posted November 14, 2011 11:46 PM
hi everyone! i'm new to this site and kind of new to astrology. i have a problem, and i'd super duper appreciate your help or advice or experiences if you're willing to spare some. here is my chart:
here is my boyfriend's chart:
to make a long story short... i've been dating this guy for 2.5 to 3 years. the good thing is that we both care DEEPLY for each other and would sacrifice anything within our power to make the other one happy, and we just get along well.
these past couple of years have been amazing in that i've learned SO MUCH about myself. in fact, we broke up once because i felt like i needed time to get myself together and figure out what i want and who i am (sun in XII maybe?). growing up i always considered myself to be more of a cancer, and i'm slowly warming up to and enjoying the hell out of my leo side. yadda yadda yadda i became "stronger" and we got back together and everything was great.
but i feel like the more i'm finding out about myself and the more confident i'm becoming, the more he's holding me back. basically, i have a feeling that we're both sacrificing ourselves to make each other happy. he bends over backwards for me, i think because he's afraid of losing me (his moon in libra, venus in pisces). and i'm staying because i feel like he deserves it. our relationship doesn't come naturally anymore, and i know that romance fades. i'm trying to determine whether or not it's worth it to hold on to someone who loves me and will do anything for me... or to be completely free and vulnerable (which sounds more fun - my moon in sagittarius).
this isn't the first time i've felt this way. unfortunately, other boys are usually catalysts for these feelings, like this time.
i apologize for rambling, but i suppose it works because it reflects how scattered i am inside. one thing holding me back is that we've already broken up before, and he said that he'd never felt more miserable in his life. i don't want to be the one to rip up his emotions and throw them in a furnace AGAIN.
did i mention we have plans to move in together in a couple of months??
and for anyone interested in numerology, i'm in a 9 personal year, so there's another sign. there are lots of signs and red flags all over the place. can you, a level-headed third party, please help me out? just tell me what you think, or what you would do in this situation. i appreciate your help IMMENSELY!