I want to remind others here that they can also chime in as well.

Geocosmic Valentine
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leighby
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From: suffolk, United Kingdom
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posted June 04, 2008 02:12 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for leighby     Edit/Delete Message
Dear Geocosmic Valentine

Thank you so much for your reply, this is the hardest thing that has ever happened to me, Ive never lived with or been engaged before, and Im 36!!!

I have been so ill and stressed I have lost the ability to sleep at night, I miss him being here and I dont know what to do!

I have since found out that her birthday is the 26th of jan 1988 and she is full on telling him she loves him and wants him and making digs at me as well.

Im am so heartbroken, he keeps coming round, he had to pay part of my rent on monday that he owed, so he brought the receipt round. I broke down in tears again and he cried as well until he threw up. He cuddled me and kissed me and held my hands, and I said if you are with her you need to tell me, cause Ive figured out what this is, gary falls in love very quickly, it was love at first sight for me and him, and he wants to love and be loved, and as we were going through a bad patch he thought i didnt love him anymore, and this girl who has been waiting in the wings for 2 years swooped in and started telling him she loved him, and now he thinks he loves her! But he says he still loves me, so the mess just grows and grows! I think he has just transfered his feelings for me to her.

He got so upset when i said we couldnt see each other anymore, he said he cannot imagine his life without me.

So what to do? Ive said he can come home and we can work through it, but he hasnt agreed to that, she is winding me up so much that I really want to hurt her, and I know at my age you shouldnt feel like that, but isnt it enough that she has destroyed my relationship without gloating about it?

Im so depressed and finding this message board has made a difference, that there are kind people willing to help others in their hour of need!

Thank you for what you are doing, and anyone else if you can help me, Id really appreciate it.

Love Leigh xxx

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Quinnie
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posted June 04, 2008 08:02 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Quinnie     Edit/Delete Message
Hi Leigh I'm sending you out some love please stay rested and calm and don't allow the situation to take your centre. Take back your power girl.
Gary needs time and space and so do you.
This is such a difficult time for you. Come to this forum and take comfort here.

Geo is a fabulous astrologer so you are in good hands. In the meantime I thought I would offer some astrology insights as a student of astrology.

You are going through a Saturn transit thats going to be accessing your natal Saturn, Venus and Mars for around the next year you will feel it's influence strongly but the after effects will be inspiring as this is all in your 9th house of further education, international travel and broadening your horizons. Geo will be able to confirm things for you but I do think that a change of residence is on the cards and will be good for you. Your 4th house (home) ruler is Saturn and is now being activated by transiting Saturn which brings demands and burdens but also a re-organisation of your home life, emotional security and roots. In the 9th house Saturn is challenging your beliefs about what makes you happy and fulfilled sometimes Saturn will do this in a not so senmsitive way perhaps FORCING you to look at and cast off things in your life in order to move to hte next stage in your life.

At a soul level there is soul testing which will lead to a greter sense of security and awareness. There is opportunity for your soul to evolve you on and so sometimes this means having to endure a test period (trial seperation) or letting go (breaking up). The key to his is to remain centred and start focusing inward on what you wish to achieve in your life and looking at what your life offers you now... Are the things in your life hindering you or aiding you in geting what you want and achieveing your ambitions. What are they even!
Honey you will be fine.
Take a deep breath and allow your subconscious to take over and TRUST this process. Saturn transits require you to trust the outcome.
The North Node has transited to your natal n node so this is a point in time, in your life where you will evolve and grow.
I coudl see you moving quite a distance if you decided to. Or travelling for a whiel. Your progressed Jupiter is applying to your IC and 4th house. Your soul needs a change whether it be temporary or long term is all part of the plan that you have for yourself, for your life that you can start to evaluate now.
Take your mind off the emotional for now if you can hunny. Allow yourself teh emotional time every day and then switch off. Your Aquarius Moon should give you the ability to do this.

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Geocosmic Valentine
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posted June 06, 2008 03:14 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Geocosmic Valentine     Edit/Delete Message
Dear Leigh,

I want to say that Quinnie did an awesome, marvelous job of picking out some major issues going on in your chart. Save that post immediately. I'm also glad that she started this off because I got so deeply pulled into your chart, I didn't quite know where to begin, that happens sometimes, especially if I can relate to what's happening and boy do I, so let's begin.

