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Topic: feels like it's soon over, could anyone look into my future?
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lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 03, 2011 05:36 PM
um… i've posted several times about the difficulties i'm in at the moment on the astro forum… i hope i make sense here.i have a life-long complicated issue that needs solving, getting all tangled up with other problems along the way, and it has snowballed into a burden and i kind of cannot move. now, after a long long time in the darkness, after so many trials i cannot possibly express in one sentence, i think, i found a way to solve the root problem. but precisely now, i run out of money. and soon my visa. relationship all upside down. it was too late. it's over. i'll be homeless, country-less, penny-less, all alone. i see a huge abyss opening its mouth ahead of me. this is beyond terrifying. i've been trying to write a letter to my father, in the language i'm not adequate with, to explain my situation. but i don't know if he can help me much financially. but he's my last hope to earn some time so i can "solve the root problem" in the mean time. in my transit chart, i see an inner revolution, awakening. but i don't know if it's ending good or bad. i feel utterly helpless right now. i'm scared of asking favours. but i really need to accept that i need insight right now. my tarot is too overwhelmed and shows nothing. so, could kind people please do a reading for me, any form of reading. will i be ok, will i be safe? will i be able to get to where i want to and need to? please tell me. help me have a grasp of reality. IP: Logged |
Mblake81 Knowflake Posts: 1759 From: Registered: Aug 2010
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posted April 03, 2011 10:36 PM
My problems are nothing compared to yours, I hope something good happens for you.I hope sun filled happy wonderful days come your way, instead of what you have spoken. IP: Logged |
abcd efg Knowflake Posts: 1027 From: India Registered: Mar 2011
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posted April 03, 2011 10:43 PM
How i wish i knew astrology. I would have studied your chart. Anyway there are a lot of kind ppl here who will do it for u. so pl hold on. And my genuine best wishes to you for your life.IP: Logged |
abcd efg Knowflake Posts: 1027 From: India Registered: Mar 2011
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posted April 03, 2011 10:47 PM
Hey. It just occurred to me that i had asked saptarishi for insights in a couple of things and he/she had given dot answers. And many others have recommended him to be good. YOu can try asking him if u like. He/She is on personal readings forum (this forum), in personal readings (heading)thread- Topic Starter saptarishi.oracle. And his email id iambic.iambic@gmail.comIP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 04, 2011 06:44 AM
thank you, the idea of "sun filled happy wonderful days" makes my eyes well up. i hope so too…abdc, thanks so much for your suggestion. it looks like a lot of people are asking and i hope it's not too much… i'll email and ask. in the meantime, if anyone else might want to help me, it would really mean a lot to me… thank you. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 20456 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted April 04, 2011 06:01 PM
Ask your father,Dear One. We,all,must ask for help,at times. It is really,really hard. I agree. Please,ask him as soon as you can. Get back with any updates or just if you need to write ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 04, 2011 06:37 PM
thank you Ami. i'm almost finished with the letter to my father... i'm afraid of rejection, but also that he simply does not have enough to help me with. also after all this, i hope i will figure things out right so i can get myself back up. i also worry for my partner, but it's no use, i have to think for myself for now. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 20456 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted April 04, 2011 06:42 PM
You will NOT go down that low,Lechien. I am not saying you will not struggle but it will not be a horrible,bottom hitting-like predicament. That is what I feel ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 04, 2011 07:04 PM
oh that is assuring to hear, Ami. i feel that if i can get through this period, finally i can get out of the "sub-standard" life and have a certain freedom and control over my own life. i WANT TO have it. i never had my own life due to circumstances and i've fought for it so hard. i deserve it like no one else.i'll hang in there. i really don't want to get to the rock-bottom state of life. that is really too scary... thank you for giving me the courage. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 20456 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted April 05, 2011 06:17 PM
Dear Lechien I think you may have some trials but you will NOT go down to the place of your deepest fears, *I* do not feel ------------------ Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 7480 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 05, 2011 10:51 PM
