posted May 12, 2009 01:41 PM
Hello Femme,I jumped into your chart with both feet so I hope I didn’t hurt you in the process. I looked at the general suggestions your chart makes and also focused on the current business issues and relationship energy. Without having an actual conversation with you, I can only assume certain things. I don’t know if you’re in a relationship right now or just how slow or bad business is for you so some things may be a little bit off, but you can apply some of the things I’ll say to your present reality.
The first big pattern of your chart shows a defensive posture. You strongly protect your identity, physicality and your presentation to the world. The primary energy of your life is for thought assertion, fiery communications, opinions and philosophy are all used to fuel your reigning need to be NUMBER ONE!!! I can almost guarantee that you are number one at what you do or one of the best at what you do. I highly suspect there is dramatic speech, action, travel, teaching and/or movement/athleticism involved in what you do. Probably in a public arena of some sort and there may be some type of art or aesthetics involved.
The first pattern leads me to the second pattern of symbols that suggests you became what you are through tremendous pressure from your father or father figure. There is even a strong and obsessive brutality to the pressure or training he may have been trying to implement. The pattern looks to me like there’s been a heavy blanket placed over the energy of your life, not allowing you to shine the way you wanted but in your 2nd half of life, that blanket is coming off and you have discovered that you are a diamond. You have some power. If that hasn’t happened yet, it will. I suspect it has happened.
As I’m being lead to the other patterns in the chart I see suggestions that as some parts of your life were fed strongly, other parts of your life were blocked such as a proper socialization process. The chart suggests your father in this regard once more. Also, your mother is suggested in your chart as one of these: highly eccentric, possibly genius or possibly unstable or mentally ill. Which ever one it is, this trait of hers, this eccentric energy (with you also) seems to run away with the chart. I’m not saying you’re mentally ill, it’s just an electric energy in your life seems to dominate. There is a feeling of “too much freedom” around your Mom and your early home life. This same large electric patterns also suggests some stress with your sense of self-worth and personal finances. Not in the sense that you don’t have resources, it may even be a case of too much money or too much stress about lots of money, yours and other people’s. There’s an accounting element here, dealing with your own resources along with other people’s.
It appears that there have been many changes with your career over the last 2 years. Saturn is the culprit. Saturn can be great for business, but his energy can also just plain say, “NO!” Why does he say “no” and “stop” and just build up brick walls and stuff? Well, his favorite phrase can be, “Because I said so.” People hate Saturn and sometimes they love Saturn. Anyway, in terms of your chart, Saturn has been traveling through your career sector for the last 2 years. He’s been particularly rough with you over the last year but he has just finished packing his bags and will be out of your hair by the end of June. Things may either be easing up and more business flowing in or you’ve made a decision to make big changes in your business like making it smaller or bigger or just changing the way things are done. But the slow down only lasts a little bit longer.
I don’t know if you’re in a relationship now, but it looks like things have not been going well since around the middle of February, lots more confusion that usual, and your chart suggests a very large pattern of confusion for you around relationships/partnerships. There’s the suggestion of your boundaries being crossed at a very early age, meaning that it could be lots of co-dependence later in life, people being allowed into your life without you have a choice and then sometimes letting too many people into your life whether they are trustworthy or not. This same pattern is connected to relationships with you. It could be that you’re highly idealistic about relationships and marriage or just plain confused about how they should really work. One of the patterns I see looks like a block in the plumbing of your relationship house. There’s either too much control that you want or other’s want, there’s definitely a strong control factor related to relationships for you. If I could guess, it seems that you didn’t have the control in your early home life, you now have that option and you exercise it fully. But sometimes defense mechanisms in our early life are no longer necessary in our adult life. The block that I see is not permanent, it’s just meant for me to bring to your attention so that you may remedy the situation.
There is one more large pattern that suggests you may be blocking your own good in reference to relationships. You’ve got a grand pattern of motivational self sufficiency in your chart. It speaks largely of you not needing anyone to help you to do what needs to be done. It’s great for you and your image, but it blocks relationships because your partner probably feels that he/she isn’t needed and that’s vital in relationship. Trust is another element.
To me, your chart suggests classic signs of someone who is very successful in their life, but solid relationships elude them.
If the time of your chart is exact, your chart suggests that relationships in the past may have been with artists, musicians, possible substance abusers or people who have been ill and needed your assistance. This same pattern also suggests that you may have had some of these same issues, being prone to some kind of illness having to do with the lower regions of your body, possibly the colon, rectal and/or kidneys and endocrine system. You may have recently had health issues again over the last few months, unexplained infections or things of that nature. If not, that’s great.
That’s really all I can do now without knowing you. I hope that I have helped, at least added something in there that you recognize about yourself.
Please let me know if anything in here resonates, and feel free to clarify and let me know if anything is wrong. Good luck with your business, even if things seem bad now, they will speed up for you again in some way, your chart around your career is just too strong to go completely under.
Geocosmic Valentine
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