Your self-worth is being challenged like it never has been before. You are currently experiencing a phase in life where transiting Pluto squares your natal Pluto. It happens between the ages of 36 and 38, 39. You're in the middle of it. Pluto rules your 2nd house of self-worth and this relationship turmoil is a big part of it, questioning your own personal value and how you allow others to treat you. There may be financial issues going on for you as well since the 2nd house rules your personal finances as well, and you mentioned a little of that in reference to being able to pay your rent, etc. When this Pluto transit is finished at the beginning of December, you will be an entirely different person with a whole new set of resources at your disposal. This doesn't mean you will be miserable until December, it means that you will have emerged from this experience like a highly polished stone that was put through the stone tumbler, with what looks like "Super Hero" strength and gleaming white teeth. I may be exagerating a little but not much as I went through it 5 years ago myself so you have my complete sympathy and support and we're all rooting for you.

I want to say that Gary's action of leaving pictures of another woman on your computer was a mentally brutal and cruel act. I want to say that you may have dodged a bullet by having this relationship break apart before you married someone who chooses to communicate his hurt and anger in such a way, sometimes the Universe does for us what we cannot do for ourselves, but that's getting ahead of myself.

Your chart suggests that the troubles this time around began around November making things somewhat tough around Christmas time and then here comes January through March. These seem to be the time periods where your health is giving you problems, your relationship is giving you major problems as well. There is another round of this coming up but there is a different nature about it. This time you are going to be prepared with plans. You have already mentioned some individual desires that you have in you head now, and those desires have nothing to do with Gary which is a welcome change and shows that you've learned already through these major hard times that have hit you. Although Saturn is a hard task master, he will REWARD you when you implement plans and time schedules and set up structures. Oh my God, how he loves organization. This 3rd Saturn sweep begins on June 19th of this year with transiting Saturn squaring your natal Saturn for the 3rd and final time. That transit will focus on home and nurturing. Then Saturn will square your Venus on July 3rd. The possible translation of that is more health issues, whether strengthening yourself of just having another episode of whatever the issue is. Venus rules your 8th house of other people's worth, sexuality, death and taxes. It can also be considered the end of things. However it pans out, I'm thinking that you will put the final clamp on the relationship. You may cut off financial assistance to someone or just some kind of restructuring of finances, but you close the iron gate to sex or issues of that nature. This is not a guarantee without a conversation with you, it's just possibilities.

On August 4th, Saturn will square your natal Mars. Mars rules your 7th house of relationships. If the end didn't happen on July 3rd, this will end it. There may be some harsh arguing in reference to it also, but you are fully in control. You may feel controlled in the process, as if you have hit a brick wall, but if you know NOW that Saturn will be giving you permission to be the one in control, definitely take advantage of it.

Some key words for Saturn are cold, hard, rules, father figure, rules, teacher, trust, discipline, time, boundaries, NO, RESPECT!! In reference to your relationship issues Saturn is saying it is time for you to lay down the rules of what it means to be in a relationship with you. As an Aries woman, especially one who has the Sun in the 7th house of relationships, you require MAFIA-LIKE RESPECT when it comes to relationships. I know this because I'm an Aries and my Sun isn't in the 7th house, but I pity the fool who crosses me. Even if there are other women milling around, the Aries woman must always be treated as NUMBER 1. No if's and's or but's about it!!

But once again, I bring the focus back to you. You also have your Moon in Aquarius which suggests that you have a deep reigning need to be socially significant, unique and humanitarian. Being an Aries, you will only accept being number 1, so there will be no other women in the relationship and being socially significant means that you are the special one. When these needs aren't met for you, it is all for naught, there is no relationship. Without trust, there is no relationship. Without being able to feel that you will not be rejected for being yourself, there can be no relationship. THESE ARE NON-NEGOTIABLE FOR YOU! Even if you try to allow this temporarily, you won't tolerate it for long.

I don't want to forget to mention that job issues may up front and center as well for you at this time. Cooperation with co-workers or employers may be aggravating at this time as well. If that is an issue now, it may come to a head on July 3rd, but then that simmers down right afterward.

There are some reward times coming for you in regard to transiting Jupiter squaring your Sun. On June 27th, there is a high probability of reward for you. Since your Sun rules your 11th house of love received, hopes, dreams and wishes, something along those lines may come into your life. I won't mince words, it could be Gary poking his head back into your life in a positive way, or someone else since the 11th house is a house of receiving love, but it could be someone else or something else.

November 14th, Jupiter comes back to your Sun again, more very high probability of reward coming your way. I like that it occurs so close to the end of the Pluto square Pluto transit. Please, please, please have some plans in the works for yourself. When Jupiter contacts your Sun by conjunction, it only happens once every 12 years, but the square and opposition cycle happens every 3 years, so take advantage of this time, it won't be this grand again until the big Grandpa of reward happens 3 years from now. That will be your Jupiter conjunct Sun.

