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Topic: What was that?
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Still_Hopeful
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From: USA
Registered: Aug 2009
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posted December 14, 2011 03:04 PM
  
Hi!
I am going through a difficult times but I am managing it to the best of my abilities. even though some days I am in despair, for the most part I am ok 
I recently experienced something which I 've never experienced.Basically, I was talking to my Mom about The father of my baby, and I asked her "what is it, why he is doing what he is doing"
and all of the sudden, I replied to this question MYSELF and I felt a very warm feeling inside of my chest which accompanied with the feeling that something shifted.
However when I realized what I just said aloud I was disgusted and repelled. I had this warm feeling in my chest for about 10 sec after that. What was it? Chakra opening? Why when I answered to my question and said it aloud I had this warm feeling?
It is possible ? or it is just figment of my imagination?
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LEXX
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posted December 14, 2011 03:27 PM
Not sure.
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anongrl10
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From: won't_disclose
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posted December 14, 2011 03:32 PM
I'm mostly puzzled by your feeling disgusted when you realized what happened. 
Perhaps what you were talking about is relevant here.
I don't find it strange to answer our own questions or to feel in our bodies a shift in the mental plane. But what I don't understand is your reaction when you realized what happened. Why disgusted and why repelled? Was the answer you gave yourself contemptible? IP: Logged |
Still_Hopeful
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posted December 14, 2011 03:49 PM
Hi Anon,
I am very puzzled by this as well.
For a long time I asked myself the same question over and over again. "Why he is doing what he is doing, why he can not stop, does he see what he is doing is very damaging to me and all people around him". But after a while I stopped asking this question I just told myself "he is who he is, and will never figure him out" about 1 weeks ago or so, My Mom started the conversation again which included the same topic. Even though I tried to avoid this conversation, I got sucked into it.
So I asked my mom the same question,"Why he is doing it?" and all of the sudden i found an answer it just came to me. and I said it aloud. I had this image in my head he wants physically beat me as hard as he can but after that I had this image of him kissing me all bloody passionately.
I was seriously repelled. I was like "wow... what was that?" But as soon as I said an answer to my Mom , I started to have this warm glowing feeling inside of my chest which accompanied with the feeling that something shifted .It lasted for 10 sec and then it passed. But I felt better.
even though I knew, I need to take a shower.
After taking the shower I felt even better. What was that? My mind playing tricks on me?
I was/am not into S/M at all, I am against any physical abuse.
from where this disturbing image came from?
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anongrl10
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From: won't_disclose
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posted December 14, 2011 04:12 PM
Chakras won't give you disturbing images at least not of this kind! You actually saw him beating you and then kissing you with blood on his face? Did I get that right?I don't know your relationship with this person. Is he healthy emotionally, mentally, bodily? Are you still together? Is he abusive? The image could be a past memory or a premonition, but because you were wide awake I'm not sure about a premonition (unless you have had this kind of "flashes" before). The feeling of warmth in your chest, was it light or heavy? Did it feel uncomfortable or comfortable? IP: Logged |
Still_Hopeful
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posted December 14, 2011 04:32 PM
"You actually saw him beating you and then kissing you with blood on his face? "
I was all bloody  and he was passionately kissing me (his knuckles were bloody from beating me)
In real life There was not physical abuse, but emotional.he is healthy, and not crazy (he does not have any history of physical abusing girls).
I am not with him.
He is a father of my baby. The feeling was comfortable. Warm glow in a middle of my chest. I do not have any heart problems, May be I have head problems 
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Still_Hopeful
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posted December 15, 2011 01:27 PM
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anongrl10
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From: won't_disclose
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posted December 15, 2011 02:27 PM
Emotional abuse is still abuse.
I think the realization you had about him being emotionally sick (abusive) gave you that warm sensation in your heart chakra. Like healing has begun, something clicked the moment you admitted it out loud to your mother.
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Still_Hopeful
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posted December 15, 2011 06:44 PM
Anon thank you
I think you are right. i think it is all about dominance. I figured him out some time ago that's why we are not together.
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anongrl10
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posted December 16, 2011 04:10 AM
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Originally posted by Still_Hopeful:
Anon thank you
I think you are right. i think it is all about dominance. I figured him out some time ago that's why we are not together.
You're most welcome!
Sometimes we know it intellectually but not deeply in our heart. Your talking about it, admitting it openly while speaking to your mom, made you truly realize it. Deeply in your heart. This is the beginning of healing for you in this area. 
Lots of TLC to you!
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