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Topic: todd, would you have a look at this composite?
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pire
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posted September 17, 2009 07:14 PM
 
please, can you tell me? what does it look like?  IP: Logged |
pire
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posted September 18, 2009 01:44 AM
this is a same sex relationship; in the natal he's got mars conjunct saturn (1) square venus(0) and opposed chiron(1) exact and my mars (completing the grand cross on his chart) conjunct jupiter(4) quintile uranus(0) and semisquare moon(0). IP: Logged |
todd
Knowflake Posts: 83
From: Baghdad by the Bay
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posted September 18, 2009 04:00 PM
the composite is confusing to me as there seems to be a strong mental connection and the emotional connections arefilled with tension.
the chiron square to the sun shows a unusually connection that may suggest emotional healing is at the base of the relationship.the sun/chiron midpoint is square to the mercury/urnaus midpoint and mercury is square the mars/venus midpoint.
this can show an eccentric/usual emotional connection or eccentric physical desires.
with the mars/pluto/satrun stellium sextile to neptune and trine to the sun,there is a deep healing and compassion shown,though it seems it is not expressed directly.this unsual cvonnectionis also indicate by the moon/jupiter midpoint opposed to thevenus/chiron midpoint.
with the venus/sun midpoint square to uranus,there is a spontaneous,intense atraction but it has an idealist nmature that can make it difficult to stablize this relationship.
it seems that this relationship is for individual awareness rather than for mutual awareness .sorry i can't be more distinct.
but it does seem that there have been problems recently,and mostly a silence distance has developed.todd IP: Logged |
pire
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posted September 19, 2009 11:53 AM
well, thank you for your time and knowledge. i really appreciate your insight. basically this relationship is bizarre to me too. i met him almost 2 years ago. we became friends instantaneously. he was the first to come and talk to me, to ask for my number and to want to meet again. i found him gentle and sweet and gorgeous. for a while i was on a cloud. we casually saw each other. i thought we were starting dating. 2 months after we had met, we went to the cinema, and he told me he wasn't gay. before that, i had assumed he was because he was just so kind, (and also because i had been extremely explicit the first night out. but the next day he refused my apologies, saying i hadn't made him feel unconfortable at all. but nothing about his preferences. so i thought he wanted the whole shabang romantically. i never thought he was not interested. then from the day he told me he wasn't gay (2 months after we met), our relationship changed. we remained in touch through facebook because I went back to my country a couple of months later. ... until i found out he was in a relationship with a girl in june this year. i stopped all contact since july. but i think about him very very often. he's younger than me, im 29 and he's 23. i know a straight is straight. i don't want to change him, but i want him :/ his family is VERY conservative, he comes from a rich family where image is everything. i thought this was the reason for his denial. but now i start to accept that he might simply not be who i thought he was. ideally, i would love to be his friend, but i realise that i'm not emotionally mature enough to accept his choices as they are and see him kissing and hugging someone else (boy or girl). thank you for your time todd 
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pire
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posted September 19, 2009 12:50 PM
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it seems that this relationship is for individual awareness rather than for mutual awareness
when you say that, what do you mean by mutual awareness? aware of the other? does it mean for you that this relationship is not meant to be about shared "love", as a classical couple (married, tv, dog?) IP: Logged |
cpn_edgar_winner
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From: Toledo, OH
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 19, 2009 12:56 PM
thats a bummer pire. you can't help who you think about and care about....IP: Logged |
pire
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posted September 19, 2009 01:11 PM
yeah that's true.i really care about him in the deepest sense, and would love to cherish him with my best self.
but in this case, loving him the best way could mean accepting in my heart that he doesn't want the intimacy i crave IP: Logged |
pire
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posted September 19, 2009 01:12 PM
i feel alive!!!!!!!  IP: Logged |
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