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lalitree
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posted September 04, 2011 07:00 PM
  
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Ami Anne
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posted September 04, 2011 07:12 PM
Awesome
I will get on it. tomorrow!------------------
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Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 12:07 PM
Ok,I am gonna take our one interaction and look at it.
I felt that you did not appreciate my efforts as you did not apologize for the wrong chart in a way that made me feel you understood that it was a lot of effort and work on my part.
Later, I realized that it must be something in your chart that you were missing cues,as I know you were not trying to be mean or unkind,in any way.
I am gonna look for that type of thing and we can discuss it 
Does that sound good?------------------
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Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 12:10 PM
OK, you have high water and low air. HIgh water makes you feel and understand others.Low air makes it hard to detach,pull back and see things from another person's perspective.
Do you feel that happens, a lot,in your every day life?------------------
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Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 12:15 PM
NN in 12 is your need to become more attuned to the next dimension of mystical things and inner knowings.
Jupiter here can make "luck" go backwards, in a sense.
You said you do feel that? Can you gibe other examples of luck or fortune seeming to go against you?------------------
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Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 12:18 PM
I feel drawn to talk about your 8th house.
How are you really unusual in your deep emotions.Do you like really different sexual things?
How does Uranus play out here?Saturn is the opposite.It would make you shut down your deepest emotions and passions.
How do these work? IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 12:20 PM
You are very low in earth,too.How do you feel that?IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 12:22 PM
Lets discuss these things and then I will go on to your 6th and 7th houses, the packed ones lol------------------
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Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 12:27 PM
Your Jupiter is a pivotal planet cuz it makes a lot of aspects.After, you answer these questions, I will look at that.------------------
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Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 02:25 PM
Sun trine Chiron
You will have help by your ego to deal with pain. I will look at your sun/ego,later------------------
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lalitree
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posted September 05, 2011 10:13 PM
Actually, no i would say that i am overly good at looking at things from another's perspective. Again, the reason that i seemed to be totally oblivious about the deal was an online misunderstanding. sigh...in fact, i had issues for years where i didn't want to even go out into the world because of what seemed like a super sensitivity to the effects of every little word i said to everyone around me, or what they felt or thought. the thought of someone being sad or angry was enough to scare me for the rest of the day. until a few years ago, after being around several people. it was a terrifying experience, but i also learned that i don't need to say "sorry" or "please" like twenty times in two minutes. i guess, i made it a habit to try to say it as little as possible. and i didn't say it to you when i should have. it's odd to me that things like this don't show up on there. there is this and many more things which feel to me like they have been big parts of my life that i have expected would come up, but haven't IP: Logged |
lalitree
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posted September 05, 2011 10:29 PM
i guess maybe i should explain a little about why i felt so afraid. i had a near death experience that changed my psyche dramatically. (i was hoping that it would somehow be reflected in the chart, but i guess not). i am not even going to go into the 'experience' (or lack thereof), but i can't avoid talking about the aftereffects because they have changed everything. after it, every moment of my life around people was different. it's been like sharing all their feelings when i am around them. i used to be so unable to distinguish which were mine or theirs that i would be frozen speechless, or so wracked with nerves that i would have to leave. my mother happens to be someone who feels she has to talk about every disgrace that happens to someone (as if talking about it helps somehow), and everything i heard made me instantly feel like it was happening to me. so i guess, that is why i say i am 'overly good' at putting myself in another's shoes. it was those same people that i talked about that changed me. i learned to put on some sort of shield. but i am still so confused. i don't know how to be an individual. i don't know where to stake out my 'own personal thoughts' or feelings or whatever. i don't know why it even matters so much to the world to be able to and here i find myself trying to do it. but why? maybe we should just give up on the reading right now IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 10:34 PM
Lali
I am not that good with the charts. Would you e mail me and tell me about your NDE?IP: Logged |
lalitree
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posted September 05, 2011 10:37 PM
yes, i will email you if you want because you have been so gracious with your time to me. but i have to let you know, that words really cannot describe it. i will write it here actually, if you want. but right now is not a good time. there are a lot of people here in the living room distracting me i don't want you to feel like i am being ungrateful for your reading. i just think that perhaps there is no 'solution' for such an issue. but what matters is that you have cared enough to look into this with me. that makes me feel fuzzy inside  IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted September 05, 2011 10:47 PM
Aww, you made me cry,but in a good way. Thanks for being there and touching me and letting me touch you  ------------------
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posted September 05, 2011 10:53 PM
NDE's give me peace like nothing else.The Bible says you will live free if you make your peace with death.
I am such a poor representative of Jesus with all my fears.
He understands, I suppose, but I love to hear about NDE's!
Thank you!------------------
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lalitree
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posted September 06, 2011 09:54 AM
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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
NDE's give me peace like nothing else.The Bible says you will live free if you make your peace with death.
I am such a poor representative of Jesus with all my fears.
He understands, I suppose, but I love to hear about NDE's!
