posted November 16, 2008 11:05 PM         

Dear knowflakes,

I've been undergoing a tumultuous time in my personal life for some time now. There has been much turmoil in my relationship with a certain Pisces - the term 'soul shock' comes to mind because I'm certain this guy is a Soulmate and is the One for me, but we've had tough times in our relationship owing to him going through a fair bit of confusion - I'd inadverdently hurt him in the past, and while I've tried so hard to make up for it & while he still seems to love me very much, he's not sure if a potential mess is better left alone. I'm afraid that his Saturn Return has shifted him from his Piscean qualities (Sun & Mars), to a stronger focus on the Virgo Moon (he has a Sun-Moon opposition & Saturn is currently transiting his Virgo Moon), a need to be practical, which would be fine if he weren't ignoring his heart altogether. I can recognize the signs because I've been there before & felt the same kind of confusion - it led to intense pain when my heart finally spoke up. Neither of us is able to move on either - he has never been able to (never once in years), and I know I cannot be with another man, feeling the way I do about him. I'm sure there is some karmic payback involved in what we're undergoing - our roles are almost exactly reversed now to what they were a few years ago (when I was reluctant to get involved with him despite his strong convictions), so this and the fact that I am somehow finding I have miraculous amounts of patience & forbearance with him, have been keeping me going for a long time.

I run out of steam sometimes though, and I'm at a critical juncture in my life where I'm about to finish grad school, and the company I'm currently employed at is in a precarious financial situation, so I'm looking for jobs, which could necessitate a move away from my beloved - this is the last thing I want to do, because I feel my life would have little meaning or joy if he weren't in it. Things are thus poised to change dramatically in the next few months. I'm so very worried.. the past 4-5 years have been rough for me, and I don't know if I have the strength to carry on bearing these burdens alone. I can't talk to very many people about this; I'm afraid I might start crying and not be able to stop.

I was hoping a fresh pair or pairs of knowflake eyes might be able to look at the charts below, and tell me if the tough times are likely to come to an end soon.. More than anything, I would like to be able to know if anything in my chart alludes to a serious relationship coming up for me soon.. (I'm hoping it will be with this Pisces, of course) My gut feeling for a long time has been that he & I are meant to be together, to be married someday & have a family of our own together, but there are times when I'm clouded with doubt and worry. I'm getting older, with my biological clock ticking louder, and delays have me worried.. Horary charts seem to predict we will be together, but I have no way of figuring out the timing, and I desperately hope I can hang in there as long as it takes.

If you have any psychic impressions from this, or could do any other kind of reading for me, that would be appreciated too... I'm hoping for something - anything to hold on to..

I'm grateful for your help, dear ones, and would be glad to help you with a reading, should you need one,
Sunshine