posted December 16, 2008 10:58 AM         

March 12, 1964
8:23 pm
born pittsburgh pa

him
July 2, 1974
7:30am
hundred west virginia

My heart has never been broken.....I actually slipped into a depression and was in the hospital for 4 days...i did not eat for 8 days.......i am not like this,,,,,i feel like a part of myself has died. People that know me are in complete disbelief that i am this way.....I am usually the one that lets nothing get to me and now i feel like my world is not the same.

posted December 16, 2008 01:09 PM         

i also wish you better.

sometimes we must pass through Hell to become stronger.and a break up might not be forever.As a matter of fact there are many couples who split just to reorder their own toughts and then...get to the conclusion that they are stronger and better together.

Maybe you could post this thread in the astrology forum - i bet more people would take a look at your charts and your transits also.

posted December 16, 2008 02:18 PM         

i see that it already worked there

ALL THE LUCK for you dear Sinderlou.

posted December 17, 2008 05:50 AM         

Except.... I read a few days a very interesting take on depression.
It said when we are depressed, we do nothing but wait till we feel the motivation to do something to get us out of our depressed state.
When we don't feel any motivation, we again feel depressed. A vicious cycle so to speak.
It said the thing to do is to do stuff (any action at all) whilst IN our depressed state.

Know that it will feel like sh** but force yourself to do it anyway. Anything at all. Because that action will lead to another action and you will begin to move, albeit slowly, forward again.

Your man has left you. I gather you have realised he is not coming back. That is a fact. Nothing anyone can say, will help you with regards to that so...accept that you feel terrible. Accept that you may feel bad for some time to come but move...

Here is a few lines from my favourite poem by Rudyard Kipling. If nothing else say it to yourself as you move forward (it's helped me in dark times)

IF

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone.
And so hold on when there is nothing left within you.
Except the Will which says to them "Hold on"

posted December 31, 2008 03:51 PM         

My heart goes out to you.. I just came across your thread, and reading it, I recognize a very similar pain to mine, very similar sentiments..

I'd gone through this pretty recently too, and there is something in me that tells me it isn't over, which is why I continue to hold onto hope.. it sounds like it is much the same for you. Are things any better for you these days? Have you talked to him since? I'm here if you want to talk about anything - feel free to email me: my email addy is my username "@unc.edu".

I haven't looked at the charts yet (posting the actual chart might help), but did want to send you this link; the articles there have helped me hold on long past what others consider practical, and helped explain why I feel the way I do. Perhaps it will help you too: Soul Shock