posted June 07, 2008 08:09 PM         

I am going through a lot right now. I posted some over in the looking glass about the tarot reading. Now, I'm just looking for any insight or help.

As far as Tarot I got the nine of swords upright a couple days ago for the 0-3 month period.

my astrology data is 1/5/85 fort worth, texas at 3:45am.

My grandma died last month as well as my best friends mom. My co worker has been looking at child porn and I told my boss and all he did was delete it and give the guy 2 days off work. It was young child porn, not the 16 year old stuff that can be "faked". I saw the video of the 5 year old girl and my heart broke, I stuck ti out there over a month trying to find a new job in between 60+ hour work weeks.

Finally, I just quit.

Here I am back home (went to Texas for best friends moms funeral) no job, no money and the nine of swords proving itself in the reading, with my husband still in prison- but that is nothing new- been that way a while. I'd had the same reading in January and it showed up in the 6-9 month period but was reversed. Now it is up right.

I feel like I finally got my own apartment, things were going ok. And now it's all falling down around me. And, I am questioning if my morals were the right reason to leave myself in such a bad situation. I am questioning what I did wrong and how to fix it. I am questioning me as a person.

I've never meant this as much as I do now. Everything in my life seems to be falling apart and I feel stuck with no way out. If you can tell me anything whether it be advice, tarot stuff, astrology stuff, or even encouraging words. Please do.
Thank God for my simulus check for this months rent though!

posted June 12, 2008 01:01 AM         

I am sorry for your losses; what a horrible set of circumstances you have had to face. No one should have to endure all of these things at once.

That having been said, I don't think that the answers you seek can be gained by peering into the Tarot and concentrating on the various meanings of the 9 of Swords.

Yes, the card implies worries and problems; things that prey on the mind, and it seems like that is certainly where you are at.

In this instance I think it might be better to rise above the place of pain and loss that you seem to be in by means of mental alchemy. (Scorpio/Pluto)

Use the power of the Mind (Swords) to overcome the obstacles around you. Pray. Listen to uplifting music. Raise your thought vibration to a place of Light, despite the apparent darkness in the illusionary world, and you will find that your circumstances will change.

All of the tools in the universe only work when we make them. Allow yourself to feel the emotions that you are dealing with. Wallow in them, then confront your situation head on and move forward.

Make a plan, do your best... meet the Universe halfway, and God will carry you the rest of the way to your goals.

For now, put the Tarot aside and create your own Reality.

That would be my best advice at this point.

Blessings in the Light...

A

P.S. You are a Scorpio! That is the sign that has the power to overcome obstacles by pure personal power (Pluto). Accept the things you cannot change, then forge ahead to Transform (Pluto) your world.

"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes, and there shall be no more death." ******** Revelation 21:4

posted June 12, 2008 02:36 AM         

I always feel a sense of admiration when people stand up for what they believe in, what they think is right, despite there being sacrifices! Bravo! And I wish I had your strength and maturity, despite me being seemingly 6 years your senior.

I said "seemingly", because your name is "ScorpGirl", which indicates to me that you're a Scorpio female. However, the birth info you gave was 1/5/85, which in my limited knowledge of Astrology, is a Capricorn. I'm gonna just assume that you left out an extra '1', as in 11/5/85, in which case you would indeed be Scorpio.

As for your situation... I can only offer my own two cents. I will not attempt to say nice things you, because any "comfort" at this time would only slow you down.

Do NOT concern yourself with tarot readings, astrological predictions, or other things like that right now!! You do not have the time or idle resources to do so right now!

This is what you will do.
1) Go through your list of problems and prioritize them in order of urgency to be resolved.
2) From the first item, go through the list and create a plan for each and every issue to resolve it.
3) As you draw up your plans, try to flesh out every detail you could possibly think of, every accident and contingency you could fathom.
4) Add dates for each and every action item on your list and in your plans.
5) When you're done detailing everything, take a walk, grab a snack, take a nice bath, congratulate yourself on taking the first step. You have basically completed the first of the two most difficult things you will need to overcome! Reflect on the past a little bit, but stop before you start wallowing.
6) Come right back to it after your break, and go through the list and your plans again, to make sure you did not miss anything.
7) Bring your plans into ACTION!!! Follow your plans to resolution and a better tomorrow!

Note that this can be far more difficult than it sounds, and you will encounter unexpected things that throw your plan off its rhythm, or completely thwart it/them. When this happens, as soon as you get the time and opportunity, think of an alternative, and resume working at it.

Just remember that if you encounter one action item in any of your plans that seems insurmountable, turn that into a major item and create a separate plan to accomplish it. And remember, if you absolutely have no idea on how to solve a problem, even something like "Consult best friend / mentor / advisor at local bank / books at library / someone in the LL forums" can be a very valid and important action item as well.

I'm really sorry that you have to deal with loss of relatives along with everything else you're going through (job, husband, etc.). However, after having dated a Scorpio girl for over two years, I also fully believe that you have the ability, the power, to deal with it and to come out ahead in all of this.

Amber, there is always a way out. Well, okay, it'd tough if someone's holding a gun to your head threatening to pull the trigger if you do not pull out $1M from your pocket and hand it to them, but you're not in that kind of situation! And although of course I do not know the full details of your troubles, I strongly believe that you can fight your way out.

And I know (from past experience) that things will seem immediately brighter when you've created your plan. The reason is that you will then see a feasible course of action that you can take and that you came up with which could take you to the resolution of everything.

You have difficult times ahead, and two of the most difficult things for you will be: 1) actually starting to create the plans, and 2) persistently following through with them, and not allowing any inertia to make you slip back on the times and dates you have set for yourself.

I talk too much, and so I will shut up now and wish you...

Good luck.

And keep us posted.