posted December 21, 2011 05:48 PM            

Grazie!

posted December 22, 2011 01:10 PM            

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posted December 23, 2011 12:41 PM            

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posted December 23, 2011 11:32 PM            

I've always been very wary of our composite chart because it's full of all these red flags, literally! I really do feel like he's my soulmate.

Our relationship had a very difficult beginning. In fact, I always feel like it's backwards. The beginning was on-and-off, like two people who broke up but keep sleeping together. It's funny that you mention fertility. After a year of casual dating, I got pregnant despite me using birth control (that week I had forgotten two days in a row) and us always using a condom. I miscarried a month later (I was actually quick to get over it... Felt very surreal to be pregnant, so when I miscarried I felt like life went back to normal reality TBH), but it brought us closer together. We were exclusive a month later, and I moved into his apartment. It feels backwards because most people have this whirlwind romance, fall in love, move in together, break up, hook up because they can't break up, then never see each other. Perhaps everyone else is backwards, and my bf and I are the only normal ones lol . We have such a beautiful relationship... when he's focused on it.... (more below about his workaholism)

It's also amazing that you mention distance! After we were official, he had to leave for Canada. He's a film producer, and went up there for three months. When he came back, he broke up with me because he was so used to being alone then came home to me and our home. It freaked him out. A week later he came back to his senses, and since then I've been his long-suffering wifey. I constantly have to be telling him how to be in a relationship. I'm his third girlfriend after a long string of random affairs and hookups.

I often feel second place to his work. He's a total workaholic, always on his phone, sending e-mails, missing dinner, forgetting important personal things. We get into a lot of fights over it. For example, the week before I came to LA for the holidays, he had booked a film shoot IN OUR APARTMENT without telling me. I had been gone for two weeks to spend time with my family for Thanksgiving, and came back to LA specifically to see him and spend the week with him celebrating Christmas before going back to my family for actual Christmas. Not only did he not eat dinner with me the evening I came in, he didn't get me any gifts! HE TOTALLY FORGOT. On top of that, the WHOLE WEEK was spent with people in our apartment, filming in every room. I couldn't even relax and watch tv. We spent every evening with the crew. We didn't have one special dinner. Hell, we didn't even eat a single meal alone together. I got very upset, and we got into a huge fight about it. I knew if I hadn't said anything, he would have remembered to get me something like 5 days before Christmas and rushed ordered it to me. While he would have eventually remember, I was so hurt that he would have to eventually remember me at all! I'm constantly making him a priority, while he's very focused on work and building an empire for himself... Must be my Cancer Sun, Libra Moon vs his Cancer Sun, Leo Moon.

Anyway, sorry about the rant... We are culturally very different. I'm a first generation Filipino American, and I grew up in a very traditional home. I used to spend whole summers in the Philippines. My bf, on the other hand, is like the fifth generation to have lived in the US, and his father is English. His mother's family is very much your stereotypical "American" family that has been in the US so long that they're really not sure what their ethnic lineage is. Sometimes he and I don't eat dinner together because he'll want peas and pasta while I'll want super traditional Filipino food. But what we lack in cultural differences we make up in shared values. We both want to be successful and have a family. We both work hard, and appreciate each other's appreciation for hard earned cash. We both like similar things like action movies and comedies, and are both home bodies. We used to play boardgames, but it got far too competitive. While we have few similar interests (he's obviously very into film but not social media, while I'm very into the internet but im not an expert on film) we find ways to find middle ground and share hobbies. He's gotten more into web development even starting his own film software company, while I try to watch more movies and learn about film.