Last, I want to say that Saturn transits never feel good, Saturn is cold and hard and he's demanding, he's a business man, powerful, plain and simple and he can be a downer, bringing with him mundane feelings and some depression, but after he's finished with you, you find yourself standing up straight with your buttons polished, your shoes polished and your uniform straightened out. As the nun who hits you on the knuckles with the ruler, Saturn is a major bummer, but when she's finished, you find that you've got some kick-ass skills because of her. You straighten up and fly right and that's the reward that Saturn brings, and most of all, Saturn is teaching you to respect yourself. Your chart shows that you give so much, to the point of leaving yourself behind. You nurture a lot and there's nothing wrong with it, it's just that you must now allow yourself to be nurtured properly in return and even though it's hard for you, it's time to learn to love yourself deeply, above anyone one else on this planet.

Please let Quinnie and me know if we have hit any of these issues correctly that's all we ask in return for this reading and also that you make sure that everyone treats Leigh, Liza, Leighby with Mafia-like respect.

Take good care sweetie, you can do this.

Geocosmic Valentine
Professional Astrologer
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leighby
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posted June 06, 2008 03:54 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for leighby     Edit/Delete Message
OMG all I can say is wow wow wow!!!

You have both written incredible insights into my life relationship and how I feel about me and my life.

The whole situation Im living at the moment is oppressive, but I have to believe there is somthing at the other end of the tunnel, which isnt the express train!

I guess having a relationship with a younger man is always going to cause problems, Gary sometimes seems younger now than he did 4 years ago, or maybe Im just older and wiser!

I do want to be the only woman in his life and I wont settle or be a mistress or share a guy. Im selfish and when you share a guy you never get the "important days" birthdays, easter, bank holidays christmas, Ive had several opportunites to have affairs and be a mistress, but I dont believe in it.

I want to reconcile with Gary and try and work through it, but your right, it has to be on my terms not his. The status quo has to change if we are going to work again.

Both of you have pinpointed points that are important to me, the moving away, I keep having this dream im buying a house, but that doesnt seem possible at the moment as Im unable to work because I have acute sciatica and my diabetes is bad. So how is this possible? they have said it might be a year before im well enough to work again, in some ways not working right now has been a bonus, as i cannot sleep and am climbing the walls at night without him here.

I dreamt about gary before i met him, and I do think we had love at first sight it was amazing, the best relationship Ive ever had. And yes the problems started around nov/dec we had lots of problems and I tried to talk to him, but he did the typical male thing, stomped off to his cave and didnt want to talk.

I thought we were going through a bad patch, Ive never had a relationship last this long and ive never lived with anyone, so I assumed that when you have a bad patch you work through it and come out stronger the other side!

The irony in all of this, is since we have been apart we have talked more and resolved a lot of the issues, whether he comes back i dont know, but I cannot allow his friendship with this girl to continue.

I always seem to have such hard lessons to learn in life, and im very sensitive and easily upset, so I guess the going through the process of learning from lessons is something I'll never complete!

Thank you for all your words of wisdom and support, it means alot that people are prepared to share their gifts and help a stranger who is suffering a bad time. I am determined not to let this beat me, but its a struggle to get through each day.

I have saved both your posts to my computer, so I have something to reassure me when Im feeling down that this is just a season in my life and it wont last forever.

Im hopeful that I'll start to recover and feel better and stronger soon and that what is my destiny is on its way to me right now!!!

Again thank you both Geocosmic Valentine and Quinnie you are so on the money it has scared me!!!

If there is anything else either of you can tell me, Id love to hear it!!!!

love Leigh xxxx

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Geocosmic Valentine
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posted June 06, 2008 07:59 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Geocosmic Valentine     Edit/Delete Message
Hello Leigh,

I'm so glad that you are receiving some of the insight that you need to build a positive future for yourself. There is one thing that I wanted to touch upon and I forgot.

This other woman he is involved with is a 20 year old new to the world of relationships. My suggestion is to stop putting the blame on her and place it where it belongs, on him. He is an adult man who is conciously making choices. Whether it's her or some other woman or man or friend or whatever, she is causing nothing. This is a relationship between you and him. She has no magic powers over him.

I just needed to say that because no one just steps into your life or your relationship without one of you inviting them in somehow. He is not out of control. It's up to him to honor and respect his relationship. You need to release her as the person who has caused your troubles.

