posted October 31, 2011 10:55 PM            

I don't want to innundate you, so I'm just going to start with my chart. I've already had a fair amount of input about my marriage, so its somewhat less of a priority.

After you get to understand my chart, then I will contact you and make arrangements to communicate with you and provide proper compensation for your time and effort.

I do have specific issues/questions on my mind, but being a psychic, you would probably figure it all out easily without my input.

I share your faith, and a large part of your outlook as per your bio on your website.

posted November 01, 2011 09:23 AM            

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posted November 01, 2011 10:45 AM            

You have two 12th house planets. The 12th house is the single most difficult placement, according to Sasportas, I think.

Is it very hard to open your heart to people? Do you have a deep sense of insecurity when putting yourself "out there" in life?

Saturn in the 12th feels like a child who wants to join the group, but holds back because he is afraid people will not like him. So, in the end, he walks away

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posted November 01, 2011 10:46 AM            

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posted November 01, 2011 11:04 AM            

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You can, always, bring up sorrows with me and not be ashamed of them . Loss such as we have had changes you and instills a great depth

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posted November 01, 2011 11:10 AM            

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posted November 01, 2011 11:12 AM            

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Wow
Chiron conj the ASC in Pisces. Do you have something physical brings a lot of pain. Were you bullied as a child? I find this Chiron seems to have that?

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I had a difficult childhood in terms of emotions. Yes, I was an unhappy child. Materially, I was given everything a child could need. The best of everything. However, the emotional element wasn't there. I also left home at 14 and went to school abroad on my own. When I returned at 18, I served in the military. Then I left for America for college. I basically left my parents at 14.

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You have two 12th house planets. The 12th house is the single most difficult placement, according to Sasportas, I think.

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Yes. I have borne the burden of Venus in 12th all my life. Its painful and often downright sorrowful.

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Is it very hard to open your heart to people? Do you have a deep sense of insecurity when putting yourself "out there" in life.

Saturn in the 12th feels like a child who wants to join the group, but holds back because he is afraid people will not like him. So, in the end, he walks away

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posted November 01, 2011 11:13 AM            

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If you could put on a larger chart, it would be easier on my eyes

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posted November 01, 2011 11:16 AM            

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You are low in fire. Do you feel that motivation is hard? Is it hard to have get up and go?

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Motivation in human relationships is low. Not when it comes to my career.

I have undergone incessant struggles. Even though I have a "get up and go" attitude and pride myself in not being a defeatist, it is sometimes difficult.

posted November 01, 2011 11:19 AM            

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Pluto conj Uranus in the 7th---Yikes
Have you had a lot of ups and downs in your marriage? Have you had a lot of fast starts and abrupt endings to committed relationships?

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My marriage has been excellent. Sure there are disagreements from time to time, but they have been minor. It happens in a union of two strong personalities. I do have a fast start marriage. I hope you read my marriage story.

Committed relationships, on the other hand, have been a long series of miserable events, one after another. Outside of my wife, I seem to be destined to a life of painful love. We can get into all the details as we go along.

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posted November 01, 2011 11:22 AM            

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Jupiter in 2nd
Are you lucky with money? Do material things come easily to you?

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I don't know if I'm "lucky" with money. I do work hard at my career.

I am lucky enough to have a life surrounded by some beautiful material things, but it doesn't mean much.

Money flows out of my life as easily as it flows in. I'm generous with my money in my support of others, and in that sense, I am charitable but can also be thought of as spendthift.

I do have a moderately sizable paycheck, but then again, a lot of it has to do with waking up at 5 am and sleeping at midnight everyday.

posted November 01, 2011 11:25 AM            

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NN in 5th Do you need to learn to play more, have fun, creative and let loose lol

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Yes. I've been told that throughout my whole life, including by females I used to and still love. I was a repressed child, and when success began to find me after I turned 18, I became one serious dude pre-occupied with stability and my future.

posted November 01, 2011 11:28 AM            

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Mars conjunct Venus. Are you a charismatic guy. Don't be humble

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posted November 01, 2011 11:32 AM            

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Cap Sun in the 10th. Is career super important to you? Is your social standing the same, your reputation?

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Its not that the career is important to me. I'm far from being a workaholic. Take my job away from me and I'll rejoice. As long as the bills can be paid. I don't live for my job. I do live for the stability of my future and that of my family.

I do have a compelling need to be respected, and I don't know why. As to my reputation, I guess its important enough to me. But in real life, I have hordes of people who would say "that is a respectable, trustworthy guy"
but would be unable to connect with me on a friendship level.

posted November 01, 2011 11:37 AM            

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Neptune in the 9th---- Is your spirituality hard for you? Was it hard to find God?

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Finding God wasn't very hard for me. Consider my unique circumstance. I grew up in South-East Asia and neither of my parents had God in their lives, even though they were both Oxbridge British educated.

I hooked up with two sisters (again girls) down the street when I was kindergarten age and started attending Sunday School. I grew up in a Southern Pentecostal/Charismatic church. You do realize how weird that is in East Asia, seeing the same electric guitars, drum set and overhead projector as one would see in a church in Tennessee, South Carolina or Virgina, where my wife grew up. She's a UVa grad (like you) and VCU grad.

Finding peace within God has been more of a on again/off again challenge, given my difficult childhood and incessant struggles.