lechien All I can offer at the moment is wishes for good fortune and love and happiness for you, and {{{hugs}}}. If I pick up anything I will let you know. I do feel things will work out though. My readings are often not things folks want to know. My grandmother said I am a doomseer and a warner. Oh yes, I pick up on good things too, but it is things Of dire nature or warnings I usually pick up on. Like seeing the barn of a person I knew on fire in a snowstorm, with an Easter basket with a candle in it. I told him weeks before, keep an eye out on Easter because your barn might catch on fire. Well it did. His kid was playing in the hayloft with a lighter and candle on Easter Sunday. As they were all eating lunch it started to snow and in minutes was a blizzard. The next thing they realized was the top of the barn was in full flame. A few dozen dairy cows died in the fire. So be glad I do not sense anything for you except that it will all work out.{{{{hugs}}}}IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 04:51 AM
thank you Ami and LEXX. i finally finished the letter to my father and sent it. i have not had the courage to open my email just yet, but i will do that when the void moon is over (just to give myself a little sense of security...!) it was a big trial for me to write the letter to him, because i'm not good with his language. i hope the way i express myself did not sound too dramatic and phony. languages are hard. i also don't know him too closely and i cannot guess his response so well. it adds to me fear. i feel comforted that you don't sense terrible circumstances. that really helps me keep the hopes up. i'm sure there will be trials, because even if my father can help me a little, there are other things to take care of. but if you don't sense negative, it means that i will come through the trials. i'll try to stay firm and face it. i'll let you know what my father says. you are kind souls. IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 06:10 AM
LEXX, just curious, do you see visions like you start having vivid imaginations?i sometimes have prophetic dreams, but i have no control. the most memorable one was the dream of my mother in the pool of blood on the toilette floor. i immediately told her to get a check up. she was diagnosed colon cancer and had an operation. this was before she disowned me. i worry how she's doing, but no news is a good news, i suppose... IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 08:42 AM
ok, oh god, bless my father, he said he has no money. but he wants to help me. i'm really too overwhelmed right now, but i wanted to let you kind souls know. oh i feel terrible that he doesn't have enough for himself. but i'm so relieved that i'm safe for the moment. but i cannot just relax yet, his aid will really put me on a safer place, but i still have issues that needs solving, like the visa being the main issue. now i really have to calm down and figure out how to respond him. oooooh my god, i was SO stressed! SO, tremendously stressed! IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 7480 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 10:22 AM
lechien Even though things are still tough, I am happy about the good news and that you appear more optimistic this morning! Yes, there will always be trials. Like another came at me yesterday. Fraking chipmunks ate electric wiring in my house yesterday so now cannot fix furnace or use the space heaters. About 3/4 of our electric is out. Now we must go around and try to do extensive rewiring by ourselves because we cannot afford to pay anyone to do it. quote: Originally posted by lechien: LEXX, just curious, do you see visions like you start having vivid imaginations?i sometimes have prophetic dreams, but i have no control. the most memorable one was the dream of my mother in the pool of blood on the toilette floor. i immediately told her to get a check up. she was diagnosed colon cancer and had an operation. this was before she disowned me. i worry how she's doing, but no news is a good news, i suppose...
As to how I see things like the burning barn, Well to those around me I go like catatonic, whether sitting or standing. I can be cooking or on the toilet or anything....... lol even during sex LOL! From my point of view the world as I know it totally disappears. I find myself actually seeming to be in the physical observing things, smell seeing touch, but then gets weird when People walk right through me. Then I come back to reality and blabber like a wild magpie over where I had just been and what I saw. The same goes for past things; like for example; My husband at the time, ex2, and me and my son were driving down a 4 lane freeway and I suddenly saw a man in front of me pleading whilst pointing at a corpse of himself, "Please help me!" I screamed at my husband; "there is a dead guy in the median hidden in the high weeds, go back! He refused to. Got home and opened the newspaper. There was a picture of him. He was reported by his "loving" wife as being missing for a few days. Suddenly I was seeing her, and another man, and they were killing the man I saw. They stuffed him in garbage bags and took him across state lines and dumped his body by the freeway. He asked me to tell someone what had really happened if his wife and her co-murderer boyfriend were not caught. I hugged him and agreed. Well as the story unfolded in real life, they were caught, (I asked my discarnate friends to help and it worked!) Things and names were exactly as I had seen. The man thanked me when I tranced out again, and I helped him with his transition.
