posted October 11, 2011 10:33 AM
Hello, I've browsed these forums for a while, but I felt a strong compulsion to post here tonight, asking for some assistance. I've been reading a lot of the auto generated natal chart information from various websites and applying it to me to see how it adds up. and it leaves me with one primary question.What kind of personality is in this chart?
Brief Bio: I am 21 now, but the entirety my adolescent life I've been depressed, withdrawn, with a lack of interfacing with real life (online video game addiction), and am essentially left with a gigantic lack of growth and human experience. As such I've developed a lot of neurotic thinking about who I should be and what is healthy and so and so on. The past couple years I've been spending a lot of energy on self development with wavering degrees of success. Interestingly the most satisfying experiences tend to be on the manic side and I feel might resemble a personality disorder or a preference for self centered fantasy. However upon continued reflection of my generic chart readings I've began to wonder if the astrological natal chart hints at the purest version of myself, and that some of my strange nature is not out of a defect of poor growth but an essential part to my divine self.
So I suppose the question I would be asking is: Am I meant to be an extreme person? I feel like if I had LOTS of money I would be out and about being a ridiculously eccentric, perhaps insane entrepreneur causing a ruckus and being invasive attempting to move in a new paradigm with bold cut throat economic decisions. I have dialogues for such things all the time, very natural and pretty witty, almost a television show, but fully functional assuming people aren't scared of me. I'm not very attached to the preceding scenario ( I do play the lottery with lots of hope), but it is a pretty significant trend in my psyche, to be someone in a strong position effecting meaningful change or giving the world other gifts through powerful individuality.
Anyhow, to be clear, my primary question is, what kind of person is in this chart? Anything that helps me understand is useful, but I feel broader deeper understandings that the auto natal chart generators don't have is more useful, I've never had another intuitive human being on the subject. Even light suggestions such as an archetype etc. or a couple adjectives and a noun strung together to help tie my understanding of my chart together would be wonderful.
On another note: I would be open to suggestions of any kind, and enjoy the prospect of any dialogue and am happy to answer any questions.
Thank you.