My highest thought is to release her, and should he mention her, remind him that any woman he is dealing with is none of your business, no matter who it is.

Have a blessed weekend and look out for yourself, for number 1. Your health depends on it.

Geocosmic Valentine

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Quinnie
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posted June 07, 2008 03:38 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Quinnie     Edit/Delete Message
leighby Hi.
Thanks for your feedback. I agree with Geo about the other girl. Let nature take it's course. Wish you well

Geo thanks for your positive commenting. It means alot as I admire your skills as a counsellor/astrologer.
Regards

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leighby
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posted June 12, 2008 12:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for leighby     Edit/Delete Message
Hey

just a little update on the gary and leigh situation. Ive not seen him for a week, which is really odd, but as each day passes I feel a little stronger, and Ive not been contacting him.

After 2 days of no contact at all he sent me a text saying he missed me, then he started sending 10 or so texts a day

Which was fine until he mentioned her in one of them, so i finally made a decision and he is coming round tommorrow to be told once and for all to take his stuff, give me my keys back and I dont want any contact at all!

I finally figured it out, I dont want him texting me whilst he is with her, he made a choice to be with her and shouldnt be messaging me behind her back.

Also i dont want to be friends with him, I was the no 1 in his life for nearly 5 years and I dont want to play second fiddle to this rediculous relationship he has not got himself in.

Its really hard, but it seems like the best solution.

He has made his bed, he made his choice, and he cannot have us both, no way!

So thank you all for giving me the strength to do this! I am hoping that it all turns out okay in the end!

Lots of love


Leigh xxx

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Quinnie
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posted June 12, 2008 06:31 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Quinnie     Edit/Delete Message
Proud of you! Well done and stay strong!

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leighby
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posted August 06, 2008 06:11 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for leighby     Edit/Delete Message
Hello all,

I haven't updated the Leigh and Gary situation for a while and I thought that I should.

I really believe that we are over for good now, he has officially moved in with this other girl and seems quite certain that this is what he wants out of his life.

We are still on speaking terms, but not so much and I feel much better about it all, its beginning to hurt less and less and that is better for me.

I am hoping that someone will be able to give me some insight into something else that has happened.

My ex from several years ago has made a reappearance in my life. We have seen each other a few times over the last 6 years, the odd email and text but nothing major.

I did at the time think he was the guy I would end up with, but for one reason or another it never has.

Can anyone tell me if his reappearance is significant to my future?


His details are as follows


Jason born 17th july 1971 2pm GMT in Greenwich london


Id love to hear any thoughts on this situation.

Much love

Leigh

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pilipinasblitz
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posted August 26, 2008 02:32 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for pilipinasblitz     Edit/Delete Message
hi there, leighby!

first of all, thank you for your email and your compliments on my reading for LTT. I do what i can.

now here are the results of the 3-card tarot spread i did for you commencing at 10:52 am PDT of 8/26/08: ff. are the cards i turned up: the Ace of Swords, the Wheel of Fortune, and the VII of Wands.

now suppose you had posed a question to me: "is my life going to improve soon?" the short answer is a resounding YES, my dear leighby! so please cheer up and muster the energy to get up and get going again!

the 1st card is the Ace of Swords, meaning that your GOOD LUCK (Ace= always a lucky card to turn up in any reading!) will depend on ACTION. (Swords=Fire element=action!) so please do take proactive action, liza, to get your life back on track again. the future is now, and it all depends on the actions you take, my dear.

the 2nd card turned up is the Wheel of Fortune. now this card could either be (+) or (-) but since we Aries are the eternal optimists of the zodiac (yes, I'm an Aries, too, my dear), let's just take for granted that YOUR wheel of fortune, dear Liza, is on the upswing nowadays. just simply claim it! remember, it will be done to you as you believe!

then the 3rd card turned up is the VII of wands. the visual is that of a young man riding a steed and carrying a wand topped with a wreath of boughs. i call this card the "marching towards victory" card. and that's what you'll be doing soon, liza! ain't that good news or what?!?!

now here are the results of the "spiritual Rx" reading i did for you which consists of a Golden Angel card, a Silver Angel card, and a Key card:

the name of your Golden Angel is RUHIEL and his message to you is this: Winds of change are blowing." (You see? )

the name of your Silver Angel is HAGITH and his message to you is this: "Learn the secret power of metals."

Your Key card says this: "The Key is to focus firmly on the present."

*****THIS ENDS THE READING.*****

mabuhay, namaste, and blessed be!!!


from your friendly astrologer/tarotist,
pilipinasblitz

http://pilipinasblitzforever.blogspot.com

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