posted July 22, 2008 04:45 PM         

..Anyways... I am posting the synastry chart of a past love. One whom I had a relationship with over seven years ago. We wer together, then I sort of vanished on him, then went back (I know, Aquarian, how surprising :rollseyes: ) Needless to say, I vanished again, and we got in touch again last summer. It was like not a day had passed. The same love was there. The same attraction.... but I felt as if that was all he wanted from me. He swore it wasn't, he said he would like to marry me and take care of me... but something wasn't right. So, besides the distance and my dire financial situation at the time, I told him it wasn't going to work. He told me he doesn't know why, but I am the only woman he has ever, and will ever, feel that way about....

I have dreamed of him all week long. Last night, I was with my current bf (in the dream), and somehow was supposed to meet up with Gemini guy. Well, when he showed up, my current bf was like "what the hell? Who is this guy?" and Gemini was saying the same thing... then I realized they were the same person, but just looked a little different. Once I realized it, they meshed into one person, and I ran to him and hugged him with so much love in my heart... then I woke up.... I thought of him all day, and even kept repeating to myself things about him and "us" that I wasn't crazy about, sort of to appease myself in a way, I guess. Well, I checked his myspace page today thinking I would send him a little message to say hello, but saw that he hadn't logged on since July 6th, so I figured that was my sign to leave it be. I just logged on a few minutes ago, and there was a message from him.... it just said "hi", but was posted pretty much when I had shut down my laptop earlier... Weird!! I haven't heard from him in over two months...

I know that I have had the tendency to go back to this man, even when he shouldn't have me, and I am happy right now, so I wonder if this is a challenge to see if I really can be with just one person and give them my whole heart without running scared...

... but what if it's something deeper?

Anyone who can take a look and give me some insight, you have no idea what it would mean to me... I'm standing on solid ground for the first time in my life, and I don't want to do anything stupid to mess it up... but I also know that I can't fight certain energies...

HELP!!

Thanks in advance...