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Topic: lost my momentum(depression)...pretty bad Please Help
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BleuArtemis Knowflake Posts: 42 From: Austin, TX, USA Registered: Jun 2007
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posted August 07, 2008 03:56 PM
hey all, I've bugged this forum about problems about my love life plenty of times before, but I'm thinking now the problem with those loves is pretty much just a problem with me. I haven't been able to get out of my bed or house for three months now. I think I've actually been depressed since September of 07, but I've been dragging myself on. I'll have high days but then must isolate myself in my house for many days. I'll be starting college again this september, this will be my fourth try. Everytime I try, I get some kind of panic attack and withdraw from all my classes within a month into the semester. I've moved severly times, but have had emotional breakdowns constantly. Its getting quite annoying. all i do now, is wake up, eat, not cause i'm hungry, but cause it relaxes me, smoke cigarettes not cause I want to but its something else to do, and be extremely irritable to everyone around me alienating myself. I think this goes beyond the recent love affair that didn't work out.Cause I had this behavior before him. All I want is to be inspired, and to have energy to fullfill my dreams but I get up and then I fall back down. CONSTANTLY!. I just want to finish school, but that seems imposible. I have dreams and I see myself in them but me as I am now will never be the me I see in those dreams. I don't know whats going on with me, but I have to snap out of it, get on some kind of momentum...but I've lost the momentum... can anyone look at my own personal chart...I don't think I have ever asked that before. I know, my mars is in taurus but in the 4th house...that makes me soooo lazy doesn't it? but I'm intellectual, but can't do anything about it. I feel if I continue on this way, being worthless, I should just sorry to be dramatic but just jump. i don't know, thanks who ever read this. bleu IP: Logged |
BleuArtemis Knowflake Posts: 42 From: Austin, TX, USA Registered: Jun 2007
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posted August 07, 2008 03:57 PM
oh my birthday...sorryapril 19th, 1983 02:15 brookyln, ny IP: Logged |
deuxantares Knowflake Posts: 1038 From: Registered: Nov 2006
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posted August 07, 2008 04:43 PM
Bleu, you should put up your chart. It's easier for the readers if you provide a visual aid. Do you know how to do it?
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deuxantares Knowflake Posts: 1038 From: Registered: Nov 2006
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posted August 07, 2008 04:51 PM
And btw, i don't mean to be nosey but are you a he or a she? I read an earlier post by you and it gave me the impression that you're a guy because you were talking about a girl. But here you are talking about a "him"?IP: Logged |
BleuArtemis Knowflake Posts: 42 From: Austin, TX, USA Registered: Jun 2007
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posted August 07, 2008 05:05 PM
Hey,Oh that not nosey, I am female. I was in love with a man who liked me as well but due to his circumstance he didn't want me. So, to distract myself I started to like this girl. Distraction didn't work. But this is all very low on my list of worries. I don't think I know how to print my chart but here is the link : http://www.astro.com/cgi/showgif.cgi?lang=e&gif=astro_w2gw_01_bleu_hp.75571.3081.gif&res=63&va=&cid=gsyfileSbiQXR-u1212536063 thing is this project my sun sign in the 2nd house. when actually sun is in the 3rd I think and my merc and mars are in the 4th house not the 3rd house. I think.
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deuxantares Knowflake Posts: 1038 From: Registered: Nov 2006
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posted August 08, 2008 03:13 AM
your horoscope image file has expired. there are 3 choices for brooklyn, NY on astro.com. which county is it: kings, delaware, cattaraugus?IP: Logged |
BleuArtemis Knowflake Posts: 42 From: Austin, TX, USA Registered: Jun 2007
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posted August 08, 2008 09:02 AM
kings county.thank you. born 2:15am IP: Logged |
deuxantares Knowflake Posts: 1038 From: Registered: Nov 2006
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posted August 08, 2008 02:40 PM
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deuxantares Knowflake Posts: 1038 From: Registered: Nov 2006
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posted August 08, 2008 02:43 PM
I am a total newbie in astrology, so i can't interpret your chart for you. Let's hope someone will come to give you a reading. Astrology aside, try to focus on your education. What are you majoring in? Are you sure you are in the right program? IP: Logged |
snohawk1 Knowflake Posts: 230 From: Killaloe, Ontario, Canada Registered: Apr 2008
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posted August 08, 2008 10:09 PM
Haha this is quite funny actually: I did a synastry between us, and everything was positive except two lines. ( which is insanely good! never seen a so positive chart) but those two negative aspects are a square between your moon and my conjunct moon and Jupiter in Libra. And of course the moon represents domesticity and Jupiter represents expansion. and your asking for help (expansion) on your repressed domesticity taking over or moody depression. your moon is in cancer which is the sign of dependency (they're the ones who made the whole ridiculous government system) and you're the one asking for help, while Libra which are what my moon and Jupiter are in, represents balance (hence my response to your call for help). Of course the square gives a different point of view which is what you are looking for. However It is my Jupiter not yours in this square, thus it is not that I can help you, as your Jupiter is in a more positive aspect with your moon than mine. I have little advice sorry :P <:| anyway here are the birth stats if you are curious about the synastry: 22:27 march 9th, 1993 Killaloe Station, on, Canada And actually my mars is conjunct your moon, and our asc.s are square but that shows no lines, so it's not as readally apparent when reading. ------------------ Sun: Pisces Moon: Libra Rising: Scorpio IP: Logged |
koiflower Knowflake Posts: 733 From: Australia Registered: Jun 2008
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posted August 09, 2008 10:17 PM
Hi BA - Mars in Taurus - slow to start but unstoppable once in motion!!! Your Saturn return may begin in 3 years time, so make a plan ASAP and stick with it, because the last thing you want is Saturn storming into your life and turning it upside down - it may hurt even though it will put you on the right track.Any plan will do for now - like a budget plan, a course with a useful certificate, voluntary work - just something that adds a strong solid dimension to your life. Apply yourself to it, even if it seems tedious to begin with. As I say, Saturn will come to question you on your life achievements. Sorry, I'm not experienced with charts etc, and will go by my gut feeling and life experience. I hope this helps. I don't want to sound like I'm getting up you. I just know Life is short and there is so much we have to do in this Lifetime. And whatever I say, comes from a caring heart... So what sort of things do you like? I was comparing myself and thought, well, I like cats, maybe I could join a cat club and go to shows etc.... Each new step leads to another!!! love koiflower xx
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