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lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 01:07 PM
LEXX you are a real special soul on earth. i wonder what your life's predicaments are meant to be. thank you for sharing the amazing story... and, i'm so sorry but i had to laugh at the chipmunk wire destruction! no i don't find it itself funny, but i so know what this is! you have a problem that already feels like it's beyond your ability to solve, then on top of that another problem happens as if the first wasn't enough! you'd think things just can't get worse, but they do! Ugghhh! i'm so sorry, good luck with fixing up the stuff!! as for me, i'm writing a reply to my father... with a little difficulty, again with the language thing. when i'm done, i think i'll just RELAX and not think about anything for a few days!!! IP: Logged |
abcd efg Knowflake Posts: 1027 From: India Registered: Mar 2011
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posted April 06, 2011 01:07 PM
Lexx, your story reminded me of the movie 'The Gift'. Have you seen it? Good One.IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 01:23 PM
i also got a reply from saptarishi.oracle, and he says my father can help me. but the coming 2 months will be trying, i may have to move or at least some motions involved. but after this period is over i will have a hopeful phase coming. my partner's life will not see improvement until next year. but at least it will improve. i just have to stay firm and strong. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 20456 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted April 06, 2011 03:33 PM
quote: Originally posted by lechien: i also got a reply from saptarishi.oracle, and he says my father can help me. but the coming 2 months will be trying, i may have to move or at least some motions involved. but after this period is over i will have a hopeful phase coming. my partner's life will not see improvement until next year. but at least it will improve. i just have to stay firm and strong.
------------------ All life is lived in the sand box. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 04:44 PM
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LEXX Moderator Posts: 7480 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 04:48 PM
quote: Originally posted by lechien: LEXX you are a real special soul on earth. i wonder what your life's predicaments are meant to be. thank you for sharing the amazing story...
Thank you. And yes,I feel my predicaments are in a way, blessings not curses. quote: Originally posted by lechien: and, i'm so sorry but i had to laugh at the chipmunk wire destruction! no i don't find it itself funny, but i so know what this is! you have a problem that already feels like it's beyond your ability to solve, then on top of that another problem happens as if the first wasn't enough! you'd think things just can't get worse, but they do! Ugghhh! i'm so sorry, good luck with fixing up the stuff!!
LOL! Indeed! Still fighting ninja fleas here for months. My poor cats. I guess I am going to have to set up the diving pools of death again for the cute but dangerously destructive little baztard chipmunks. There is no other way. quote: Originally posted by lechien: as for me, i'm writing a reply to my father... with a little difficulty, again with the language thing. when i'm done, i think i'll just RELAX and not think about anything for a few days!!!
I read your later posts here and it sounds like things will get better!{{{hugs}}}IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 06, 2011 05:00 PM
quote: Originally posted by LEXX: LOL! Indeed! Still fighting ninja fleas here for months. My poor cats. I guess I am going to have to set up the diving pools of death again for the cute but dangerously destructive little baztard chipmunks. There is no other way.
oy, i don't want to know how the death pool works...! thank you LEXX, when i felt too overwhelmed by fear, i came to this thread and read you guys encouragements. it really meant a lot. now, i still have other things to worry about but for now i will just be happy one thing is solved. IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 07, 2011 09:03 AM
one thing solved and opens up space, and new things come into that space. today i woke up and my computer is acting freaky, i'm doing all sorts of backups and scans... hope it won't collapse. (Mercury!!! )my partner... he is finally totally depressed. he looks empty. he looks really really ugly and awful and old, he is shredded inside out. he's just vacantly staring into the mid-air and looks tapped out... i cannot even cheer him up, i know it means nothing at this state. all i can do is to just walk away and leave him be. ...why don't i possess some divine power to symbolically "resurrect" his psyche? i die inside in the pain that i can do absolutely nothing for him. all i can do is to just work on my own things. no i can't just sit and relax... one problem solved, but there's still tons of worries. god, this is NOT never-ending. it IS going to end. i want it to end right now. IP: Logged |
lechien Knowflake Posts: 1457 From: my 30 cubic square meter room with a rat! Registered: May 2009
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posted April 07, 2011 10:20 AM
transit Sun and Jupiter are both conjunct my partner's natal Jupiter. but it doesn't seem to be helping much with his doomed mood...tr. Saturn is opposing the natal Jupiter so maybe it's over-weighing the Sun and Jupiter. also it's going back and forth around the degree of squaring his AC, which is currently getting kicked by the tr. Pluto... in a few months Jupiter will start trining all the Stellium planets in Virgo, so I really hope that will give some major renovation in the positive outlook... IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 7480 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 07, 2011 11:17 AM
lechien{{{hugs}}} My husband from whom I am separated but still living together for the time being; Was like your partner is now; only worse. He is no longer suicidal but is still struggling. I do not know what to say but that I empathize deeply with your life woes. {{{hugs}}} Please keep talking here OK? And feel free to e-mail me if you wish.
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