posted January 17, 2009 03:26 PM
I think feeling misunderstood growing up stemmed from having Saturn in the 1st. You probably were a very mature child, and had to grow up fast. This usually indicates "old soul" in a chart. You probably couldn't relate to your generational/age range because of this. Many people with this aspect grew up loner types, and makes one feel isolated from society.Sun/mercury in the 12th gives your personality a hidden element. You probably don't like to speak very much. I know a lot mercury/12th types hate the phone. You probably were a very quiet child, and nobody probably really knows you, and how you really feel about things. It gives you a Neptunian/Pisces feel to your chart. You are probably very sensitive person who wants to be alone but it also contradicts your ascendant(outer personality) Leo, who needs, and craves attention. Saturn restricts you from making it known what you want.
I get a feeling from looking at your chart, your childhood was very traumatic, and possibly dangerous at times. Was your father abusive?(you dont need to respond if you dont want to)...
I think your relationship with the opposite sex is strained from the fact you have venus square saturn~this makes one feel unloved/unworthy of love, also has difficulty relating with others. You also have 7th house aquarius, you are probably attracted to distant potential partners. You are afraid of being close, so you attract people who dont want to be close. I think this can be worked out once you realize the potential for you is great if you want it, I think you might not be healed enough for it at this point.
Jupiter is transit your 7th all of 2009, which will make your love life very good. You might find yourself falling for a foreigner, or someone completely different from you. Your love life will get better. Saturn trining your natal Venus will bring stability in whoever comes into your life now. Together, these transits show to me, someone special is likely to appear.