Thank you!
no, you are not a poor representative of Jesus. at least, i feel like what Jesus wanted us to see was that if we can't be ourselves then we can't be him and like you said, he does understand. he understands everything.
you DO live free if you make your peace with death; personally free. there is no reason to fear death but i don't think i am free of the fear of pain, sometimes. but i think that maybe we should ask ourselves twice what that freedom entails. at least in the context of this day and age, it means that your 'free mind' will still be put into a cage. no longer your own personal one, but a bigger one when you try to fit into the world IP: Logged |
lalitree
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posted September 06, 2011 10:19 AM
talking about it feels about as productive as talking about the difference between seeing red and blue. i don't even know where to begin exactly, and i know that if i were to be told to write about all the details and the changes of what it was like or how everything has changed it would fill up maybe a hundred books and the subject would not be covered. perhaps it never would.so i will start with a little backstory, and then go right into what happened physically. for the sake of being able to say anything in highschool, i stopped caring about what my parents, especially my dad, wanted me to do. it had always been about what he wanted, about me 'respecting' him, and in his own ideas of what he wanted his children to be he had lost sight of the fact that he still needed to respect me as well. and he never had. he still barely has the ability to see me as someone who might not be molded into the child that would go off to medical school to make him proud, (no matter how many times i've told him that i hate the medical business and don't care about making lots of money, it's like he doesn't hear it) anyway, if i go into all the hardships i've lived with my father it will be a book within itself so i will just say now what needs to be said about this. that i didn't give a crap what he thought anymore. that i'd arrived at a vague point in my life where i wasn't even sure i should give a crap about myself.
when i was 16, i was supposed to go straight home afterschool, as i almost always was, but i didn't. i ran off with some friends to go drink at a guy's house. his mom was gone, he said, so we could drink all her booze. i was all about that, because i had loved being drunk, and with my controlling parents i'd only ever gotten to drink like once or twice before really (without their knowing) there is so much that possibly led to my doing this; perhaps even meeting who i later would think of as my twin soul/flame and the craziness that that brought up in me, i don't exactly know still. but the point is, i drank, no, Chugged an entire fifth of tequila, and then half a bottle of whiskey, as soon as i got my hands on them. we were all too young to know that NOBODY should do such a thing, let alone a 16 year old girl who hasn't really eaten all day.
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posted September 06, 2011 10:29 AM
i grabbed a bottle of beer afterwards, and stepped into the hot tub. i started to feel it as i did, and then i really felt IT when i was in the hot water. the meeting point in my 'two lives' was an ocean. as my heavy eyes were closing the water in the tub looked like an ocean; there was an undertow pulling me down. i could not open my eyes. i was being dragged further and further down. i could hear people calling out a name; was it my name? what/who was i, anymore? somehow i knew people were moving me, hitting me, prodding me, but it didn't matter, because something; a force was pulling me away fast and hard and who was i to fight it? it was beautiful beyond anything and anything that sounded sad made no sense in regards to it... IP: Logged |
lalitree
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posted September 06, 2011 10:42 AM
really, for what happened, there is no way to describe it. words feel like it is not in their nature to go there. but i will try anyway, to point there was everywhere, and nowhere. everything, and nothing. forever and never. (when i go back to this day it feels like i am still there.) then there was worry. heaviness. pain and fear. and it came from the people around what i later came to call 'me' again. i was them. they were i. the way this all worked made perfect sense then, but i knew that when Me came back it would not. Me decided to come back from this wholeness because it knew that where Me really wanted to go was what they called 'death'. and when people died it was seen as a bad thing regardless of how they felt about it. Me came back because i knew that if it didn't, my friends would be in trouble, and i knew it was my fault and not theirs. when i did come back, i Felt...like i had returned from a journey of a million years or something. before the return there was that wonderful new sense of pure love.how can i describe something so Beyond? i just can't. i wish everyone knew it. IP: Logged |
lalitree
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posted September 06, 2011 11:03 AM
i came back to it all, waking up in the hospital, puking up chunks of something. fighting with my own desire to just check out of it all, especially now that i Knew. for some reason the song 'keep bleeding love' comes to mind as i've been reminiscing on this, which is weird because i have heard it like two or three times and i don't really listen to pop music. weird. well, my existence afterwards compared to whatever it was that had happened was meaningless. i found no real point in what others did because i saw the world for what it was clearly. life; a miracle right in front of us. and society had a way of making people blind to this somehow. everything i saw people do caused me pain. no one understood why, and since i couldn't explain it they figured i was full of it i guess. i saw that 'good' and 'bad' were two sides of the same coin. so many things...like the way that every word has so many different meanings. because they mean something different to everyone, due to personal experiences. so this made me wary of talking, since i knew my meaning of non-meaning was more than likely to be misconstrued. maybe a better way to put it all is that, i saw that everyone was right and everyone was wrong. really there is no better way to describe it than to call it a paradox. it really really is all a paradox but magic is Everywhere i have tried so hard to go back to the mind that seems now to belong to a different life, but as i've tried i think i've come to accept that it can't happen. stunted/changed whatever, my mind now is who i am. i will write more about the implications of this later, but for now i will say that i have become an observer even of my own mind, because i know that what we choose to do or not do, is all that could be
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posted September 06, 2011 11:13 AM
Thank you Darling
I am gonna come back and study everything .My eyes are really hurting so am taking a little break------------------
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posted September 06, 2011 11:17 AM
there is so much, really, to say. but i choose not to. because of the words issue. but sometimes things find expression, all on their own agenda i guess. when i chanced to read this a few years ago, i cried in gladness because i knew that others knew, no matter how few:
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The name that can be named, is not the eternal Name.
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posted September 06, 2011 11:18 AM
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.My eyes are really hurting so am taking a little break
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lalitree
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posted September 06, 2011 01:33 PM
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