posted December 10, 2011 05:02 PM            

My son’s father: Taurus, May 19, 1971. Birth City: Veracruz, Mexico

Me: Capricorn, January 4, 1985. Birth time: 9:50 AM. Birth City: Syracuse, NY

My son: Virgo, August 24, 2009. (just in case, as he is being affected by all of this too) Birth Time: 6:56 PM Birth City: Savannah, NY

Here is my story:
Okay, so I am a mess and I have no idea what to do anymore. Do I move forward still with what I always have and continue to feel in my heart? Or do I forget about it all and take a different path? I feel stuck and I have for a long time, well up until about a few months ago. I felt fine then. Like my life finally was on track with my ex and that plans were going to be set in motion. Then I did something that I felt like I had to do in my life to prove a point to myself. I moved in with my son’s father. We got back together. He has a drinking problem but I wanted to prove to myself that either maybe it could work or it could not. He told me that if we ever lived together he would stop drinking. He even gave me a promise ring. Not even into one month he drank. It took one more time of it and then I moved back out. During that time I had to lose almost complete touch with the man who I love dearly. I have loved him for what seems like 1000 years, and I will love him for 1000 more. I realize now that my decision to move in with my son’s father was not the best one, however, I DO believe it was a lesson that the Universe wanted me to learn!

I feel that ever since I have moved back to my parent’s house and got back in complete touch with my ex again, well that me and him have drifted apart. Our conversations have not been that good and I do not understand fully why. I believe that maybe a BIG part of the reason why is because I basically “disappeared” kind of during those 3 months I lived with my son’s father. I only spoke to my ex probably, I’m going to say maybe five times during those three whole months that I was there. Maybe seven. But that’s not a lot. Before I had moved I was talking to my ex every week. He would sometimes call me too. Now I only talk to him close to twice a week and he never calls me.

In one conversation recently he even mentioned marriage again though. So I thought it was a good sign, except he said it in like an impatient way. His exact words were: “You better come see me soon so I can marry you or I’m going to have to marry someone else.” He says he was just kidding after I confronted him about it, but why say it? Then his last words to me were “Don’t go marrying someone else over there.” I told him that he is crazy and that I want to marry him and that I’m waiting for him. I always have been.

But everything has now changed and he has even told me that things have changed because we have not seen each other in so long; that we are different people now. I asked him recently to be honest. I told him that if he did not want me to call him anymore, that I would not. But he needs to be honest with me. He told me that he still wants me to call him. I also told him that if he meets anyone else, even though it will hurt, I hope he would tell me the truth. He told me that he has NO plans to meet anyone else, not to worry about it; but if it did happen he would definitely tell me because he never would want to hurt my feelings.

Our last conversation, which was two days ago, was a negative one. He was having a bad day. Something bad had happened to him. I asked him what was going on, but I was not trying to be nosy. I just wanted to know because I care and because I get worried. I love him for crying aloud! But he told me straight out that he could not talk about it now and that he did not want to tell me. I was shocked, but then reality hit me and I realize now that maybe we are not as close as we used to be.

My main question is this: I would like to know what is seen in our charts. Why are negative conversations happening now instead of the happy ones we used to have? Do you see this changing back into positivity? Is this just a rough patch and will we get through it? Is there any hope for me and him to see each other again? Do our charts show us getting back together down the road? Or is it now time to start forgetting our plans and moving on without each other?

This is very hard on me because he is the only man I have ever truly, truly loved and he is the only one that I have felt these things for. I believe he is my soulmate and the one I am destined to be with (he has confessed the exact same things to me before as well), however I do not understand why he is being so negative lately.

My parents now feel that I am destined to be with my son’s father (they did think my ex was the one for me, but now they disagree). But my son’s father is very smothering and I just do not feel the way for him that I feel for my ex. I just do not believe that I am destined to be with my son’s father! I do not believe that is the Universe’s plan, however it may be and I would like to know what is seen with that and what our charts say since life is not how we always imagine it to be. The Universe may have a different plan in mind for me, however, I pray not!

Thank you for reading this and thank you in advance for your help. If you require any other information, please do not hesitate to ask me.

-Megan

posted December 10, 2011 05:05 PM            

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posted December 10, 2011 09:23 PM            

Here are the links to my charts. Please let me know if these links work. I believe I followed the instructions carefully, though.

My Chart: http://i1142.photobucket.com/albums/n606/MegBaneg/astro_2gw_01_megan_banegas720445934.gif

My Ex Boyfriend's Chart: http://i1142.photobucket.com/albums/n606/MegBaneg/astro_2gw_02_marcial_gutierrez747722934.gif

My Son's Father's Chart: http://i1142.photobucket.com/albums/n606/MegBaneg/astro_2gw_03_celestino_salazar753324918.gif

My Son's Chart: http://i1142.photobucket.com/albums/n606/MegBaneg/astro_2gw_04_sebastian_salazar760828684.gif

posted December 12, 2011 12:45 PM            

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posted December 14, 2011 08:26 AM            

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posted December 14, 2011 04:29 PM            

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posted December 14, 2011 05:59 PM            

Thank you, Ami Anne!

posted December 22, 2011 07:46 PM            

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posted December 22, 2011 07:49 PM            

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posted December 26, 2011 05:18 PM            

I would love it if you could look at my chart. Would you mind looking at my ex-boyfriend's as well? His is the Taurus, April 25, 1983 from Sinaloa, Mexico chart.

Thank you SO very much for your time and also thank you for those kinds words. I do try to be sweet most of the time, however I can have a very stubborn, irritable/moody, and determined personality at times!

Thank you again, Ami Anne.

posted December 26, 2011 05:22 PM            

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posted December 26, 2011 09:47 PM            

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posted December 27, 2011 07:42 PM            

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posted January 04, 2012 09:31 PM            

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Originally posted by ladyvi:
Hey I would love to do a tarot reading for you if you want to private message me with questions feel free! You need some clarity!

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